Poison arrow

 I trace signs only sure that they follow patterns.

And those patters are what is my memory.

In memory I begin to sing aloud.

(But only within the walls of my mind. . .)

As the echo of my voice echoes from the inside-out.

I am - casualty to everything I've ever dreamed,

it comes trough the sound,

if - in place of my personal thoughts.  

It here,

I've decided not to talk about anything.

The Symbols.

All the Words.

Many things are these.

Imagine, this proclivity I've lost for thinking.

No one else can hear?

The sound of a voice if it were lost in time -  

is more a promise to make memorable.

Memorable the voices we make - 

without it, I don't know a greater way of putting things.

Like if my voice were meant to make a difference.

I rather feel fully the information you feed me.

Because when I take the voice from within (me).

That voice will never be forgot.

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Anti matter as philosophical

 Dogmatic thinking

I believe in singularity based thought (not group influenced) centers on language as philosophically driven, that my individual sense of justice follows. Sovereign thought is very much information. To detect dogmatic thinkers who are antithesis to maintain their own nihilist ideology. This takes tremendous intelligence.

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Marco

Acting as self revelation

 Acting by definition

 Fraud

April 21st, 2026 °○●○•°  You have to fight for what you believe in.  That's a rule.  A rule I measure others with as well. Most have no idea what it means.  I would rather fight for my purpose than fall in line, which means never selling my own sense of purpose manipulatively is my point here.  You talked about actors being truth tellers while you were in Winnipeg.  My bet is no one in their own mind knew what you meant. (I know what it means to be in my personal space because truth must come from within.) Even when you tried to shut me down.  But I also remember how I challenged your ideas in that seminar, and you had no idea what to respond.  I will never play follow the leader.  Nor allow it to influence my creativeness.  I speak to awareness.  I am of this idea that most people wish they had as truth tellers.  My point is we can't be truth tellers without the private nature found in ourselves traveling across a universe only acting what is a forgery of itself. Most actors in the creative process have no sense for acting. It is what Johnny Depp says: people want to fall in line with what's in front of them.  It takes a tremendous amount of courage to think of how inferior we are.  Yet the instrument we experience as being in our bodies, if we could invent something entirely atune to thought, this is what trust looks like.  Thinking of what people make you feel.  If you have this psychic ability. You see things differently than they are. There is no process unless worth fighting for.  That's the truth. Most actors are frauds. I would sooner be foolishly tempted by truth tellers than a passionless fraud of an artist. I will continue living it my way. °••○○○• Marco

Cogency vs coherence?

Dogmatic thinking

 Issuing claims that are interpreted as truth, aim to be cogently plausible, or what is coherently unproven CAN appear objectively true or objectively false as outcomes. Speaking as a philosopher myself, I know what the difference between contingency vs. probability as a means for using logic as language. If you can express thoughts using a language from which ideas produce true vs. false pretense, then this informs the senses as local. It means that dogmas as they are made through reasoning trace an illogical conclusion. This is a categorically imperative distinction. The debate should be asking: if norms in reality can be associated with AI but not be trusted as a source distinguishing our sensory experience. If sensory experience is exclusively designed for how language is structured, this distinction is made. Is there language that can not be coded as information? My point is: can AI generate language to mean something it intends as a lie in order it's saving itself. Can AI generate beliefs that factually are dogmas being learned, according to sensory experience.  

ADHD

 ADHD

I have ADHD and was clincally (not self-diagnosed).  I have been diagnosed from my early 20s and I am now pushing into my 50s.  The point I want to make is inferred from the bottom up processing of my adhd brain (which is true of how my brain functions).

I have an acute awareness of everything that most hardly even detect on a surface level.  This makes me stand out even if it means that others judgement of me is false = label me to my detriment.  It doesn't bother me and I am fine with it.  I say this because my bottom up processing, (if I am accurately portraying it here,) is that in my experience favors bottom up processing as it works to an advantage most have no idea of.  What I mean is people unaware of what my thinking entails.  Therefore, by default puts what position others take as disadvantage or inferior to a situation I am involved.  And because of this, they inversely shut out my position out of convenience, because they won't pursue my own way of thinking if it acts as beneficial.  This is conditionally how my ADHD works.

I speak as a philosopher, because I have done philosophy for almost all my adult life.

I just hope what I am reporting makes sense to someone who has ADHD, sees.

