July 30th 2010

 

 Am I a slave to time.

This motive of mine:

in the prison note.

"You're dead."

Am I - a dead man.

Between a suicidal mission,

and what the prison note says.

It tells me of how.

How things change.

To tell of all the things I have read. . .

I hear a cry.

(There, in my mind.)

That voice of mine.

My main idea is the question.

I desire.  What it means.

To ask the right question.

Because the idea is what charges the mind's eye.

It's all I've ever needed.

To see things as they are.

The miracle is in listening to that voice.

In every single motive I've ever acted on.

It is the view from where time ends.

And thought.

the principle of thought [non individuality]

 July 28th 2026 

I can only think of happiness or by means as a force, a force so great that the freedom it generates is a feeling. A feeling that it obeys through how you and you alone vibrate. You may think of it as a free spirit testing the inferiority complex we mistake for our personal nature. Only you surrender to it because no one even considers that happiness is a quality. (Not a truth.) Happiness is not a norm that it surrenders the good life. You are judged according to the quality that happiness is its measure. Therefore, the most complete version of what is true happiness, that you trade your quality of life for an existentialist one.

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- Marco

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Enforcement and bullshit artists

 There is a certain infallibility to scrutiny once you unlearn from its accusations or melodrama albeit against your better mastery of any particular thing.

However, if that level of scrutiny isn't sincere - only to disguise it wraped into some kind of gift box.

The way to this truth is seeing.

While the search for truth is an endless path.

You mustn't compare youself to others. The real scrutiny you may have to overcome is while your search for it is finite, there are people from all classes that rather concentrate on their suntan.

- Marco

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What acts as a calming influence in you should be greatly exaggerated; held onto... as opposed to the high maintenance projects we get ourselves caught in that negates the mastery of self preservation. This exaggeration is when the curtain raises on each moment of every thought you carry. Some call upon it being the imagination. Other's might learn to adopt this as a secret life.

- Marco

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Walk in solitude, though you live in society. —Krishnamurti

Context: It is becoming more and more difficult to be physically alone. Most people don’t want to be alone; they are afraid to be alone; they are occupied. They want to be occupied from the moment they wake up until the moment they go to bed. Even then, they are haunted by dreams. Those who live alone, in caves or as monks in their cells, are never alone, for they live with their images, their thoughts and the practices which promise future fulfilment. They are never alone; they are full of knowledge and full of the darkness of the cave or cell. One must be an outsider, not belonging to anything or to anybody. But you cannot fight your way out, for then you still belong to it. The very action of fighting your way out is the action which makes society tick. So you must die to society, so that the new life comes into being without your knowing it. And so walk in solitude, though you live in society.

From Meeting Life

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Far and away the most crucial aspects of Pessoa's work that I wholeheartedly agree with....

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Living, it seems to me, is a metaphysical error of matter, a mistake of inaction.

I look attentively at the traces of absorption and distraction that are erased in it.

No problem has a solution.

We use our feelings indiscriminately to resolve the problems of our intelligence, and we do it because we are tired of thinking or because we are too timid to draw conclusions, out of an absurd necessity to find support, or out of a gregarious impulse to return to others and to life.

Since we can never know all elements in a problem, we can never solve it. We lack the data necessary to attain the truth as well as the intellectual processes that would exhaust the interpretation of those data.

- Fernando Pessoa

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1- Seeing is having seen.

2- the thing we suppose is alive in the supposition.

-Fernando Pessoa

Hyper validating focus

 July 27th 2026

Being attached to my ADHD brain and how I connect with other people, "being present" is not my biggest problem. If I am faced with a situation (the same way Trevor Noah is describing. . . ) I need to figure out how I am feeling on my end before considering how I make someone else feel. To this effect, I am acting on things in a neurodivergent manner. My point is there is a dynamic involved, that I think makes another person feel validated. (Rewind . . ) my problem is in feeling validated myself. Not the kind of validation everyone wants as validation. (i.e. "I want person 'x' to like me.)  I literally do not feel the need for it.

