Friday, February 06, 2026

The mental abortion of psychic hero :: abandonment as if orphaned

 Wrote this just now thinking about (what I think,) being an artist means to me in the long run. This follows: as somewhat of my personal mission statement.


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Normalcy is about evading our true emotion for what we don't really feel, rather than go through a process of learning, something - instead... we internalize, edit the truth, then we act in accordance to rule based behavior. We are content in psychologically killing ourselves. Also, this is in reality is the price we pay in exchange for a fake experience. (We act on superstition out of a fear based response, that we are being judged.) Your inner life is suppressed forever. So the roles we mask ourselves as is the consequence of being a psychological slave, rather than a servant to: an endless beginning.


Marco Almeida 2025

- The Peg

Thursday, February 05, 2026

tear-drops in careful application

 February 5th 2010


Cnd pm S.Harper:

"I think it also says something about the character. Hockey is a fast, aggressive, tough sport and that's an important part of the Canadian psychology and history. It's sometimes forgotten because Canadians are thought of as peace-loving and fair-minded and pleasant -- which I think we are -- but that's not inconsistent with tough and aggressive and ambitious, which is also part of the national character."

I have never been one to debase myself, around the notion, of a need to know basis.

I suppose that can be true of juxtaposition, when sitting right there hovering above, is a visceral view -
of an impersonable type.

It strike's me as totally odd, because such verbiage suggests, that I may or may not see thing's the same way. I think therefore I am - so to speak.

When I look at my Cnd. psyche, I have to admit, Harper actually inspired me for the first time on such a subjective visceral view of himself.

When I think of peace-loving, or fair-minded, pleasant, I presume it means I am subject to those thing's in return - even when they are not - is the question, is the same, is the answer - I search.

More often than not, I rarely do receive the same answer.

So, in Harper's world-view of Cnd's, pre-olympic satire, I choose not to answer to what is tough, what is aggression, what is ambition. As a matter of fact, it makes us who we are, it is part of our distinct character - a national identity - which also can be characterized as though us as nationalist's. (That is what I would presume.)

Again, we are faced with a mini-crisis, where aggression, toughness, ambition, equate to satisfying the status quo. Us as Cnd. must seek such status, us identify with, outmuscling our opponent's if interfered with (tough), or strength in reform as assertive (aggression), or capitalist virtue of decisive not so much constructive (ambition).

These are thing's which all remind me of a chicken coup, trapped, obsessed before it's time. I certainly hold nothing against pm Harper, why should I.

When - I've seen people singing with Ronald Regan, or Yo-YoMa, I think to myself - this won't be the last we see people singing to the same tune, of artillery being made, so to provide arsenal in the hand's of it's insurgent's, classify a war. It's not odd to think about that for me either. I mean - we've done it as the 51st state for a very long time, so why not celebrate it altogether.


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I consider this to be a moral hypothesis of my own variety. That is to say it acts as a hybrid mentality or lack therof hijinx. Greed + silence do not mix very well together.


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SOMEONE GIVE ME A BADGE NOW - OR I AM ALL WARNING YOU - I WILL CONTACT STEPHEN HARPER!oL



The existential romantic (a letter to 'R.')

 February 5th 2013


Dear R.,

 

I respected you always - because you are a model personality.  I have always felt grateful toward knowing you, which I cannot say about just anyone.  I will always have your back.  Through all this time, I have grown to see a lot that helps explain how unimportant certain things are as people think of themselves.  I never quite knew you would be someone I would admire this way.  Most people would dismiss what you read-here as 'kind' in words, when in reality they are unaware their insecurities prevent them from seeing how pure adrenaline is true to ones decrease in irrationality.  (Ask yourself what is rational, then ask how it challenges the conventional needs to increase their motives.) = That is a skewed version of what reality truly represents only we are semiconscious of it. In other words, what this informs me of - of people that I once knew no longer exist to me - as what I believe my right of passage examines.  They have forgotten who they are because they have sold out.  That is the world we are living in today.

 

The generation we have grown in are completely unaware of it.

