Thursday, September 24, 2026
dream life
That is a remarkably vivid and symbolic dream. Dreams that carry such high narrative intensity often reflect how our subconscious processes themes of identity, integrity, clarity of vision, and alienation from surrounding social or moral structures.
Here is a breakdown of the core psychological and archetypal motifs running through your dream:
1. Vision vs. Blindness ("In the kingdom of the blind...")
The central contrast in your dream is between your "special instruction" eyesight and the collective blindness of the convention.
- The Blind Convention: In dreams, blindness among a crowd typically signifies ignorance, conformity, or a lack of self-awareness. It represents a system where people are trapped in rigid, self-destructive patterns without realizing they are trapped.
- Your Sight: Possessing clarity when everyone else lacks it highlights a feeling of personal awakening. You perceive the underlying reality and the "ideologies" for what they really are, while others merely act out scripted roles.
2. The Covert Hitman Without Violence
The role of a "covert hitman" who chooses not to kill is a powerful archetype:
- Usually, a hitman represents decisive, lethal agency. But here, your weapon isn't physical destruction—it's observation, presence, and moral distinction.
- You aren't participating in their self-destructive cycles; your mere presence stands outside the hierarchy. It suggests you recognize power in yourself, but define that power by restraint and ethical superiority rather than participating in the games others play.
3. Exposing Artifice & Proving the Divine
- The Mafia as Illusion: Recognizing that the corrupt organization is fundamentally an illusion—lacking true self-awareness and self-sufficiency—points to a realization that dogmatic systems and toxic egos often project immense authority, yet are internally hollow and fragile.
- The Spiritual Mission: Bringing order, truth, or divine reality into a room defined by corruption and estrangement suggests a strong internal drive toward higher principles, authenticity, and rectifying hypocrisy.
A Grounded Reflection
It’s completely natural to wake up from an intense, cinematic dream like this feeling a surge of resolve and personal empowerment. Dreams often dramatize our feelings about the waking world—especially moments where you might feel fundamentally different from the crowds, social circles, or systems around you.
The key to integrating a dream like this in waking life is channeling that feeling of clarity into grounded, everyday integrity:
- Recognizing false posturing or hypocrisy in the world around you without letting it alienate you from real, positive human connections.
- Standing firmly in your own moral code without needing to constantly measure yourself against the shortcomings of others.
Did a particular situation or dynamic in your waking life recently make you feel like you were observing an "illusion" or navigating a group of people who couldn't see what was right in front of them?
normative ethics in transparency
“The function of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prays”
– Søren Kierkegaard
Wednesday, September 23, 2026
Proverbs 17:4
Wrong doers eagerly listen to gossip; liars pay close attention to slander. -Proverbs 17:4
Tuesday, September 22, 2026
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Saturday, September 19, 2026
September 19th 2026
That which is deep is silent, tranquil, and in this tranquillity is the spring of the inexhaustible. —Krishnamurti
Context: The mind and ‘what is’ are not two separate processes, but naming separates them. When this naming ceases, there is a direct relationship: the mind and ‘what is’ are one. The ‘what is’ is now, the observer himself without a term, and only then is the ‘what is’ transformed; it is no longer the thing called emptiness with its associations of fear, and so on. Then the mind is only the state of experiencing, in which the experiencer and the experienced are not. Then there is immeasurable depth, for he who measures is gone. That which is deep is silent, tranquil, and in this tranquillity is the spring of the inexhaustible. The agitation of the mind is the usage of word. When the word is not, the measureless is.
Krishnamurti, Commentaries on Living
Friday, September 18, 2026
September 18th 2013
A must share:
Last night I saw an actress that totally blew me away in her performance. It was not a performance I fell in love with, as much as I find myself attracted to the girl. This is based on attraction of a peerless nature, not one that is "boy meets girl." This is how to learn; I examine a question before I answer it. 1- As a person I have worked valiantly on my integrity and 2- how I lead by example. 3- Therefore, what I find most important in life is how I am a role model of inspiration as opposed to 4- success that is tantamount. (I think of the analogy between role model vs. a fish out of water.) Do you want to be authentic = role model or someone that is the type that follows the crowd as if typically engaged = fish. That is what this actress informed me of as a signal to it.
I have been trying to make sense of it. I have made significant self discoveries in the past month, so I needed to look at this entry to help insure myself of my feelings. The answer I found is something cannot be true unless you imagine it to be true. (As a rule: cannot be a fact, if ever.) I have been looking for this piece of my life so that it translates in the world.
"If you fail to get people imagining what they think to be true is in fact true, but only to offend them, you are doing it wrong.
Answer: whether or not something is false it is unless that person realizes they have only imagined what they think to be true (if true) is not of reality but of choice. Therefore, all things are dependent on an unscientific approach in knowledge. How do you know truth (all of it) is not true unless you imagine it to be true. That is what explains self knowledge." Marco Almeida, 2013
force as nature
Thursday, September 18, 2025
When I was younger I knew more than I gave myself credit for. Now that I'm older I give myself more credit than nature intended. (Something like that.) - Marco
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Whether or not something is false it is unless that person realizes they have only imagined what they think to be true (if true) is not of reality but of choice. Therefore, all things are dependent on an unscientific approach in knowledge. How do you know truth (all of it) is not true unless you imagine it to be true. That is what explains self knowledge." Marco Almeida, 2013
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September 18th 2024
I do not blame anyone other than myself for should I have made my mark in acting. On the contrary the guilt that comsumes me is in a completely competitive manner of being. That I got to nowhere becauee I refused to get angry enough. The acting world is not for the faint at heart.
The closest I've come to accomplish anything of an actors medium is conveyed with the uncovering of ideas dealiing with problem solving (one question that no one really knows the answer: what is acting? )
In asking the questions which developed my psychological need to be an actor is conducive to illustrating the answers as a philosopher.
Therefore, my answer to the final question: what is acting.. in my personal view is to be an actor is to be an actor in a web that I am trying to weave. In that metaphorical state, I am trying to convey a character having a human experience.
I never got to double down on that and prove myself.
Maybe one day.
- Marco
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September 18th 2024
I asked myself this question and came up with another question as the answer...
The question addresses... what is fear in the same sense I ask what is my greatest fear and on what terms. How do I come to this conclusion.
My only fear in life is - is - how do I know I am fulfilling my life's purpose. I attribute this fear according to fulfilling God's will in me. Have I failed not only myself but have i failed what god intended me to do.
I only ask this on no uncertain terms.
I ask this question because the truth to me is that I feel I have been put on this earth to acquire my faith in god and in terms of what I am supposed to do in this realm of thinking.
This question of purpose.
It is a void in me as I feel it.
I propose all this in a definitive element, being, how do I make a difference in life. It's really that simple.
Accordingly, to make this difference I equate with purpose.
Does anyone have the sixth sense. The sixth sense to dare enter into such a fear without acknowledging it or do you continue to live your life according to societal standards.
I don't have the answer.
I simply know what I feel.
That is all.
- Marco
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