If this is not your definition of genius and what acts impartial, you fail every time. I wrote this on Dec. 20, 2013 re; realists fatal flaw.

@bigcanadiano: Rule to live by: Everything you think you see if abstract you dismiss it. You see everything as related to facts (even if fallacious). - Marco Almeida, 2013

 December 21st 2019

I honestly feel tired. Not the kind of physical or mental. But spiritual as in my contact with the physical world and how I feel in this - this third dimension of time gone by.

I feel my nerve has been laid and stretched out all in a intonation of my spiritual world.

Part of me feels exhausted. The other part feels redemption. Together are not mutually exclusive.

Simply put, I have a strength I never truly know I have.

It goes over most people's heads who would never think twice about obeying me under these circumstances written.

My life to this point has been filled with circumstances which only God has manifested and it is here where I draw from within myself, a peace of mind which gathers strength by definition.

My inhibitions have never been more challenged as result of having uncovered this in truth.

It is quite possible that the change I've gone through is nothing short of a miracle no matter how small.

I like that word. Small.

We forget how small people really are in the world so often.

I've become an observer to meet my maker. My maker has seen people vilify me to this day. A kind of polarity where the secret killer meets his or her own ending. Because once you retract from it, your life changes. It hurts. It hurts to have this ability to pay careful attention to everyone and allow everyone you observe to affect you with their place in the world.

My final point here is, I have a strength of character that not many people observe me with. I can feel it.

Zach Reg

I thank god/universe all the time for the strength they put in me. We can get through anything old friend.

My rebuttal:

 I am sharing the obstacles I feel faced with like mortality and happiness. It stems from how I feel threatened by my own well being as it pertains. What this pertains to is how I have either embraced others only not to be embraced by others. At the same time I am reaching my own potential in ways that are not contrary to the human condition, which is far less complicated in the grand scheme of things.

So I turn to the mystery of God. Not so much for faith hope or undying love but I seek out the strength I have to emit in order to survive.

I'm not trying to debunk what you said. As you put it we can get through anything. I just wish more people had that quality for lack of better word...maybe mentality is more operative in this case.

I feel good. Good about a lot of things. I am not sure about being committed to living the good life however. Whatever it means I don't think I have ever lived with an intent to live the good life. Because if I were poor underfed or unsheltered it wouldn't increase my value in God. It would remain the same, the best question I have ever asked myself is is God my equal. Or how is God my equal. I am pretty sure people would be quick to strike down that question thinking God has infinite power over themselves or me. But when I think about that it is not a God complex I have. Meaning I don't entertain the thought I should be worshipped by God or any other man. I think the worst part of being gods equal would be the confusion between us humans as mortals. We would like to believe we are immortal. All I have ever known is my strength no matter how big or small.

I am at a loss to a lot of things. Right now I am pursuing my goal of becoming an actor. I don't have children never married and I'm single. I think i make a good case for wanting what may be attainable to the degree I can draw from personal experience.

I really miss people in my life who I absolutely know will never understand how this feels. I have revealed myself as have they. I can't take off this mask and reveal myself again. I'm a different cat altogether.

But it hurts knowing how things used to be and are no more. I'm talking about viewing things from a time in place of morals or normality the world was yours. That we were half baked models of ourselves not attuned by morality toward each other but because we felt we were invincible we actually lost something along the way and forgot about grieving it.

I grieve in the sense of what kind of guy I used to be.

I'm using this time of year to find some answers.

The parable of my year-to-end (breaking up with 2013)

 What a stupid kind of year it has been. I am the only guy I know that made a conscious effort to remove the stereotype of convention and step into a novacane of generational eminence.

I live my life knowing that the tide has changed. I am in my 30's knowing the importance of myself as an individual as if I were in my 20's. The 20 something generation are now in an adolesent stage of their development totally unaware of themselves as a result of this shift in paradigm.

What this means is I resemble something unlike most would care to imagine, dictates the course of my own reality. The stage I am on is a set built of contradictory elements, that the average person has no idea of themselves if they were faced with a scarecrow, would not know such reason from artifice.

I am exactly the kind of man I envisioned myself to be.

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Fuck twitter has totally reinvented me to a point that I see right through people's bullshit and that is something.

Got to love factual vampires. The fact that being this much in denial against your status quo, makes me a wallflower and you stuck in shit.

Facts are a realists way of justifying what they feel is the norm or above the line of informing typical abstraction.

