March 26th 2026

I read this that I had wrote back in 2024 and it reads perfectly.

I happened to have the exact conversation about the exact same thing (ironically) this morning with someone I know, before I came across this piece of writing (today).  

The reason is simple.

I have been around the acting block and I know my stuff.  I have studied and studied and I have a frame in which my soul is.

Apart from that, my point is that unless you are in acting I have formulated only one and one rule only which universally applies for anyone that cares to learn.

The rule is if you are not in the business of acting with the purpose to make another person better than they were.  YOU HAVE NO BUSINESS IN ACTING!!

That's how I roll.

I have crossed paths with those I shall not name.  They claim to be involved yet do it for the wrong reason, are typical and superficial in their guise. I know what to look for and their aims are selfish rather than selfless.  But even when they know exactly what is I believe, every single word is true.

I only insist on this.  I play by this decree.  Everyome knows it and I tell it.  My point here is: if you don't have the guts you're hardly worth the pedigree.

- Marco

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March 26th 2024

This is another PSA for reasons of my own. This subject is why I'm not in acting. 

I feel a betrayal. I'd love to be an actor. I don't want to be one unless the right reasons are in place. I won't be purged upon. I think that makes sense.

It's all about being in game I refuse to play into. Why. Because I an not in any way shape or form a manipulative individual. I prove to lead myself by example... what this equates to is being kind to others. Which is my greatest virtue.

I would describe the acting industry as a virus. It needs to be tampered with without a antidote.

The feelings I have are a refusal of playing that game. It seems to me that unless you can play a game within the game, your center offsets. The reality is a superficial one. 

What I've been able to do for myself up to this period. This point and time is not secret. 

I am no longer hiding or throwing shade at it.

I've never been happier in my life.

I set principles above everything and I know I am a good person. 

I am enough.

I'd love to be an actor but not at the expense of not looking at myself.

I've reset. I'm happy. I have my family. I love it all. When I was trying so hard. I lost sight of the shore.

But when I really set sail. The stars are my guide and I realized they're looking down on me....

On this lighter side of my obsession (March 24th 2010)

 I've been watching a ton of Bret's footage on youtube. The video research I've come up with, gave me many different angels, to choose, as a matter of speaking to non-factual opinion.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBWR1OODtCg&feature=related

His theme music in WCW f'ing rocked house^. Since Vince owns the rights, it's his to use.

This 'video research' deserves some response, I'd like whoever, to affirm or not - that Vince played heel (for the first time) with an actual wrestler? (Does this exclude Steve Austin, I mean how can austin count, if Austin always copped out - yes copped out on an attitude.) Let's face it, Hart consumated that image, Stone Cold ripped off so much of Bret's maneuvers, Austin looks like a ~itch himself. Like I said before. Austin sucks. It's hilarious to watch Vince McMahon crapping his pants while Bret quitting, totally unreal, Bret's acting is totally convincing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yaiJxXQDh2U

This is clearly Austin's mocking of Bret. (Later on in Austin's noteriety in wrestling, notice how Austin totally rips off Bret's mic work compared to this. . .) ^ Austin is a faker in wrestler's terms. No obvious bias here. This was Bret's 'I quit' 2:20.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FxCDDlSw9-A

@ :50seconds in (BH shoves McMahon) this is awesome. His passion made the ^hitman who he truly is. ~uckin awesome. This whole sequence delivers the hitman. Just unreal wrestler. A jealous Austin (surprise, surprise it's the undertaker. . .)
This is wrestling the way it was meant to be, one of the best clips in history for sure!
At 4:01 McMahon denies conspiracy, which is obviously proactive, (Bret watching this later) knows that the gig is up, McMahon is in love. This is very conclusive evidence.

I hope you guys are enjoying this????

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ria8ClDBgW4
2:22 is the best evidence to show my description. . . I'm a theatre major phil. minor, could have pulled in the double major, but failed to do so based on my own endeavor's. (graphic artistry eh?) Brett decided to do his submission moves at a grade 3 level which actually translated into horrifically firghtened "trained experts" of MADtv actors. I don't think Brett even realized it was going to happen the way it did, but Brett cruised through it like a pro, it proved to me what kind of an actor he can deliver, McMahon really did screw McMahon. EVERYONE f'~in freaked, I swear to you, Bret is the only guy who's acting, this is the funniest ~hit I've ever seen on television. I remember I saw this clip on a Sat. night the day of it airing. I went to a friend's house, saying what happened, convinced the actors stopped acting. Nobody believed me. Pain threshold anyone??

