Duration

February 7th 2013

I have never felt so dejected as on this night, of which clued into my own life. It is this time I have since realized remains symbolic of me.

I do not know when it all started, what I can suggest is this: that through my self interest, provides me dissatisfaction.

It all happened in a circle, where I see the equivalent of Beavus and Butthead, what in the 90's were abnormal looking caricatures named as the characters. It is rather disheartening to be witness to such flagrant stupidity. That cure in my mind, to be adept in the art of reasoning which is chocolate or chocolate milk - because neither tastes the same as the other. After some deliberation, one of the cartoons insist that chocolate milk is the correct answer.
The problem is, what do we know is the taste of chocolate milk. All we know is the consistency of the flavor has its expiration date, to which it is no longer valid. So, the great trouble in solving this puzzle, never really had a fair examination.

This is where I encountered a person, that this person forbid the use of its name neither 'him' or 'her' - just a person of no equal or lesser importance.

The next person requires description as a monopoly figure; not the kind of thing you pay attention to everyday.

Through this emotional containment, there is a projection involving no real source of words, just a reality present, where the kind of things that you think about are never real.

This is where I discovered how bad I feel about myself. That through the course of this dilemma, the most unnatural of paranoia, its been said, I have brought something to life much louder than the eye can see. There is a place, where I sense prevalent or profound, its manner that no one else feels where a sacred seed has been planted.

This is to allow the forgiving nature of anything less than its kind. That is the only rule.

All this follows is one simple question: can you think of the one thing that possess courage over you. If you answer that correctly, you have made it a greater sacrifice of yourself.

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The moral of this is in my next source of words these ideas create, as they manifest over time.

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How much courage must you possess, to truly allow another person to hold you safely in their arms. Is there such a thought that crossed your mind, if even at random. Does that same person attract you whole hearted. If you open your eyes, you will see the amount of it in shatters. If you seek it in your heart, you will feel the empathy it takes, that resonates. If you radiate honesty.

Those are skills of the heart, against darker forces of nature.
I have lived to see the kind of things most do not attempt to. Can you search for the truth, in its most vulnerable state. How do you know it. Why did you.

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I really like this definition of a "Growth Fostering Relationship"- One in which empathy is experienced freely and without shame; a relationship in which two individuals are growing and developing together. It is also one in which there is mutuality. This does not mean a balance of power, but rather a commitment by both parties to be impacted by one another (Jordan, 1991)

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Marco Almeida

I have no idea what should that mean, as I feel, I am an open book when it comes to such ideology. The point that needs to be made (which is not addressed) is that people driven with such motives do not exist. If they do exist, they are hardly aware of it. It is a qualitative view of life in terms of being found if at all. There is a lot left to be desired in what truly acts as sacred. People fake this notion of reality. Therefore, they are good at faking it, conveniently put themselves into that situation pretend as if it happens.

To find a person with such powerful insight is a rarity to combine it with less than superficial values. What that tells you, is people abandon the thought of truly selfless cause, more often retreat from it.

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I have known this all along. There is no greater truth that people fail to live.

"Don't aim at success. The more you aim at it and make it a target, the more you are going to miss it. For success, like happiness, cannot be pursued; it must ensue, and it only does so as the unintended side effect of one's personal dedication to a cause greater than oneself or as the by-product of one's surrender to a person other than oneself. Happiness must happen, and the same holds for success: you have to let it happen by not caring about it. I want you to listen to what your conscience commands you to do and go on to carry it out to the best of your knowledge. Then you will live to see that in the long-run—in the long-run, I say!—success will follow you precisely because you had forgotten to think about it." ― [Viktor E. Frankl]

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1- Through this emotional containment, there is a (a) projection involving no real source of words, (b) just a reality present, (c) where the kind of things that you think about are never real.

2- The moral of this is in my next source of words these ideas create, as they manifest over time.

3- If you radiate honesty.

^All of this is existential. If you can radiate honesty, your nature of morality manifest over time. Then, revert yourself through a-b-c.

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I dedicate this entry to my sister, Marta Vodrey. And my family in Vancouver.