I have never been thought of as a person that doesn't pay attention. (I am basing this last claim on how I make others feel. . .)

The problem is in staying in the moment, as I listen, without editing what my thoughts are, 1- why I am in this moment, 2 - without predicting the outcome of my next thought. How I function executively per se?

I hope that made sense.

- Marco

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Sasha Hamdani, MD  

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Dr. Chris Lee  

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Sasha Hamdani, MD  

July 27th 2026

Dr. Hamdani,

I Always thought I Was a better auditory learner than one that reads to plagiarize (from memory). IS this different from APD??

- Marco

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Auadhd here I can't do subtitles as I focus on those and not the show/movie

my rebuttal:

Not sure I am right in saying this, but being able to process what is being done (as sensory experience withstands it), that - 1 - interpreting something happening in real time (auditory processing) together with - 2 -reading what is happening (subtitles) enhances my ability to learn from the source or material. The more my sensory experience is elevated, the better for an ADHDer.

I hope that made sense?

- Marco

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Instrumental patterns of the mind

 

doulos

doulos 

Paul used one word to introduce himself that most English Bibles mistranslate. And what it actually means changes everything about what it means to follow Jesus.

The word is doulos. Most translations soften it to servant. But doulos does not mean servant.

In the ancient world a servant had rights. A servant could quit. A doulos was owned. Everything he had. Every hour of every day belonged entirely to the one who owned him.

Romans 1:1 — Paul a doulos of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:1 — Paul and Timothy doulos of Christ Jesus. Titus 1:1 — Paul a doulos of God.

Not a working relationship. A total transfer of ownership.

Romans 6:16. Two kinds of doulos. A doulos of sin or a doulos of righteousness. No third option. The only question is who owns you.

The doulos of God is the only truly free person alive. Because the one who owns him is the only master whose will is better than your own.

Paul did not call himself a servant. He called himself owned. The question is not whether you serve God. It is whether you belong to him.

📖 Romans 1:1 📖 Romans 6:16 📖 Romans 6:22 📖 Galatians 1:10

Conspiracy in theory

 

Ritual failure

 After seeing settlers in Israel killing Palestinians in their own small villages, I had to post this.

Fuck anyone that think Israel can do this.

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To those that think October 7th was justification, acting as collateral for what is happening. October 7th was a forgery.

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October 7th was made for the aim of decimating an entire population through ethnic cleansing. Essentially, the manner in which Israel enacted upon its retaliation of October 7th, October 7th was a secretly plotted suicide mission in disguise. Disguised in order to be used as leverage from it, in spite of October 7th, October 7th was planned in the effort to use it as primary weapon in propaganda. Nothing else. Entirely premeditated. It was a threat made to conspire for full scale assault on humanity.

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The task is simple: use propaganda as result in holding Hamas accountable for the extinction of Palestine. (That's an argument. It's the lives of those I accuse the Israeli government plotting against.)

If Hamas acted irrelevant as a professional terrorist organization in its own ideology. Why, then would Israel play victim? Was the attack premediated to prove something about exterminating an entire race of Judaic people?

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(In conclusion)

If winning fairly means government intervention want to hold us hostage into the Zionist cause. I gladly join all opposing forces that voice injustice, aim to examine the reality of norms against denial upon Israel's merciless occupation of Gaza.

Terrorism has been the scapegoat to inflate Israel's nationalistic aims.

October 7th was a preemptive operation (propaganda by design) acting as a smoke screen to green light an occupation of Gaza by Netanyahu, the IDF and the so called intelligence that suddenly failed in protection of its own? So, instead of playing the role of victim, they have proven to perform infanticide. Makes sense.

The terrorism is a mask. It was all preventable. This was planned.

The world act as the fools in this.

I do NOT believe for a minute that October 7th happened randomly (without cause) to help infiltrate from what took place. Who were the targets. What was the motive. What questions have not been asked. Such inhibitions are natural. Terrorist actions have no foundation for it, when you use propaganda as your main source for acting against enemy forces. Propaganda has been the choice for Israel's crimes against humanity. If we had a tribunal that seek out professional terrorist entities and had governing body that judicially put terrorists to a fair trial. I wonder what would happen.

