Sincerity of the cynic

 My greatest life asset is in learning or knowing I draw from when the company is bad; this is to know feeling where I am not accepted.  (Only before the welcome wore out.)  It is paradoxical.  It is also more common among people that can't be trusted, without passing judgement. The property, the literal use of this wording is as proper and placed into a specific context, trust.  

Trust - is a force that empowers only those who don't threaten another's survival (strength) as though they were to act if they've been threatened (weakness) for fear of it.  It's a dichotomy for testing your own behavior.

My point is when other's put you at a disadvantage because they've disarmed you for your reality of make-believing everything is a fairytale.  Maybe the cost is in shifting your favor.  (What do you call it?)

This isn't game theory.  It's about psychology.

I like to think in fairytales.  Not in happy endings.  It's a (psychological) deliriously inspired kind of thinking.   Where you hold onto something and because it means what will take you someplace else.  The reality of this parable is to treat the same way you are wired.  But not if the same shape you imagined (that got you from a-to-b) got you to deform reality?  The question you ask yourself is in the same position you took before you allowed something else to compare.  This is not thinking about right from wrong.  It's about differentiating why you are the way you are. You may see yourself as a gift from gods hand.  But gods hand displaces you on the map of life.  And I love that feeling.

What is knowing (is knowing) you are someone that trusts you are the same choice, you made in fear of the mask falling off? Have you ever made a choice that you thought was you knowing you would make that choice, only to have it backfire you quickly bury the mask for a new one.  My point is if you took your worst fear and put it into a choice you made, what is the mask you had on before your fear took over.  The idea is to know your fear is the same as in fear of making choices that alter your outcome.  (Preferably, you rather not.)  The weight of the fear is what you identify with.  How do you know?  How do you know what is fear?  If you think about it that way.  The fear vanishes.  And the existence you have based on it.  Everything remains is that first instinct you have, not to reveal how fear makes you freeze in time, chasing something that may not be there.  

I have this in me.  The choice.  The fear.  The mask.  There is nothing else to control how it records life. So I act.  And ask questions based on how I feel, only.  

I guess that's the best way to live largely off limiting my fears to something I do not act on. (Turned into something I know is not fear itself.)  A child in fear of dying. . . 

- Marco

Purity of the heart is to will one thing

 I am content with what I have. I am happy with my God, with my chant and my devotion. Devotion to God is the song of my heart, and my happiness is in that song. Your song may be more clear and open, but when I sing my heart is full. What more can a man ask than to have a full heart? We are brothers in my song, and I am not disturbed by your song."⁠

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When the song is real there is neither you nor I, but only the silence of the eternal. The song is not the sound but the silence. Do not let the sound of your song fill your heart.⁠

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J. Krishnamurti⁠

Commentaries on Living⁠

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"What more can a man ask than to have a full heart?" - Main objective in dissertion

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The above question Krishnamurti asked. It is a very truthful statement. (If not asked in the form of a question.)

How does one arrive at a full heart?

I am intrigued.

No one has ever asked me that, before.

I love it when I come across something curious.

I don't care to rationalize it. (Maybe not knowing is enough.)

But if I ask myself truthfully, what is it like to feel like having a heart so full you can not lie about it to the point that life itself is in yonder. My idea is that if I am smaller in the universe than the paradox suggests that life is a bigger than we realize of life's pressures in it. What then is sacrifice, what then is love. What.

It puts everything about who I am in perspective. Krishnamurti suggesting that silence, the silence you experience is a feeling. And if that feeling is one of the idea you possess god. Is god that filling your heart? God the idea. God the silent killer. God your friend.

I can assure myself. That if I know in my heart what is it made of. Maybe it is purely an existential question.

Can you lie to yourself (and others) about the seriousness of feeling. Feeling your heart so full, whether it be joy or not. Just a feeling of it being full no matter what the contents.

The answer? Maybe it is the only reason for living. . .

