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 January 1st 2011

First entry.  I waste no time - then.

 

Knowing who your real friends are, to me, experience became such a blessing.  I've been able to meet people, that likewise, have given me such new found spirit to connect with.

 

I am starting to live my life in a way, conducive, to the human experience, within the same parameters of my true self.

 

That these are people I have their back to mine.

 

Literally speaking, I feel invigorated, devout to my style and personality of choice, which is not to speak of my own personal suffering up to the minute. . . any such longer.

 

I will admit, invariably on a level of discretion and accord, that those who have changed without seeing me.  Those are the types who I am no longer prisoner of, taken if taken for granted, I mistook their better judgement for false inhibitions used against my better half (of self).

 

To that regard, I ended my losing streak long ago, into an age of sobriety - without the fear of temperamental judgement past my due date. 

 

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Tonight I unexpectedly saw the same faces which turned to reveal themselves (more so) as noble enemies.  It's funny how my god works in wonder.

 

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I saw love of people that accepted me unconditionally, who I only just met not so long ago, and this angel cast light which glowed on my soul.

 

I think to it now, she really gave me a reason to care.  The first time that has ever happened to me, because a friend wanted me - me Marco to care about her.  I did with rainbows.

 

At the end of the night, I noticed some who mistook my 230lbs massive frame, to invite them as some kind of violent act were to take place.  Gang bangers I call them.

 

I walked right past them, I sat down, not on a moments notice. . . 

 

Marco: (saying. . .) I will call the cops the moment you try anything.

 

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At that point they let their guards down, they knew they made themselves all to obvious.  I would not oblige them.  I told them I wanted no part of the recourse.  Nor did I make my efforts to dismiss them impartial or just simply rhetorical.  

 

They didn't bother with any red flags, because I didn't send any there way.

 

You see my peeps, I simply carry a message, one that takes thinking, involves romance, and ends with 'KNOWING WHO YOUR REAL FRIENDS ARE.'

 

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I've never needed violence to provoke myself into a fight.   I've never considered fighting a mans way of passage.  (i.e. right of passage - )

 

I simply do no honor in taking away from someone, the much - much finer layers of my persona to bare witness.

 

That is why I loved playing football, because I didn't have to worry about being violent, I always - always put intelligence ahead of competitive stamina.

 

Do I look like a football player - yes I do.  Does it matter that my ego doesn't get in the way?  Tonight proved I wasn't about to let that happen.

 

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