 

Best regards,

 

The Big Canadiano


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“Whenever a man does a thoroughly stupid thing, it is always from the noblest motives.”
-- Oscar Wilde
"The reason we all like to think so well of others is that we are all afraid for ourselves. The basis of optimism is sheer terror."
-- Oscar Wilde

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"The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to itself."
-- from The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
"Goals are not only absolutely necessary to motivate us. They are essential to really keep us alive." - Robert Schuller
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Sometimes, almost foolishly, what lives in the universe somehow tricks the mind as though the world is set against you, that is when you realize the ability you have to semi-power it. (Semi-power= energy.)
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“I believe that you're great, that there's something magnificent about you. Regardless of what has happened to you in your life, regardless of how young or how old you think you might be, the moment you begin to think properly, there's something that is within you, there's power within you, that's greater than the world. It will begin to emerge. It will take over your life. It will feed you. It will clothe you. It will guide you, protect you, direct you, sustain your very existence, if you let it. Now, that is what I know for sure.”
- Michael Bernard Beckwith

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"We have to go for what we think we're fully capable of, not limit ourselves by what we've been in the past." - Vivek Paul
"He who is not everyday conquering some fear has not learned the secret of life." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

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R.'s identity is that my idea of Republic, Romance, Rationality (a renewed version of how to reform beliefs.)

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"That is a skewed version of what reality truly represents only we are semiconscious of it. In other words, what this informs me of - of people that I once knew no longer exist to me - as what I believe my right of passage examines." (MA2013)
^That is a true definition of knowledge via Socrates.


Surreptitious fruit

“We feel and know that we are eternal.”
Baruch Spinoza
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^All that means to me is when I feel something literally. It is the fact I know intuitively, that this intuitive level of investigation, only measures exactly what is that feeling is trying to tell me. I just need a feeling to know how I am being judged. It's how I have lived my entire life. I formulate everything there is around it.
Do not read that thinking my interpretation metaphorically illustrates a self centered person living a life that has impenetrable boundaries.
The safest way to think, isn't about going to the most dangerous elements of your mind, then thinking is poisonous - a place.
(No one breathes underwater.)
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"The world is the totality of facts, not of things" (Proposition 1.1) in his Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus.
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If we were to lie given a promise of something greater. Would you live your life (knowing) that without the lie - would lead you to death. How do you know. You can't possibly know the difference. There are people of all kinds. We live in world that vengeance is normalized since the inception of Adam and Eve in Eden. However, since the cradle of psychology as a science has helped shape our world. The view of this private dilemma, between living a lie and shaping our virtue. The true nature of one's secret life comes at a cost.
My point is we all have skeleton's in our closet. But when you are charged with the criminal offensive as what is a lie to cover your lack of potential. Then the crime fits a punishment. This is of course a cause of fiction. We live our lies as if we live inside a fictitious mind to enable ourselves on a societal level.
Live the fiction. That's how you know when feeling is a mirage or is more of a biblical narrative. Surreal in your thoughts. (e.g. surreptitiously)
All I know is I've created a certain level of consciousness that the narrative is not as boring to process. Especially when thinking of things. (i.e. philosophically)
This acts as a word for word in accountability. I think this is what philosophical law (the genius) Wittgenstein offered.
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Abstraction if not philosophy is also truth because we are fearing to be judged. Language is a medium to the furthest point of death. My meditation vs the mediation of others = what is a metaphysical event interfering with personal sensations or what I think of as the predictability to understand a thing.
If you were to lie to yourself about everything I just wrote, is it possible you never thought about it. (Causal interpretation)
The cause of nature is to force the ambiguity in life as though you think on an empirical level to justify your thoughts. (Metacognition)
So what comes first?
Empiricism vs virtue?
1 - Abstraction is ambiguous by its very nature. (Empiricism)
2 - To examine life should be the same thing while thinking. A critical examination to what is being said either internally or external to. (Virtue)
Unless you are willing to live your life as ambiguous to it, where there is no cause that death supplies your innate ability to register thought. What's the point? The point is in sensing how to trust your thoughts, not to the same psychic understanding of another's.
- Marco

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Oscar Wilde -
“Those who are faithful know only the trivial side of love: it is the faithless who know love’s tragedies.”



what is factual a thing

 I wrote this as a coming of age back in 2024.