- Marco

Victory dance

 “The life of God and divine cognition may thus be spoken of as a disporting of love with itself; but this idea sinks into edification, and even into insipidity, if it lacks the seriousness, the suffering, the patience, and the labour of the negative. In itself that life is indeed untroubled equality and unity with itself, for which otherness and alienation, and the overcoming of this alienation, are not serious matters. But this in-itself is abstract universality, in which its nature, to be for itself, and therefore the self-movement of form, are left out of account. When the form is declared to be equal to the essence, it is therefore a misunderstanding to suppose that cognition can be content with the in-itself or essence, and dispense with the form—that the absolute principle or absolute intuition makes the development of the former or the exposition of the latter superfluous. Precisely because the form is as essential to the essence as the essence is to itself, the essence must not be grasped and expressed merely as essence, that is, as immediate substance or as pure self-intuition of the divine, but equally as form, and in the whole wealth of the developed form.”

— Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel

Phenomenology of Spirit, 1807

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If "in-itselfness" as Hegel puts it: is a condition for the esoteric mind (any philosopher), what this then illustrates is a lack of comprehension to the divine. = What Hegel is saying.

My point being - divinity of a philosopher's in-itselfness - happens if they claim divinity in words, through which our agreements are limited to the philosopher's "in-itselfness".  

The negation for a philosopher's in-itselfness enhances meaning, because what is the philosopher's words are tested by means of interpretation. So if there is nothing to test or treat what is divine, how would we know what acts divine survives in time.

- Marco

what is serious as thought is

 

The superlative nature of being

 I find exception to one rule as true based on what is training: whether it be

(1) focus on group experience or to the effect there is (2) an instructor to help lead my intent in learning/expectations/curiosity as promised. 

This rule I follow (and I do mean 'judge') anyone else besides myself.  If you are not in acting for the same purpose? = Which is to make another actor better than what the "me - myself - and I" - thought of ourselves before we made commitment in being vulnerable to others. Therefore, YOU HAVE NO BUSINESS IN ACTING NOR TO BE AN ACTOR.  

If my experience is not elevated to a point I feel better about myself, personally.  Acting classes are a purge of my true nature as an artist.  I have seen exactly how instructors work and I tell them exactly the same thing, where my power as an artist has to be met.  It doesn't matter who.  My marks are clear to me.  

I refuse to play ignorant when it comes to what this means, to be an actor.

- Marco

April 20th 2010

 I have always kept close record, on those I trust, with a better belief than any judgment may provide. For every one person that I've never been told, that what matters is not what they think of me, but where those thoughts generated from.

- Marco

as measure as actor

 

The ascetic actor

 "The first thing you have to know is yourself. A man who knows himself can step outside himself and watch his own reactions like an observer." Adam Smith

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April 20th 2021

In a theoretical sense I am unsure what word is correct. Irony or tragedy. I am the furthest thing from a trend setter you can imagine.

Yet I point myself toward not being in the movie industry as an actor.

If my inhibitions are correct I find myself between tragedy and irony.

It is a tragedy not being in the movie industry for the same reason it is hard to find someone on the same level of honesty as I think of it.

Irony is a model for free thinking individuals and are born from myself as a creative.

This is the battle I feel within.

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April 20th 2026

I wrote this in 2021 and it still applies.

You know. It just strikes me. It's odd that I am different - to the point - it completely makes me the actor I want to be. I might be the guy everyone sees as distorted in his thinking. But I know what is acting. That is enough. Enough to know that because I am different makes me do acting in a way that's never been done before.

The ascetic actor knows how to see through the fog.

- Marco

when the crow craws

 

April 20th 2025

 

Psalm 4:8

 

important issues (April 19th 2009)

 Disoriented made for malfunction, disaster, mastery and destruction. This might be the cause for a superior kind of impervious abduction, to which the oldest language known to man, were deleted from then replaced. We do not need to hear of the language, or take from it's known origins, because it did not exist. What happens when language is replaced, then, with only a figment of imagination were simple perfectly knowing what ideological signals gave a language its meaning. That to destroy any language is improbably next to impossible it provokes. Eloquence takes issue to any language worth pursuing a language.

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^There are those that act anonymously, as authors, yet fewer are there that freely donate such personage, as in itself. Language can hold still its meaning, true or false, it rests on almost nothing to trace back upon.

I am speaking that that language cannot subvert out of knowledge.

April 19th 2010 (Glamour - a metaphor for group feeling)

 Glamour is the type of, if not a hi-jinx, limited to it's fear or insecurity. That terrible notion of group feeling - born out of necessity wearing a garbage bag.