- Marco

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truth telling

 If I am what I think is true for me, (i.e. metacognitively) then in my sensory experience only logic dictates what this truth carries at the other end of wisdom. (ex. 'wisdom' = form) Wisdom vs form. Therefore, form is wisdom unpronounced. Once something appears, this wisdom operates as the apparatus we continue to travel onward. However, there is no truth to what this means, because if there is a supposition which language instructs itself. This is the mind's cogency in seeing order. (e.g. order vs disorder is a preexisting condition as a theoretical conclusion ++ we ask which came first if it were order or disorder??) That only 'order' exists within a structure that the universe creates - acts in answering. Which is a conscious thought. The thinker is the thought. The observer the observed. And this in a conclusion into the ending of what wisdom is. We may lie, we may cheat, we may argue in circles. But the truth that wisdom creates as the ultimate sacrifice into how truth functions. That is in the idea you supply, repossess and to 'steal' or 'copy' from something else you not own as if yours? Therefore, you must question everything as the exception to the rule. Rules we follow but are disobeyed. The skill is in finding principle in your action. The truth teller in you.

This is how form is thought of. All of it. Only we do not assess its meaning. We simply offer our acceptance unconsciously aware of such things.

(end.) - Marco

August 9th 2010

 

Compliance is never the clear-cut alternative, in fact, our compliance must never be transmitted. Never quit, based on your own compliance.

Compliance has only ever generated, false hope, mistrust, disingenuous human error i.e. enslaving corruption, such as multi-national bureaucracy/guilty pleasure of satsifaction/greed which acts superfluously etc.

Case in point - I haven't ever been able to tell, which from which is fakest in their approach. Truth be told - I never have to do so myself.

August 9th 2012

 

"(b) not making false exceptions toward those others" clarification of principle outcomes:

Can I take great relief in KNOWING that another would take accountability to my VIRTUE, at the same time, "not making false exceptions toward those others."

^That is what addresses the entire meaning of my own humanity.

"not making false exceptions toward those others" = my own ability to impostor will, if my will is being purged upon, imposed wrongfully or rightfully. Intuitively, I do not have to compromise my sense of self worth under any MEANS necessarily due to circumstance.

My accountability can inform of my own conscious, ultimately the truth in all things, so candidly, without recourse or judgment to any kind of 1 - mistrust, 2 - malcontent, 3 - impartiality. 1-2-3 are all false exceptions, then cannot be tolerated. They simply cross boundaries which, therefore, make exceptions.

Ask yourself, can the misuse of my personal space, be treated without a just cause. That may be the most important question I ever considered spoken into thought.

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Marco Almeida

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I do believe there exists a definitive footprint, to happiness. My belief to this end, is there are people, then with false implications of what happiness is, that in knowing such, deviate from their internal struggles into real truth seeking as a moniker of happiness.

People fake happiness, as such a manner, of exhibitionist quality. They have trained their mind, to auto-correct any type of limitation to their ideology of choices, that quantifiable to a world of which acting as a means takes precedence over self conscious reality. In other words, one's own pretension of a psychological nature is endowed from reality as a means; opposed to a retention from consciousness as an end in itself. Once you consider consciousness as your vehicle, it is of ultimate human sacrifice.

Marco Almeida

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People do everything to remain unconscious from the real root of consciousness, to plant the seed of happiness, avoid such internalization of a quantifiable reality. To exact one's own felicity, can be inexact to the trained consciousness.

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"opposed to a retention from consciousness as an end in itself. Once you consider consciousness as your vehicle, it is of ultimate human sacrifice." (Circa 2012)

You defy what is your own fake reality, that the external world is presented as such, then whereas you supply your consciousness as a retention to such vices. Consciousness is a medium from which the soul is drawn as an end in itself.

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Marco Almeida

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I have worked my whole life to achieve this awareness in principle.^

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Marco Almeida

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I do not retract from any of my own feelings regarding consciousness as I've learned it, these are my ideas, of a qualitative end. They are not copied from any other source known.

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If you begin to ask yourself what does your own consciousness mean, not in opposition to the trained mind of others, you distinctly, even intuitively register a very different yet real reality. The alternatives are sel imposed. It is fascinating to think about.