Purging the body :: Poetic wager vs poetic fantasy

 “They don’t teach literature any more for the most part. They teach ideology of one sort or another.”

— Harold Bloom

In bringing about a radical change in the human being, in you, you are naturally bringing about a radical change in the structure and the nature of society. I think it must be very clearly understood, that the human mind, with all its complexity, its intricate work, is part of this external world.

Krishnamurti Most of us try to carve out a private life of our own, a life in which we can be happy and peaceful and yet live with the things of this world. We seem to think that the daily life we lead is separate from the outer world.

If it weren't for constant dreaming, living in a perpetual alienation, I would be happily able to call myself a realist, that is, an individual for whom the external world is an independent / nation /. But I prefer not to call myself anything, to be who I am with a / certain / obscurity and to have with myself the malice of not knowing how to forsee myself.

I have a kind of obligation to dream forever; therefore, since I am nothing more and don't want to be more than a spectator of myself, I have to have the best spectacle I can.

So I make myself out of gold and silks, in false halls, false stage, ancient scenery, a dream created amid plays of soft light and invisible music.

-Fernando Pessoa

In my ignoble and profound soul, I register, day by day, the impressions that form the external substance of my self-awareness.

-Fernando Pessoa

I've always been an ironic dreamer, unfaithful to my internal promises. I always enjoyed, as if I were another, a stranger, the defeats of my divagations, accidental witness to what I thought I was.

I never gave credence to that I which I believed.

I filled my hands with sand, I cleaned it gold, and emptied my hands of all of it. The sentence was my only truth. With the sentence said, everything was done; the rest was the sand as it always was.

-Fernando Pessoa

I envy everyone because they aren't me. Since of all impossible things, this one seemed the most impossible, it was the one that constituted my daily anxiety, the despair of all my sad hours.

-Fernando Pessoa

Fiction accompanies me like my own shadow. And what I want to do is sleep.
-Fernando Pessoa

Some say that without hope life is impossible, others that even with hope life is empty. As far as I'm concerned, since today I neither hope nor despair, hope is a simple outdoor picture that includes me, and I attend it, as if it were a play without a plot made only to amuse the eyes - a dance without connection, a shaking of leaves in the wind, clouds in which the sunlight changes colors, old strolls through streets at dusk in strange parts of the city.

-Fernando Pessoa

I became like a character in a book, a read life. What I feel is (without my wanting it so) felt so that it can be written. What I think, therefore, I think in words mixed with images that undo my thoughts, which are open in rhythms that are just something else.

I've put myself back together so many times that I've destroyed myself. I've thought myself so many times that by now I am my thoughts and not myself.

I plumbed my depths and dropped the plumb; I live wondering if I'm deep or not, without another plumb now that my eyes show me, from white to black in the mirror of the high well, my own face that contemplates me contemplating it.

-Fernando Pessoa I am not sure how to buy that. Anger turned inward can be destructive if you choose not to express it or manifest it in its truest form. - Marco Almeida

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I am not here to inform anyone for their amusement, especially when the only purpose would be to bury me. I prefer to be an unfettered individual than one stuck in their momentary relapses of judgment. - Marco Almeida

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I talk because I refuse to be obliged by anyone off of social media. I have no idea how much simpler to make it before assholes ruin it. -Marco Almeida -----------------

I prefer to be a write-off in the minds of a mediocre majority than to be sought of from that. - Marco Almeida

I used to play the "everybody likes me" routine blindly. Now I read right through that garbage on twitter and in real life. I am not an unapproachable human being beyond the reproach of a respectable / reputable person who strives to be alive.

I am not one to break rules, and not one to learn what they are either. It means my sense of freedom is transparent. As it should be.

My heart is bigger than my mouth which also means to put your efforts with what you say and do in a very personal yet considerate manner. - Marco Almeida I absolutely hate that creepy vibe girls automatically assert to men as her only defense mechanism, are the same ones who want validation.

Honesty is the act of stating your mind and knowing that your unadulterated habits entertain even the most ignorant fool.

"One might point out how the Renaissance was great, because it sought to solve no social problem, and busied itself not about such things, but suffered the individual to develop freely, beautifully, and naturally, and so had great and individual artists, and great and individual men."

-- Oscar Wilde I have never given an impression that such is myself so falsely related, or so painfully obvious it makes me, I then liberate from. Marco Almeida

It's weird really - when people want you to act like you don't already know more than they themselves. So very weird.

“Character is long-standing habit.”
Plutarch