Probably the best treatise of what is acting I have ever formulated into comprehension (language art).
If you know anything (or not) relative to acting.
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- Marco

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Acting is channeling a medium without your inner cynic observing what exists between what is both being impulsive being neurotic and eliminating the need to both being seen being validated.
Your only refusal should be not to squander a role by negating yourself in the process.
At the core of an actors acting ability is it the courage to maintain a dialogue between being decisive at making choices or can making choices result in being decisive. How does the brain interpret what is happening vs what needs to happen. The ultimate question is what will the character want that drives the intent behind ones inhibition to do so.

MA

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The hardest part of existence is pulling apart puzzle pieces that are already in place to make you think were properly put together. - Marco

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Facts are nothing but stats made to steal, words are unmistakable in that their worthless. Somewhere between the two is your escape. MA2024

Wednesday, February 04, 2026

Getting Wired

 February 4th 2014


“…love and gluttony justify everything.”-- Oscar Wilde

It has been 10 years since facebook has changed my life. Using this medium as a publishing tool has been the best thing that ever happened to me.

When I look at myself and ask what it all means is simple. That people unaware of themselves would hardly equate a real question worth knowing what it is I have to offer. (I will get to this aspect shortly further on.) In these words and in my use of language - I see a great deal of abundance. What characterizes my writing is how less instinctive readers are. They answer questions they rather not be asked if push came to shove.

I have encountered some of the most frivolous, bigoted, uneducated natives in Facebook community which has translated into real life.

The sad part is as this nude sense of myself caters to an unsuspecting audience. The truth is as I mentioned a few sentences prior re; how investigators of my cause choose to see me fail rather than be enablers. What that means is no matter how I have ideas worthy of consideration to its executioners.

The bottom line is I am proud. Even if the knife in my back appears to be lodged in it, nothing can take away what I have accomplished on facebook. Nothing.


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The fact of the matter is people that know I have answers in a theoretical sense, this acts threatening to others that rather see me fail at their mercy or better judgment.

non-imported of the supernatural kind

 February 4th 2011


Two words of intellect which I've transmitted via your wannabe ingrates without a moral seeded in their tiny little brains: One enters Socrates' (mind).  The other enters Plato's (mind).

 

 

This is philosophy people.

 

 

But not one you might think of yourself.

 

 

The reason being, where philosophy of law from Plato's musings, the divided line if you will.  The Socratic Method of Socrates teachings, waged academic pursuits into the widest range of possibilities known to man, were born from those ancient classrooms.

 

 

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Now you feel the return of Marco Almeida.

 

 

Where Marco Almeida - has entered some prime real estate opportunity, the same cannot be true of the person he is.

 

 

Therefore, only Marco Almeida must have some idea to commit the same practice, the same way, over and over again e.g. 'repetitively' not 'redundantly'

 

 

This very small but humble teaching, the art of humility let us pray of humility.

 

 

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The question is does it matter which words were entered into either of the philosopher's brain even matter, which now gives you a false impression of Plato's laws.

 

 

Everything in the universe now consists of something to do with Plato's laws.

 

 

Therefore, the same cannot be said of a person of Plato's equal, be him or woman, man or her.

 

 

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It is because of this disparity in resourcefulness, that clever Plato, always understood himself a negater of art.  The art of philosophy, cannot be taught, the philosophy of itself can (be taught), which that clever little Plato was enabled.  Plato felt he was onto something.

 

 

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This is when the man of law, collided with the man of reason-ability.

 

 

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The man of reason, never truly understands the laws Plato insisted be taught, though that in itself would only be a rejection of regularity between variables.  So Plato thought, let's make law something that defines normalcy.  Although normally Plato would act as clever than most others; LAWYERS ARE YOU READING THIS.

 

 

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Normalcy always declined the invitation to legitimacy, legitimacy declined the truth of 'normal' to be subject to things such as decency, or let's say indignity, or even torcher chambers.  No thought Plato, the law is too good for that; I am special knowledge of such power, they simply do not exist in law.  Does man have a threshold not to withstand the cause of law, because law has no age limit, no barrier, no complacency, no economic value, simply - law has a variable over every other living thing.