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pl1fjVs_Ulg

Killer Kowalski is a monster. Just a monster, with quicker moves than most of today's wwe.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SspqgtefCrk&feature=PlayList&p=A1DC644A0913219D&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=14

^The most respect I found of Brett came at 6:20 of his hall of fame speech, when he says "I've never injured a wrestler" which in his mind was saying, he knew what wrestling was about.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIgRSmb_BaE&feature=related

The one and only Curt Henning (3:40) "Bodybag comment", I saw this on a 58'flat, from what I saw ddp look f'd. (I think it gives you a better idea than the smaller version.)

(I hope you guys enjoy. . .)

March 24th 2014

 I attract all the wrong people in my life. I hardly think of myself as fool. It gives me strength. I play dumb for no one. - Marco Almeida 2014

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I do not know what it is, but I have come to a stage in my life like no other time. It is inter-stellar communication turned on inside me. - Marco2014

what is belief in itself

 Belief in oneself is not to be cheated. The same indication of that, it is a gift to the world and there is no turning back. - Marco

 

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Romans 8.7 - 9

 Is our flesh only aware of the mind over its capacity to do so. Which also means gods laws are inaccessible to humam reason or our own personal understanding. So then what is salvation if not to live through the body of Christ. This is why I am Catholic.

MA2025

 Not sure why this applies to anyone but those that are fortunate enough to break the patterns of convention on the most mundane level of their existence. - Marco

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 That seems to me as counter intuitive, only because are we not alone in everything while meditating. (I do realize this is ironic of me to qualify it as something critical.) My point being, why can we not be alone along with everything else. How would we know? - Marco

March 23rd 2021

 I want to keep this as simple and to the point.

What is acting...

I am asking this based on a personal journey of mine.

It is ultimately the question I face myself with that speaks to no true definitive answer.

It is to no fault of my own. I embarked on the birth of this question the same time I thought about pursuing acting as a medium. A trade. A profession.

But never once have I found the enlightenment of what is acting.

Acting to me has been a belief. A renewal. An expression of faith in what I believe can be real.

It is a search for truth in my desire to create art but more so to answer question in my idea of them.

I have come a long way in terms of proving that answer is relevant provided the question 'what is acting' isn't unanswerable. I don't want a discussion of sort that compares to a dog chasing its own tail or a chicken running with its head cut off or a pin the tail on the donkey.

This question if at all answerable deserves one.

I have traveled this far...

- Marco =====================

Zach Reg

Acting is an art. For some it’s a profession. For some it’s more of a hobby.

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 it is just that never once and I mean not even university was I faced with this question until I asked it myself. It befuddles me. - Marco

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Brad Gross

With acting you only truly feel

It when it’s in the minutes of time that your watching then and only then can you make a dissertation of good or bad .

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I really like what you said here Brad. Thanks for weighing in. I appreciate your response.

Instant Perception

 

Why I aim to make myself an artist of my mind. (MA2013)

"This is how I feel today within these four walls or when I stroll through the city: opposed to something."

"But to what?"

"First, to the portraits I painted and to myself for painting them,"

"...but not to what I was when I painted them:"

"...I cannot oppose what I was, now less than ever."

"I wanted to summon what I was (and do believe I succeeded)"

"...like someone conjuring up his own shadow,"

"...which lingered behind and became soiled and ragged around the edges, barely recognizable in that jaded expression we know so well, but as much ours as sweat or sperm."

"And also opposed to everything around me."

"I am convinced this is where most of my tension stems from."

Jose Saramago

The importance that is given to the hidden layers of consciousness is still on the surface, without any depth. — Krishnamurti

March 22nd 2010

 So many confuse the doing something 'for the sake of' i.e. good will, does not constitute good will itself on a secular level. That distinction is a mockery of the human condition, whereas most hold defenseless onto.

- Marco

March 22nd 2011

 I wish to pour out my heart, let it freely flow, the rest of my days. Dear God, hosanna in the highest, let you be with me on this earth. - Marco

I miss feeling good about myself, I need my family the most, to conquer the depth and details of my humbleness and fears to be conquered. - Marco 

Ana Santos

Love you and miss you Marco!!!Beijinhos

identity

 "Face the facts of being what you are, for that is what changes what you are." Kierkegaard

Kierkegaard is being metaphysical in its guise. In my view to face the facts of being what you are COMES BEFORE self discovery.

- Marco 

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Cismo, remoto da calma

Em que de sentir-me vou,

Não sei quem é a minha alma

Nem ela sabe quem sou.

E neste mal entendido

Entre quem sou e o que é eu

Vai, tudo com outro sentido

Que está entre a terra e o céu.

No intervalo cresce o mundo

Com sóis e estrelas sem fim.

