You know I

 December 31st 2010

There are a lot of things I talked about this year, nothing short worth noting, just as that mental relapse which indicated you've arrived at a critical juncture.  The fork in the road to sacred freedom.  Sacred freedom, is something of a willful admonition, that type of discord which arranges itself with the cosmos, not along the line of Greek ancient classical mythology, the kind that we think of God is really just watching us parade with clown suits, wondering, do they really believe that they are carrying a message with my name on it??

 

I must decree a few minor details about myself, before, I continue.  

 

You may know me; but you DON'T THINK you know me.

 

That was when I shifted, that cosmic shift, or what I like to intellectually revise this world as a social cosmic shift, to do with ergonomics.

 

I will completely admit, I have waited for the day to come, when at a density of aging to my present adult life, no one is more intelligent than I am. ( I am waiting for the response to that one.)  But, make no mistake have you, even from when I was just a tot, I knew something about me was different, because most adults would treat me indifferently, based on their lack of wealth or superior motif of choice, superficial means perhaps.

 

To say I've been waiting to become this inferior breech of contempt for others is false.

 

That ^last sentence was quite brilliant in this- my narrative.

 

To think I am a bigot is just as false; condemnation is an operative less affirming word.

 

But to admire myself, based on the inquisitive intuitive power of the intellect??  That seems like a far fetched statement of itself.

 

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What was happening there^.  Tell me how I know.

 

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Marco Almeida - may be many things. . . but Marco Almeida never instilled fear in the minds of many others, less so few.

Marco Almeida - never tried to take away the fear from others; even if they thought I might pass or fail (the test they've there given me.)  You know the cop-out types wearing their badges???  Yeah - the ones that look selfish enough to think they're intimidating (enough) to know if you jump it's because they said it.  Then, it was up to me (my fault) for their being attacked unprovoked.

 

Never in a million years, will a man of my nature, of my immediate awareness, fall for some pound of flesh, or alternatively - allow any other man to think I am diminutive toward make-believe law abiding citizens.  Never in a million years, will another man, outlive or outreach my desire to expose the fear of himself over me.  (Then turn around trying to satisfy his ego, his competition, his 'truth'.)

 

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I've seen so much of myself in this year, that it's scary.

 

It's scary to view the life I lead in terms of no need to sacrifice.

 

It's scary when I see how, how other's might feel wronged in my disparity of a world divided.

 

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This brings me to my last and final words into the year 2012.  Remember: we are not passing into (2011) out of (2010).  We are this year entering 2012, having passed 2011 years since the inception of calendar years.

 

You see^ people who suck at doing math, suck at finding the right question to answer (the right problem).  The Mayan calendar has been so marketed, it breeches the fact, that we are entering the new year of the Mayan civilization recorded.  Everyone thinks it's not until January 1st "2012".  They are dead wrong.  

 

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I have only been afraid - feared only 2 people in my life.

 

One is my father Mario.

 

The other is my uncle Anibal.

 

They put the fear of god in me - no one else does - .

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And if you read this entry scratching your head - good 4 u.

When I appease other's, if it is to make me think of anything else - it is to make me believe in the property of autonomy, and all those who search to extinguish our self-respect in it.