 

 

Here is where you are retarded Plato.

 

 

You have no say in irregularity.

 

 

Absolutely none.

 

 

They say Plato was a manipulator of no substance, or mind, or substantiating human sacrifice unconditionally speaking.

 

 

^ That was Plato's way of suffering the human condition, to say that laws were not made to be broken, that they defeat the purpose in all things young or old.

 

 

It was as if an unrestricted insurance claim, unlimited in potential on one anonymous condition of purging victims who actually enjoyed the thought of philosophy baring nothing else, simply continuity of choices, perhaps open ended, perhaps shut out.  But Plato always felt uncomfortable (inferior) so - so like many or next to most lawyers.  They pretend that you do not exist.

 

 

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The problem wasn't that Plato didn't know how to do philosophy; it was that he didn't claim to know philosophy had a purpose of it's own, only he was unaware of it.

 

 

Candid as Plato was, that time before him allowed for it to happen, so we got stuck with lawyers make-believing they were philosophers for a shorter period of time than they could be called out on it.

 

 

That way they might get spooked to easily, there flushing their careers away at shore.

 

 

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The truth about the divided line, was only implemented, because Socrates drew that line, on the other side of the debaters.  Where Socrates secret society of non-linear thinkers held votes for the wicked philosophers of Plato's domain.

 

 

It was there the divided line came into being.

 

 

They say those were the ballots in between democracy, that Socrates won unanimously, but Socrates followers were sworn to secrecy on the subject of winning.  They said unto Plato, let's just let him play, we're nice enough to do that aren't we.

 

 

They say Plato has been fooled ever since.  In fact if true, he refuses to acknowledge the same answer to the same question, over and over.


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And here finally is the answer, I find myself, to a fault - no fault of my own.
It gets really very very stupid when people confuse my intellect, my better judgment without thinking of it. It gets smarter still when they guess I am a Canadian hero like Bret Hart.
It gets better or worse when violent predators refuse to look me straight in the eyes, because I am watching your every move, you silly boys and girls.

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You see when you are one of the bad guys; it's one of the good guys that takes on my Maple Leaf in Red and White.
When you are obsessed with art as I am, you fill the stars, you earn my stripes.
I've always imagined scraping by the defense in stride, burying my head, and playing for pride, making the save, getting the girl.

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Damn - I really love being Canadian, eh.

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Attention - whichever one of you fukwits deleted an entry of mine "which magically disappeared due to paranoia", keep chasing those rainbows, but wipe that smile of your face.

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One day, long before my time, I will know exactly what all of this means.

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I dedicate this fabulous entry, to be eaten again and again, in the mouths of Karim Dharamsi and Sandra Tomsons, whose toothless and spineless aims caused me great grief - not unto this day.

sprinkle's of minimum wage

 February 4th 2010


I was working inside, where elderly people live, when this one lady provided me with her unsolicited wisdom. It was something clearly ornate, but much less done by. She told me quite simply to make sure I enjoy life, that her generation 'over-did' thing's. To which this alerted my frame of reference, I was after all, seated on the floor from where I was listening to her speak. I thanked her for the odd peculiarity of those comment's directed at me for unspecific reasons.

I guess I make the most of situation's, eventually her harmless looking hostility toward me, was meant to relieve me of pressure, whichever matters out of my life thus far. I much prefer honesty related to me, so I felt I somehow caused this, without the guilt.

I've made much less effort in loving life for what I have, throughout my very cold - at times a masked resistance.

So, I really didn't show her anything to prompt this, but in my mind - I must have.

As I stepped outside my comfort zone, this I managed to do, was symbolize something. I guess that's how I see what the older person said, meant to me. Not that she symbolizes anything, only the mere thought does. I usually think in terms of common sense, as a means to an ends, is something I participate in - knowing what the interlocutor is onto. In that sense, if it was intended as such, I really had no idea about why this took place. My claim to it was to keep my mouth shut as I did.
It's what nature intended.