Tem um sentido profundo.

Conheço-o. É fora de mim.

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31 - 3 - 1934

Fernando Pessoa

In Poesia 1931-1935

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This is why I am I religious in my personal life. Fearless in my public life. And keep distance in my private life. I would die in the name protecting Jesus' name.

- Marco 

Literature is more than art

 

I always thought (read) that literature acts as the science of language. Without literature no meaning would be understood in language. As Voltaire stated, men argue / nature acts. Such is language as an art form.

-Marco 

March 21st 2014

 Subjectivity can only get you so far, it is found in how close will my subjectivity run as a reversal in the minds of others. The goal is to infer and be inferred as result of having reached subjectivity.

- Marco

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My heartbeat is in precision like a drum to an eternity that cannot be compensated but empowers the average mind.

- Marco

Cleanthes

 Cleanthes, a great Stoic philosopher

Cleanthes (c. 301 B.C.E. - 232 or 252 B.C.E.), an early Stoic philosopher, succeeded Zeno of Citium as the second head of the Stoic school in Athens. A steady disciple and hard worker, he was not credited with intellectual brilliance, but was admired for his strength of character and high moral qualities. He studied under Zeno for 19 years, and upon Zeno’s death in 263 B.C.E., became leader of the school. He wrote at least 50 works, which contained little original thought but dealt with the themes put forth by Zeno. He became the teacher of Chrysippus, the third leader of the Stoic school.

Cleanthes is remembered as a person who embodied and showed Stoic ideals through his character, life, and behaviors.

Life

Cleanthes was born c. 301 B.C.E. at Assos in the Troad. Most of what we know of his life comes from Diogenes Laertius’s Lives of the Philosophers. According to Diogenes, Cleanthes was originally a boxer who came to Athens with only four drachmas in his possession. He listened first to the lectures of Crates the Cynic, and then to those of Zeno, to whom he was a faithful disciple for nineteen years. He embodied many of the qualities that the Stoics regarded as virtue; he was known to be patient, hard-working, loyal, persevering and true to his beliefs.

It is thought that Cleanthes was very poor, and supported himself by working at night as a water carrier in the public gardens so that he could participate in philosophical discussions during the day. He was at times so poor that he wrote notes on Zeno's lectures on oyster shells and the shoulder blades of oxen because he could not afford to buy better materials. On one occasion, according to the custom of the city, he was brought before the court of justice, the Areopagas, to give an account of his manner of supporting himself. He then produced the gardener for whom he drew water, and a woman for whom he ground meal, as witnesses to prove that he lived by the labor of his hands. The judges of the court were struck with such admiration of his conduct, that they ordered ten minae to be paid him out of the public treasury. Zeno, however, did not allow him to accept it. One of his pupils, Antigonus Monophthalmus, afterward presented him with three thousand minae. According to Diogenes, he once brought one of the pieces of money which he had earned into the middle of a company of his acquaintances, and said, "Cleanthes could maintain even another Cleanthes if he were to choose; but others who have plenty of means to support themselves, seek for necessaries from others; although they only study philosophy in a very lazy manner."

Cleanthes recognized that his intellect was slow, and Diogenes says that he did not object to the name when he was called an ass; but only said that he was the only animal able to bear the burdens which Zeno put upon him. When he was reproached as a coward, he said, "That is the reason why I make but few mistakes."

Upon the death of Zeno in 263 B.C.E. he became president of the school by virtue of his character, though there were numerous brilliant disciples of Zeno in the school. He later became the teacher of Chrysippus.

Cleanthes died of starvation, some say at the age of either 80 or 99. As treatment for severely swollen gums, his doctors advised him to fast for two days. His condition improved so dramatically that he was urged to return to his former eating habits, but he refused, saying that as he was already halfway on the road to death, he would not trouble to retrace his steps. After his death, the Roman senate erected a statue in honor of him at Assos.

Works and Thought

Cleanthes produced over 50 works on topics such as time, duty, freedom, love, marriage, virtues, justice, knowledge, time, dialectics, and Zeno’s system of natural philosophy. Only fragments remain, embedded in the works of later writers, except for a large segment of his Hymn to Zeus, preserved in Stobaeus.

Cleanthes apparently promulgated the teachings of Zeno rather than developing original ideas. He regarded the sun as the abode of God, the intelligent providence, or (in accordance with Stoical materialism) the vivifying fire or aether of the universe. Virtue, he taught, is life according to nature; but pleasure is not according to nature.

He originated a new theory as to the individual existence of the human soul; he held that the degree of its vitality after death depends upon the degree of its vitality in this life.