seriously

December 29th 2009 

What I'm doing, at this moment, is with consideration of myself - talking about myself - is a subject I rather not do. However, this is my only means of a self-analysis, due to which, as I am, I am concerned of. My attempt at finding a solution is something I wish I knew how too. At present - there are factors involved - where I am right now is an unhealthy frame of mind. Although, I feel in control of my fate, not here nor there, it is a difficult manner of being in such a extended predicament. I feel responsible for something, I was only being judged upon, for no better reason I can think of without saying. Yet, it is a part of, my personal prevelance I persist in this sorry place of dwelling. I wish I could fix it, but when it happens, or in my case anyway - has happened - it's been there holding onto me. I can only imagine it is a place where my heart is bigger than my brain, so to speak of it, seems rather foolishly.

I just want to forget about it. Just forget. I guess, that's it.