reverting back to '0'

 February 8th 2011

From a time of great moral upheaval, there is far less understanding over how awareness plays in part to the human experience.

Part of the human conditions associated, without contradiction do - do not become that sense of reality, which would otherwise inform us of our self embodiment.

Physical I.e. (distinct characteristics) we certainly do not live without our most unadulterated needs. Those needs would , in some other parallel world, be next to non-existent.

So much of my self-examination has come in the form of language, so much so, that the same can be said of my natural existence of life.

So to speak in terms nowhere near my pleasure center, is completely void of thought, instead requires the full rotation of complete reality. A realty that does not exist, but at the same time is not false in its entirety.

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I have to say, subscribing to the feedback which comes from the world around me, does not put my mind on an axis, which the sun revolves around. It is this place I am trapped to the day I perish the earth. To have the power of such a cross between, those that feel I am, a sordid mess of facts. I will be stoic against such defiance.

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When this so happens - my provocative sense of self worth?

The answer is quite simple really, it is without knowing a full understanding in which, life seems to be bringing you down. E.g. Not down to earth.

It are these types of people.

I will readily equate, all the people - somehow or other care to see nothing but what is most deserving of themselves. Perhaps that points toward a neurotic sense of self-fulfillment. I am not witness to those people, egocentric minded imbeciles.

I am most interested - in place of my own misfortune not to see others for what they see me as.

My comfort will always search from my middle ground; so as if to speak - on terms of a dignified sense of will. Even my silence will provoke such lack over my intolerable need to dismiss people, which trust they demonstrate to me, is of no impartial quality.

In all my ways of thinking, acting emotive, to such behavior of people.

That when I make my decision, they will know exactly what I think of them. That is the fundamental aspect related back to faking.

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There is nothing worse than faking death; worse still are those unfortunate enough to be faking at life.

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How I miss hearing my great grandfather's laugh. When we would sit, over conversation, at his cobblestone staircase leading up to the entrance. How I will recall, that instance you'd (even in silence) make me feel that divorce from reality, so real, yet so vivid to the human nature you were unmistakable. That reminds me of your presence in earnest, that trust, that bonding not typical of how one should act. You are that person, you said, "we live trying to know everything, and die knowing nothing.". I was so young, but those words were so simple, incomparable from the man they were born from. You just knew how to make sense.

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The right to autonomy

The right to freedom of speech

The right to individuality

Wages no war.

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War waged on me and my family - totally different story, those nazis have never seen a fight like mine.

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Marco Almeida

I love that word: nazis. Canadians hate it. I'm Canadian, eh.