Hyper validating focus

 July 27th 2026

Being attached to my ADHD brain and how I connect with other people, "being present" is not my biggest problem. If I am faced with a situation (the same way Trevor Noah is describing. . . ) I need to figure out how I am feeling on my end before considering how I make someone else feel. To this effect, I am acting on things in a neurodivergent manner. My point is there is a dynamic involved, that I think makes another person feel validated. (Rewind . . ) my problem is in feeling validated myself. Not the kind of validation everyone wants as validation. (i.e. "I want person 'x' to like me.)  I literally do not feel the need for it.

I have never been thought of as a person that doesn't pay attention. (I am basing this last claim on how I make others feel. . .)

The problem is in staying in the moment, as I listen, without editing what my thoughts are, 1- why I am in this moment, 2 - without predicting the outcome of my next thought. How I function executively per se?

I hope that made sense.

- Marco

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Sasha Hamdani, MD  

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Dr. Chris Lee  

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Sasha Hamdani, MD  

July 27th 2026

Dr. Hamdani,

I Always thought I Was a better auditory learner than one that reads to plagiarize (from memory). IS this different from APD??

- Marco

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Auadhd here I can't do subtitles as I focus on those and not the show/movie

my rebuttal:

Not sure I am right in saying this, but being able to process what is being done (as sensory experience withstands it), that - 1 - interpreting something happening in real time (auditory processing) together with - 2 -reading what is happening (subtitles) enhances my ability to learn from the source or material. The more my sensory experience is elevated, the better for an ADHDer.

I hope that made sense?

- Marco

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Stanislavski theoretical input

On sense and memory

 Strasberg instruction

My ADHD brain (by Marco Almeida)

 Dr Russel Barkley

March 29th 2026

This makes total sense to me.  I Will make this relatively brief. I have ADHD and I am clinically diagnosed (not self diagnosed).  My point is that everything Dr. Barkley said is the truth.  It's true on a purely empirical level strictly through observation of the ADHD brain and how it operates.  The single most effective thing I have done for myself is to ascertain what objective my feelings (no matter how intense they are) I am experiencing.  I tie the words objective together with feelings to equalize what is the source.  To identify it and what triggers my emotion.  Therefore ultimately the answer is to lead with intent.  My intention is a powerful source for what my nature acts.  And it is in this nature that the brain regulates itself impulsively.  What I do need is to say here that depression affected me personally and to get through the stages in my life that involved identifying it.  The cause of depression may be attributed to being unaware of how ADHD and my emotional self DID NOT regulate.

Conclusion:

With the proper tools and channels - I got though what seemed to be perilous in my advanced stages of ADHD. What I mean to say is that I have advanced ADHD in that I was able to see the causes that relate to my ADHD brain and how unique it is.  I have taken anti depressants (to deal with depression) but it is not something I can say attributes to any sort of solution. Solutions come through making the effort to regulate and order to regulate is a recalibration of myself.  Recalibration being I although use anti depressants (medication) is not a miracle drug.  The cure is not in drugging yourself.  The purpose of using medication is to help yourself use resources that help you learn what coping mechanisms you must apply.

Note: I have taken Concerta (ADHD specific drug) for a period of about 2yrs.  It helps my attention/focus and aids in my regulation of behavior.  

When you think of regulation = think of a new manner of which you employ your agency.  Your behavior is a reflection.  As a reflection of what you do is your mirror in the world.  TO the world you do NOT have to mistake regulation for "hiding" your (ADHD from "the world").   I repeat: do not confuse regulation as some form of "hiding ADHD" so the world can't see it.

ADHD is a gift.  Just always - always remember that.

- Marco 🍁

My random response re; ADHD

 “If you have ADHD, would you recommend antidepressants or not? Why?”

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Someone like me who has taken antidepressants my entire adult life. (Effectually from about the age I began taking AD around 20yrs old to present).  

I say coming from experience.

That medication together with therapy.... is life altering.

Keep in mind I am a product of life long commitment to doing both.

No cheating per se, meaning there is no quick solution or easy outs. You face youself with dealing through your fears and objections to treatment. My point is unless you participate as an observer of your personal journey, where you take the wheel. No one is going to save you. You are the help you deserve. You are not a hostage to this voluntary process. Step by step, piece together your best version of yourself. It's worth it. I promise you.

I am 50 years old.

Edit: I decided to list the meds I take. I fear nothing/with nothing to hide.

Abilifi is my primary source of Antidepressants. I also mix it with a small dose of Bupobrion and Lemotrigin. You will ot require this. I take this dose because it works for me. Everyone is different. (Sorry if my spelling is off on the meds.)

Do not listen to nay sayers! Go with your heart, dear friend. I do not bullshit anyone. I come straight from experience.

I am an actor, a poet, a philosopher. I have scribed (i.e. journalled) for years on end.  

God bless,

Marco 🇨🇦

Peace its importance and the impotence of language

 Surely, to discipline the mind to pay attention is to bring about its deterioration - which does not mean that the mind must restlessly wander all over the place like a monkey. But, apart from the attention of absorption, these two states are all we know. Either we try to discipline the mind so tightly that it cannot deviate, or we just let it wander from one thing to another. Now, what I am describing is not a compromise between the two; on the contrary, it has nothing to do with either. It is an entirely different approach; it is to be totally aware so that your mind is all the time attentive without being caught in the process of exclusion.⁠

Try what I am saying, and you will see how quickly your mind can learn. You can hear a song or a sound and let the mind be so completely full of it that there is not the effort of learning. After all, if you know how to listen to what your teacher is telling you about some historical fact, if you can listen without any resistance because your mind has space and silence and is therefore not distracted, you will be aware not only of the historical fact but also of the prejudice with which he may be translating it, and of your own inward response.⁠

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I will tell you something. You know what space is. There is space in this room. The distance between here and your hostel, between the bridge and your home, between this bank of the river and the other - all that is space. Now, is there also space in your mind? Or is it so crowded that there is no space in it at all? If your mind has space, then in that space there is silence - and from that silence everything else comes, for then you can listen, you can pay attention without resistance. That is why it is very important to have space in the mind. If the mind is not overcrowded, not ceaselessly occupied, then it can listen to that dog barking, to the sound of a train crossing the distant bridge, and also be fully aware of what is being said by a person talking here. Then the mind is a living thing, it is not dead.⁠

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~ J. Krishnamurti⁠, Chapter 18⁠, Think on These Things⁠ ==============

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