Passion takes ingenuity and genius. If you cannot grasp that, good luck with it.

Rule to live by: Everything you think you see if abstract you dismiss it. You see everything as related to facts (even if fallacious).

Facts are a realists way of justifying what they feel is the norm or above the line of informal thinking.

I will stick up for my friends. I will always wait for my enemies to strike first. Once you do, all bets are off. My intellect takes over.

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Mark Kaminsky wrote:

You need to think big just to survive

Not sure where this is coming from, but I have long maintained a shift in consciousness is about eliminating the corporate structure which the corporate elite are building toward. I am not a corporate citizen, therefore I am an enemy of the state. Or am I??

That is the predicament we are facing, not an epidemic but an unconscious apartheid that requires my rebellion toward diversity. Economics may guide the life span but it does not guard the heart.

Food for thought Mark.

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“You squeeze the eyedropper, and a drop of pond water drips out onto the microscope stage. You look at the projected image. The drop is full of life - strange beings swimming, crawling, tumbling; high dramas of pursuit and escape, triumph and tragedy. This is a world populated by beings far more exotic than in any science fiction movie." Carl Sagan

As I stated in my previous post to you re; science. Your mind increases its weight over time - much like the use of language. What we do is create a default position where our cognitive faculties begin to match everything in extraordinary ways.

Merry Christmas Mandy! xoxo

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“At the heart of science is an essential balance between two seemingly contradictory attitudes--an openness to new ideas, no matter how bizarre or counterintuitive they may be, and the most ruthless skeptical scrutiny of all ideas, old and new. This is how deep truths are winnowed from deep nonsense.” Carl Sagan

the best description I have heard regarding the idea of science and its subjectivity, is a free flow of wisdom, somewhat pragmatic somewhat allusion somewhat eccentric. Actually all science is to me is of the mind and that the mind is built on intellect unique to the human experience. A filter through the illogical deceptions or abstractions in life. All reason is is abstract, and it becomes more radically defined over time.

This is why I write the way I do. Not for today, but for a future when the language I created will be decoded, understood and completely functional.

Science to me is reason. And reason is fallibility - not perfection.

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I usually save my year in review for sometime around the beginning of the new year, but inspiration tells me otherwise - so here is my attempt at it.

I am wary of the people in my life that truly love me despite the retards out there that think they are doing me some kind of favor by being my friend - or when I see them out in public and they have to try real hard to give me the benefit of the doubt. Fuck off you half-wits.

The truth is I know who my real friends are, and I will fight for them. A lot of that has to do with this entry, who I am as a person, what I am as a man, and what to seek for as an individual. A writer especially.

I know so many people give me the kind of false energy that filters through my personal space. We are all territorial animals in some way, but only the intellect surpasses the laws of those that fail it. By nature my gravitational element is the most sacred thing I have to give, it means I know who my friends are. It helps me identify with respect that I deserve and come to appreciate in my life. In effect I see those that are no good, victims of the devils creed, power hungry, but in my eyes you are nothing. This takes a special kind of knowledge and one that veers off from the manipulative element of survival and of guilt for retribution.

I am also proud to be Portuguese, and distance myself from the inbreds that think they know better. I see all of you, not half the man I am.

My message as a romantic Canadian is as proud. A country that lacks romance and its heroes are unromantic.

The people that do know me will read this and take the educational aspect of it with a grain of salt and feel the words as if spoken from their very mouths. In retrospect my vibrational element is empowering and takes great courage. A courage I learned I have as result of 2013.

Merry Christmas everyone.

Happy New Year

Marco Almeida (born 1977 - circa 2014)

Thanks for reading!

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LL Cool J - Phenomenon

Arcade Fire - Joan of Arc

This makes me wonder what my idea of becoming an actor should be without the element of surprise as a permanent link to the future. A prime example of living life with a clout of absence. The distance between doing nothing and going nowhere, that my own experience is an evasion to. Where in the eyes that examine such imagery feel a mystery about to unfold.