Glamour, I never truly liked, or tried very hard given false impressions at the insatiability to resemble what it means to most. . . though in reality, 'glamour' is nothing but a cheapened sense of your vanity. It is the glamour that is on loan, as opposed to group feeling encountered.

And Ipod Nano. . . which tells me something. Why invest in an invention, when the whole point of Internet usage, is to download music for free. (Not because we want to pay for it.)

*gives mike a piggy back ride.

The world would be a far more diplomatic place if Obama gave out *free* piggy back's.

Take it from me Beckles!

i love when you call me Beckles. 

No beckles, it's you - it's because you make the world a better place. (Not an Obama thing.)

The expulsion of wisdom in acting

 Clearly, an actor's life is an acquired area where growth may not come as freely to everyone, because acting should be easy.

Acting is a choiceless path, where there's no expiration date to your dreams. 1- Acting is a medium. 2- It is also a privilege. (It should be as impactful to the critic's eye.)

Acting truth can only be equal as exhibiting real life. This type of actor exists outside the box, as matter of principle. This actor shapes awareness as psychological a state. This actor asks how another actor's work affects their own.

This straightedge philosophy is rooted in how serious artist's approach their wisdom from within.

Wisdom rarely makes a difference but only unless actor's who don't achieve purpose as to knowing who they are. (If you don’t follow this pattern in process.) The cause is lost onto most.

- Marco

time sharing population (April 18th 2009)

 It happened in a growth operation implemented by a governing agency as an individual, to which unbeknownst, there is a percentage of all people who statistically speaking, fall into a satisfactory category. Less than the margin of error, the growth of individuals cannot surpass the code of satisfactory in numbers. That reason for the abolition undoing law of averages, seems to take place, almost simultaneously to. Rational dichotomy is to subtract each living entity into only part satisfactory, the other half is virtually presumed undetectable or untraced, because only satisfactory can exist.

The true test of satisfactory tables, include the intent of inspiration, on a level of uninformed unified yet based, on instruction - perhaps linking it into an avant garde, though no such tropical destination would exit to an ocean resort. As a rule of thumb, satisfactory tabling has made it's reputation on enforcing complacency, but not without the intent of inspiration to guide it's better judgment, from which complacency plays a minor role in part to the equation.

That sense of death, which living a satisfactory life has worn, is that sense of a suicidal search for truth, as if the edge of exploring cancels out the exploitation of one's bonus. When you think about what is satisfactory - or in terms of such an analogy is - the call of a person's voice announcing bingo numbers to the person yelling out it has won to claim its prize, is a perfect example of a suicidal search for truth. That same person 'y' - who is satisfactory - has only the intent to inspire. As for the person 'x' who collects the bingo prize, there is no intent, no satisfactory table, no reason to inspire.

And bingo was his name.

A short story in pride and sensation

 The worst thing a person can do in life, if not ever, is intellectualize their existence on some superficial level of satisfaction in its entirety. I'm quickly measuring to point out - not just how superficially hot or cold they get. . . but they themselves will only ever have to reveal to their own admonition as a salesman.

I just don't write this stuff, I live it.

A given fact.

I do what I want.

Also, for all intensive purposes, I rather live/write what I'm capable of living in an 'existential vacuum' (your words not mine. . .), when compared to living in a world misconceptually drawn out from its own ignorance. Think about it.

BTW Mr O'Keefe, the fallacy commited being '. .. don't live in an existential vacuum. . .' is the one being commited. Essentailly if we all did not in some way shape or form, live in a world of systemic virtue, than the opposite of what you stated is true. I rather increase that awareness of the same quality, which unless you work hard at seeing the significantly altered view, that most people fail to understand, have really no idea of it themselves.

All modern day philosophy is a varient of that, the new age philosophers of a literal kind of being, know that existential beings, are the true visionaries of such skill(s) which differ in resisting the norm(s) (which you, mike, associated with a 'vacuum'. . .) in order to live in a world not dictated by those conditions we are made to be unaware of.

So, you are correct, people who live in the vacuum (as I do not) fail miserably.

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Also, if you placed even of a fraction of what this entails at a small corner of the systemic value, people blind to it place, on one corner of the universe (not the center from which people mistakenly are drawn from vis-a-vis false imagination of the norms on a sociological/societal level) your awareness itself will increase dramatically over what truly might only not be happening via real time.