- Marco

Philosophy in abundance  

Radio the earth 🌎

 

that's the problem with social divisions, with each of us stuck in our own place, preferably the place we were born, how then will we ever make friendships with people from different worlds.

José Saramago (2009) Cain

July 23rd 2018

 The thing I do not understand about trendy actors today is that everyone thinks they can act when they really can't. If you can't theorize about acting you are probably acting a lie as in pretending to act.

I was looking at myself this week and put on my thinking cap after a Fringe show I attended.

The theory is simple. How do you know a person? How do you know that an actor is in fact acting the truth. If so - does your prior image of this person if you knew them also translate into acting their truth. That the person you swear you know has a mask but in reality you can see them for who they are.

If you never saw a person in the way they normally act how do you know if the character they are portraying is organic.

Therein lay the dilemma.

Is it faith.

Is it truth.

Is it a mask.

If you or I implored someone so completely that their actions were carbon copies of what you know how they behave, it is not a question of psychology, it is an expectation in character. And that those inhibitions actually match how you interpret those actions because you know them so well. The way this proposition sounds should make sense to you, although you were made a fool because of it. The awareness stems directly from being purged of what you witness. When you see a person compromising their position of humanity in order to purge you into believing they are something else, your ability to scrutinize is unbecoming of yourself and not the actor.

The criticism is fake.

The answer is in how do you know you seeing Hamlet is Hamlet. (Unknown of who he actually is.) Example: someone you've never met is being portrayed as a character. You've never seen that character before. How can you possibly know it's the same character being portrayed, as they're suppose to be.

Psychology as enemy class theory

 

If winning fairly means government intervention want to hold us hostage into the Zionist cause. I gladly join all opposing forces that voice injustice, aim to examine the reality of norms against denial upon Israel's merciless occupation of Gaza.

Terrorism has been the scapegoat to inflate Israel's nationalistic aims.

October 7th is a preemptive orchestrated operation acting as a smoke screen to green light an occupation of Gaza by Netanyahu, the IDF and the so called intelligence that suddenly failed.

The terrorism is a mask. It was all preventable. This was planned.

Happiness in a {plutocrat}

 Energy should never come in the form of your nervous system shutting down. It means I am perfectly aware of what fear does to me on a personal level. The only thing I have ever learned to do is learn how my energy informs my way of being, the sensory world interprets me as.

Therefore ,we are all fractals of a greater purpose.

Energy escapes me constantly.

But that is the beauty of it. That's why I exist the way I do. I make my ideas useful to me first, second comes everything else after my a priori experience of it.

Metaphysics is the conscious mind working at deconstructing reality. And is how I believe in doing my philosophy. I only return to what the information I provided through observations. Therefore, the ability to observe is doing philosophy. (I think.)

When people judge others through our Plutocracy in asking "What is the pursuit of happiness. . . "?? IT is automatically separate from asking "Is this person x or person y truly happy?" In the US their constitutional right is entered as if happiness is a quotient, that you are SERVE the RIGHT to be HAPPY. How stupid are you? (I need to ask.) Living the good life should NOT be examined by your right to happiness. Our self centeredness should never be a right to your QUALITY of life. Therefore, your idea of happiness may be a contradiction.

My idea of happiness is a formulation itself: that creating happiness is different than living it.

To me, intelligence is happiness. Intelligence is a concentration of the eternal. Only what is eternal can be made happy.

To experience life as we think of reality per se - it is in the attention you pay your observation of it. (Valuing everything.) So the static of the universe is just you on alert of the constant noise in it. That focus is to register happiness as a resistance to a cause. And if that your only cause were thought of as resistance. This in order you recreate what acts as eternal happiness (e.g. intent) in you. It is attending to compulsions that you trained your mind with. You unlearn something only before you were conditioned to believe in happiness as something of value itself. To attain happiness in the form of resistance itself.

- Marco