· Oct 17, 2013

The moral apathy of an Avant Garde

December 18th 2012

The mockery of criminal activity is an intriguing work of fictional belief, its vulgarity is fictitious, nor does it lead to such a thing as intelligent, in essence, I am talking about morals, which morals acclimate what is subject to the nature so few possess - 1- that those few (that) do have the power can witness pure morality, are also less authoritative in quality - (a) the trained eye (b) is much stronger (c) than people that disregard sound morals (d) unknowing their virtue that is disconnected. 2- True moral discord acts between what is selfless; 3- contrary to those that against others particularly superficial beliefs. It is I that identifies with the eye of a liar, exposing them for what is false. True nature to offending 'mock criminals' of their injustice, is exposing how aware they are, they examine what makes other people suffer - so corrupt they are in fact - they implicate their evil into alibis - in the process ennoble themselves of virtue, as if transcend all things on such moral high ground.

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"It is I that identifies with the eye of a liar, exposing them for what is false. True nature to offending 'mock criminals' of their injustice, is exposing how aware they are, they examine what makes other people suffer - so corrupt they are in fact - they implicate their evil into alibis - in the process ennoble themselves of virtue, as if transcend all things on such moral high ground."

^When I read such things I have written of such historical appraising worth, I look at it with no amount disbelief whatsoever, knowing whoever is reading it can understand how significant it already is - and will be.

Unthinkable {algorithms in deepest sense of reality}

December 17th 2012

 The idea of compassion reminds me that only things are not closely related, except there are those that make invalid criticisms, these are people basing choices they made as prisoners free from their own failure. This idea is inspired based on things I cannot accept in life, but unconsciously are always present.

^All people that fail to see themselves as failures, are not guilty of being a prisoner to other people's actions.

^Case in point, people that fail to see themselves as failures, are in fact prisoners in a meta-physical (reality) based sense. People that fail to see themselves as failures are inept from being taken seriously. Therefore, people that fail to see themselves as failures act as though they are not prisoners, when in truth, they are guilty of failure though project themselves as false witnesses - hide behind their ego driven desires.

Re; metaphysical reality

The metaphysical based sense of reality, is that people failing to see themselves as failures are false witness. Therefore, prisoners are people that fail to see themselves among others as equals, do so connivingly or deviously. (i.e. Less than obvious)

Case in point: people fail to assume the best in themselves relies on the deflation of others ego driven needs, even if those selfish desires are kept from view. Hiding behind your ego, makes you a coward. I use my authorship as a vehicle to promote my self taught ideas, in a biographical dissertation of what the world does not understand itself otherwise. It exposes virtue for that sake of reading how ornate the soul is a place of.

“It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.”
― Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

"these are people basing choices they made as prisoners free from their own failure." (MA2012)

^This case and point is re; how people base their intended actions. Thereto, it is in general that those same people, care only to eliminate any trace of their own humanity in favor, not being made to suffer. So a prisoner based reality, strictly on terms of human nature, is small sacrificial mentality.

^All people that fail to see themselves as failures, are not guilty of being a prisoner to other people's actions.

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This is where I would like to send some of the most ignorant people in the world, only they would never know it. It is a question of people, people that only obey how (rules) to specifically dictate a type of master made mentality, they are unable, unavailable to, read between the lines of vapid interests, such as their own immodest beliefs. This estrangement of desire, demonstrates, no matter how foreign its ideas, do not necessarily dissipate. The reality of such incredulity is in fact very real. It divides how criminally inept people are, from the ones that are only here to make you suffer. I know plenty of irrefutable kinds, that hide from displaying their inequality over time, get to be so good at it, think they have everybody fooled.

If any of you fail to read that^ without question the flawed morality you refuse to believe exists in place of ourselves, you either missed the reality check - or - have allowed yourself to be conveniently unaware. I am proud to be an author to a cause of the human element, to ignorant self induced candid people, that have no idea how to produce this themselves. I am willing to be imprisoned for my idealistic beliefs. I am a fighter among false men.

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I feel blessed. I find that one fleeting moment a person shares with, where I have not to question their motives, in place of a shared experience, because when it happens - I am certain to feel its rarity. And when it happens, the world finally makes sense - a juicy born reality - not of half hearted, unconcerned, vagrant pastimes.

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"It is only by not paying one's bills that one can hope to live in the memory of the commercial classes."
-- Oscar Wilde

I had no idea the concept of lassez faire is something Wilde adopted.

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In truth, I rather have a life without abundance because of two things: would you choose 1- wealth without money 2- honor without wealth.

Legend:

Wealth without money (means) you want wealth because it can only be made of money (even if there is no money) your selfish desires define wealth as monetary. That much is obvious.

Honor without wealth is the exact opposite of monetary value. It is honor that supplies a less provocative purity of selfish desires. It exposes everything of virtue.