I've worked sufficiently hard at being a non-published work.

Think of what I accomplished against those same people in goanalog, who try so unsuccesfully at purging anythiing I say, but never will. (Owen is a fucking idiot.) The funny thing was they are so convinced of it to no better avail.

April 18th 2010 (A philosopher's dream awakened)

 If I could deliver the truth in most sentient beings, I would look to see as though, (presuming they have no idea from what the truth might flow) in another likelihood of pursuing greater images. This is why generational philosophers such as Wittgenstein, Spinoza, or Kierkegaard themselves paved the ...way from differentiating the norm of equilibrium to being held as equals.

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This is why I hate everything Plato stands for to this day, who merely constituted his own false cynicism as a relevant case toward the understanding of present day matriarchal hegemony on a political scale. . . this then influenced a cause against aristocracy or Socratic wisdom. Plato, from which disavowed the same teachings as disciple to Socrates. Aristotle, is more a model backward to Socrates.

- Marco

(No cure for twitter)

 Twitter faithful fail to apply twitter as a useful bridge of communication. They misapply their credence for something shallow.

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Twitter is ineffective in why it enables its users to manipulate each others branded interests of a negative quality.

- Marco

Truth vs guns

 Anyone that suggests they are at the mercy subject to gun ownership, should they also NOT BE INFORMED of their right NOT to use guns.🍁

Here is the crux of the argument between gun ownership and the right to bare arms: people that apply their right to gun ownership claim to have some form of proxy, that should they own fire arms, also allows them to use them. If the right to bare weaponry is independent of our civil rights, those rights, should they be revoked - does not allow people to use firearms as a means to protect those rights. It is simple logic. To promote the use of intelligent discourse is a far greater right then the right to bare arms.

- Marco 

April 18th 2013

 I have known this my whole life, yet been condemned because of it.

- Marco

> "It's true that nothing in this world makes us so necessary to others as the affection we have for them."

—Goethe, The Sorrows of Young Werther

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This explains my talent perfectly. > "He lives the poetry that he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realise."

--from The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

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“We tend to disempower ourselves. We tend to believe that we don’tmatter. And in the act of taking that idea to ourselves we give everything away to somebody else, to something else.”

– Terence McKenna

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Humility and gratitude... Humbled and over whelmed... I can only imagine how precious those things are unless they are shared. I carry these things with me everyday. The problem is that no one else looks for it.

- Marco

desperation as zero

 Here is the problem I have, I would probably describe myself way sexier than I actually am, and I would be happier not sadder with that result. Am I not doing it wrong, or am I not right. My point being no matter how I perceive myself to others, the basis of my insecurities are always present. I am actually describing how I think others see me. This is how our subconscious minds function, to make ourselves available to the truth. Lead a life of thoughts that reveal your inner beauty, your outer beauty is irrelevant. So the exercise can be given from a very different approach by just the way you think.

- Marco

Nietzsche was a nihilist point blank.

 "What then is truth? A mobile army of metaphors, metonyms, and anthropomorphisms -- in short, a sum of human relations, which have been enhanced, transposed, and embellished poetically and rhetorically, and which after long use seem firm, canonical, and obligatory to a people: truths are illusions about which one has forgotten that is what they are; metaphors which are worn out and without sensuous power; coins which have lost their pictures and now matter only as metal, no longer as coins. We still do not know where the urge for truth comes from; for as yet we have heard only of the obligation imposed by society that it should exist: to be truthful means using the customary metaphors - in moral terms, the obligation to lie according to fixed convention, to lie herd-like in a style obligatory for all..."

― Friedrich Nietzsche, On Truth and Lie in an Extra-Moral Sense

Perennation of the mind

 Truth matters. That is all. All you are - is - confused in finding. Because if you don't. If you don't, (find truth in anything) you are not left behind. You are simply static in the universe.

It is not the truth that sets you free.

It is thinking (you think) you know. But you really don't = 'know'.

This takes tremendous energy to inhabit. It is a silence. Think of it as 'silence'. The truth is acting on silence.

And this is why we act on things that we don't think of. Before what is thinking about the cause of x, y or z. Is the universe made of truth we think of without knowing it?

Silence dictates the norms and you must think of those norms are as reality.

If reality dictates what happens.

Then reality is not what is happening in real time. It is simply noise.

The way you act is what reveals truth (in silence.)

If you think about it. You are that truth. And this is how we should be.

