2005 - r.i.p. 2006!

this will be my last post of 2005. it's been a great ride for me.
i thought about what all of this means.
absolutely - nothing.
nothing at all.
but i dream of a day
where pink snow flakes will fall.
and it will be normal.

dirty secret

do not haggle with me.
I'm in the bussiness.
that dirty little secret.

the failure of 2005

I have the potential for romance
when in doubt?
But no need must I fear.
That in such promising ways. . .
my desire for trouble.
That emotion
has subdued!
That trying,
to make myself educated.
The completely unrelenting
individual I am.
You - you
you -
unmasked villain
in civilian clothing.
How dare i
seal
my fate!
We've disagreed,
yet somehow managed
a thought over
disagreement
isn't fought.
It is the nature
of something
supernatural.

Old fashioned hero's

For each moment I looked happy.
And from then on
the creation of my secret sex life
took a turn for the best.
My treatment in therapy worked.
These are the rules -
you have the discipline
and awareness
it takes -
to succeed.
But - I'm
not a robot
for
spirit'
for
health. . .

In the road
ahead_
I've stopped
talking'
bananas'!

My heart runs on courage.

As not to be
too-much
that
is
worst.

The red dragon's future

I have forgot!
Have I forgot?
That the future I had;
now - can no longer be true.
But the future I WILL
- be.
Limited in the will we forget. . .
with.

mayday: a defective allegory

The detection
of'
not listening;
( I will not. . .
- appeal to
snobbery. )

The potential
of'
complaining. . .

FAIR
BALL ?

FAIR
- BALL !

A fouling is felt,
detected.

All in the effort
of estrangment
from a context
it was given. . .
not without really
trying myself.
Panicked - educated
"Strange emotionally."

They haven't got to me facing
the wrong side of the argument.

The mortality of ethical obligations in "relationship"

The vanity of emotion in vain;
So unto the racism
- of calling a group such .
I refuse the dynamite!
Dynamite?
Quite simple:
"Are you king of the Jews."
"You have said so yourself."
And that misconception of Jesus
our modern day hero.
Allows us to believe in life as a human being.
That we are our children.
We can have a belief commonly held in favor
- that nothing can withstand.
Because in time,
throughout the course of history.
I have learned to accept, Jesus.
And his name.
And my own sanity.

rejuvinating accountability

If you lived in a world that belonged
to a certain group;
and that hadn't the idea?

Perhaps only - then
might I feel inclined!

The truth be told.
And unless - you
can prove to me. . .
what I am saying is
completely skewed
in some way
from its original
meaning.
I'll be inclined not to
accept such responsibility.

Though I have no problem
accepting
myself accountable
to reason!!

Whatever it takes. . .
whatever my heart makes.

any argument unacceptable

I've been educated to believe in
the
way I think.
And
through the
ending
to the beginning.

I wonder/

...if all things remain equal

I divide?

Perhaps then
you'll agree!

My classified personality
has tired
of trying too hard
or been emotionally unavailable
to abuse.

Christianity

I entered a universe all its' own
in particular cases;
the only thing I couldn't
think imaginable!
That a victim lives
on each
side of an argument.
And the world.
What the reality does
makes me no less
of a person.

the appeal to snobbery

Waking up in Manhattan. . .
I dream of life here.
A salty fishbone.
And an intimacy between
us penguins marching.
Perhaps it's not due to my
suspision of'
that character I'll
never be.

I have no other reason for saying this;
other than that
my heart
is in the right place.

discretion

As if to say
you read this
as it to say ;
genius.

But then the aforementioned
word didn't appear?

Then that word only appeared
in direct time
as compared
to indirected goal
oriented behavior!

Now say the word genius.

That's me.

giftwrapping gifts

I've somehow managed
to have my own
behavior
confused - with
not giving
a straight
answer.

Generosity

Often I wonder
. . .is this
not'
a trap or;
a loop-hole?
EFFORTLESS.
In the same
feeling - up in smoke!
Who does the thinking
if "you know what."
In such a crime
scene - of ufo's -
and shadows.
Something personally depriving
-me of.
Immoral -
- . . .That feels like feels
like taking care of myself.

Although - my dearest
monkey -
sweat - monkey
playboy -monkey
sweetheart mouse. . .
for I am for-
for
I am
not.

Sleep Walking Insomniacs

I live most of my time in,
the narrative that responds
without the feline.
Perferably a piece of mind
that registers in time!
That tommorow all I have. . .
was lost?
Because I already know the outcomes -
to displace myself.
That I exist.
Mechanically I work in percentages.
1% is toward my dreams to live.
99% I commit to action. To act.
To learn.
To observe.
To listen.
To love that freedom.

I'm not sold

. . .on the idea of a constitution Mr. Bush.
You have discussed these elements in favor
of a great mission.
But I digress.
Somewhere along the line
something changed.
And the philosophies of man?
Became extinct!

to whom the bell tolls

I knew there was a reason;
my professor had!
I must continue. . .
to change the issues of avoidance
a doctor orders perscriptions.
Through it all Marco,
you have a capacity
that no one else has.
Remember me - doctor
I continue to change.
And you ordered prescriptions.
Not me.

Amoral high ground :the swamp

Suffer' from moral hi-jinx;
yet no longer-
is it
illogical
to think.
My heart drums like
the sounds
of an
ocean
floor.
Haven't I tried harder?
Not a dream to do without.
Not an empty road
that leads
to
nowhere.
The happy days!
Popcorn salted butter.

the risk of decensitizing a shopliffter

I just freak myself out;
when I'm not feeling happy
as I should. . .
be.
Basically.
Not as practical enough.