Three part answer:

1- There are two kinds of betrayal, against those that live life concerned only with monetary wealth - OR - those in favor of wealth made of honor.

2- You are in error if the ego has wealth made of money as opposed to wealth made of honor.

3- The primary element of life is differentiation­ between the two.

"It is honor that supplies a less provocative purity of selfish desires. It exposes everything of virtue." (MA2012). "Provocative purity" conceives how innocent people in general act to obtaining capital success.

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“There was a beauty in the trash of the alleys which I had never noticed before; my vision seemed sharpened, rather than impaired. As I walked along it seemed to me that the flattened beer cans and papers and weeds and junk mail had been arranged by the wind into patterns; these patterns, when I scrutinized them, lay distributed so as to comprise a visual language. ”
― Philip K. Dick, Radio Free Albemuth

Interesting metaphorical use of consciousness instituting its self described language as "patterns". Very interesting indeed.

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In Boston Harbor, a group of Massachusetts colonists disguised as Mohawk Indians board three British tea ships and dump 342 chests of tea into the harbor on this day in 1773. The midnight raid, popularly known as the "Boston Tea Party," was in protest of the British Parliament's Tea Act of 1773, a bill designed to save the faltering East India Company by greatly lowering its tea tax and granting it a virtual monopoly on the American tea trade.

Wow - the black market in its infancy before getting a big allowance, such a novel concept. Was it or was it not British imperialists that succeeded, in principle, making taxes a surviving monopoly tool still used today. Classic republican/democrat power model.

Republicans= we take what we want as ours.
Democrats= lowering taxes is not an option.

Leave it up to colonists ideology, they marginalize the same group of people that got them there, using a "designed" exit strategy and conveniently lay claim of its investors. It was an act of extortion, used to give American revolutionaries (their ideas of desired wealth). When you think of a credible basis (a) win at all costs, (b) a covert operation follows, (c) we get what we want whether fair or not.

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Unfortunately, that is also true of people, whose only objective is to steal it from you.
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The cynics ultimate view of life, is not a good quality. > "In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer." -- Albert Camus

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I am not afraid to admit, that there exist some things are less recognizable than are others.

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“Only amateurs say that they write for their own amusement. Writing is not an amusing occupation. It is a combination of ditch-digging, mountain-climbing, treadmill and childbirth. Writing may be interesting, absorbing, exhilarating, racking, relieving. But amusing? Never! ”
― Edna Ferber

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I know that Lennon is talking about being thoughtless not heartless. I think I need only one of my fingers to count how many people are thoughtless, as most of those heartless can hardly keep up. (There is too many to count on one hand, no use to keeping track.)

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If and only if Krishnamurti is right, that means hope survives longer, then, there is peace in the world.

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"I stepped into the bookshop and breathed in that perfume of paper and magic that strangely no one had ever thought of bottling."

― Carlos Ruiz Zafon

Whatever in the fuck this guy is talking about, I only aspire to be a writer amidst my laboratory of words turned into language. It is literature that bleeds itself without anyone first responding. I become a poet, it is because I am fluent in the art of capturing blood, that in the minds of others, only beauty leads to death, and their bodies transform with feelings they never knew they had before - and by the time they feel it has finished, they want to be inspired more, more in order for the vessel to heal its thoughts and words.

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"It is better to believe in men too rashly, and regret, than believe too meanly. Men could be more than they are, if they would try for it. He has shown them that."

—Mary Renault, The Persian Boy

In the name of Christ

 As a believer of what the Templars stood for, I reject any view that Templar knights wouldn't fight to the death in the name of Christ. There is no other rationale for it. Surviving Christ is the battle to end all death. Although - Jerusalem may have fallen, the Templars live on forever. In my mind it is the highest order over which survives Christ in the name of Templar's forces. The fight for Christ is not born out of a mortal's bravery if not in brevity. Brevity in the name of Christ.

Templar's fight in the name of Christ and Christ will survive when all death nears its arrival.

Only Templar's would fight for the right to die in the name of Christ. That is what the Crusades were. The fight for Christ's inertia. Not for mere survival. Jerusalem will never fall into the wrong hands of a nobility that fails this decree.

This is what it means to fight as a Templar. Fighting in the name of Christ is salvation in its own accord.

- Marco

The Templar's brevity over Jerusalem

Principle of the Templar