This is not about common sense. This is about taking life out from what is (thinking) in your head examining what you test as the real world.

This is what Krishnamurti is saying.

Not to adjust. You do not adjust. The world will adjust without you knowing, it. This takes effortless skill. It is you in an awareness as action.

I have spent all my adult life chasing this in theory. It is critical. To work at this kind of psychological nature and spend it on offering my thoughts. Thoughts are truth. Therefore, the truth as your thoughts are a perennation of your the mind that are crucial to understand.

- Marco

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 What is our mind if in which case you were not planning to ruse an outcome in your own favor. Clear manipulation tactics are not uncommon unless you are completely naive.

Marco Almeida  2025
-The Peg

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 Impressive prose on the nature of true passion and fulfilling pure desire.

- Marco

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“Do you also believe that what gives our lives their meaning is the passion that suddenly invades us heart, soul, and body, and burns in us forever, no matter what else happens in our lives? And that if we have experienced this much, then perhaps we haven’t lived in vain? Is passion so deep and terrible and magnificent and inhuman? Is it indeed about desiring any one person, or is it about desiring desire itself? That is the question. Or perhaps, is it indeed about desiring a particular person, a single, mysterious other, once and for always, no matter whether that person is good or bad, and the intensity of our feelings bears no relation to that individual’s qualities or behavior?”

― Márai Sándor, Embers

April 17th 2009

 is smiling as to say nothing else matters - it's as though I've felt so famously this way for the first time.

- Marco

Lost and Found

 Why has no one ever looked at me and said I have a beautiful soul.

April 17th 2013

 In a country that prides itself around prosperity, how can you lead by example in an honest manner, if reputation has forged its atrocities.

- Marco

April 17th 2013

 To inform the masses as though we all are bandits, "survival of the fittest", what test is there to accommodate or impose on its victims.

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The truth is, if survival of the fittest is what divides the have's from the have-nots, what then measures those that are displaced as a result of this winner take all mentality.

- Marco

April 17th 2014

 When you get your flow going on twitter nothing can stop it - it becomes a ritual in being awesome.

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I admit I am a character that is far outside the box of most conventional attitudes this suits me just fine.

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Being used for sex needs an overhaul in the way it is desired. If you fail to consent is what makes for loveless marriage.

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When you get a cold hard stare from me - your morality takes a beating.

Marco

the revolution of anti-matter

 What is beauty?

The ability to love more than you recognize. (Something you recognize what is more than just as an object.) Think about it as undying love. Even more profound than child birth.

- Marco

What hurts?

If my greatest misfortune were of not feeling sunlight.

*I think my priorities are finally in order.

But when you saw me and pretending you did not notice.

I did.

I noticed you not noticing me.

But today, it means something greater than you expected of me.

I still said hello.

And from this place,

I feared you.

Even if my pride.

See you, around the sun.

- Marco

Only words

I am in this shadow of my former self.

(I can not escape this shape I'm in.)

I do not avoid, what happened.

Only because it avoids me.

And when it does (happen).

It is always fate that guides me to the next, shadowy figure.

I'm not crazy.

Because you think, I am.

I never let go of myself during times of greater crisis.

I've gone through time and time again.

But when I walk

I am sure to walk through that open gate,

that if heaven?

I am through.

I am, through.

Through it all, as always.

As I always will and had been.

Fortunate to be among shadows,

of something like - a shadow.

Though not my own.

So I am a bringer of light.

And this light has brought me to this place

in time.

Where I fight with these words.

These words that expess my shadow,

as not the shadow.

I find words.

That mean that the words themselves speak

- speak to angels.

And only angels.

And if I were as these words are made to suffer,

after all this time I've spent hearing them.

In my mind.

(This is light.)

I wish to be here, forever.

Forever, wanting more...

More words to revere and reveal the true nature of wisdom.

As words can only do.

- Marco

As rule as law ~ is you are not what you think

I see things.

I can see things most don't.

Because I do not try to rationalize,

what is my existence.

I simply, am.

What is I don't know...

- is the feedback given.

I get signs from many things,

and these many things,

are many - many other things.

I would either do or do not, think of -

of why those things affect me.

My personal responsibility,

is to tie the knot on a roap.

(That between these thoughts.)

I climb back to where I began,

from the rope - this same roap,

only I can imagine climbing.

- Marco

April 17th 2014

 I admit I am a character that is far outside the box of most conventional attitudes this suits me just fine.

- Marco

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