The Block bwtween Artificial Intelligence and real time Creation

 I reject things that usually means something I haven't yet understood. But I learn to provoke thought into it. That is how I reject arithmetic because why should I consume myself with symbols and formulas which are entirely unrelated to the universe as a whole. Math is something I never understood and probably never will expect if it offers theories. I am a theoretical style thinker which means I rather postulate using inference as a form of logical dialogue. Mathematics independent of language makes no sense to me. Never has.

The model of light-years in its entirety ties into quantum physics which I also know nothing about on a quantitative level. I rather understand things through qualifying my own thoughts, against a theoretical framework.

In order to undertake any real properties related to numbers I rather using logic to decipher what everything that means.

Is math useless?  That's my question from which I placehold my own theory to.

How can we possibly reach other solar systems..think about it. Theoretically it will be impossible to achieve.

Unless physical teleportation is possible. Which means we can transfer uniform particles being that we are made of as energy and transport a compound as particles light years away.  How is this not a reality yet. Isn't it fair to ask. And if so, what does it point to. Teleportation is the only thing imaginable.

My theory of time travel is another element in teleportation through dimensionality.

My theory is simple. 

If future time travel in theory does exist in future time, I believe that the model for time travel would mean my double would already have visited me in real-life and altered the course of my life.

Now prove it. Prove that I am simultaneously not in between a future and present day. It's improbable.  Time travel cannot exist otherwise I'd be completely changed as result.

Psychological order

 

I reject things that usually means something I haven't yet understood. But I learn to provoke thought into it. That is how I reject arithmetic because why should I consume myself with symbols and formulas which are entirely unrelated to the universe as a whole. Math is something I never understood and probably never will expect if it offers theories. I am a theoretical style thinker which means I rather postulate using inference as a form of logical dialogue. Mathematics independent of language makes no sense to me. Never has.

The model of light-years in its entirety ties into quantum physics which I also know nothing about on a quantitative level. I rather understand things through qualifying my own thoughts, against a theoretical framework.

In order to undertake any real properties related to numbers I rather using logic to decipher what everything that means.

Is math useless? That's my question from which I placehold my own theory to.

How can we possibly reach other solar systems..think about it. Theoretically it will be impossible to achieve.

Unless physical teleportation is possible. Which means we can transfer uniform particles being that we are made of as energy and transport a compound as particles light years away. How is this not a reality yet. Isn't it fair to ask. And if so, what does it point to. Teleportation is the only thing imaginable.

My theory of time travel is another element in teleportation through dimensionality.

My theory is simple. 

If future time travel in theory does exist in future time, I believe that the model for time travel would mean my double would already have visited me in real-life and altered the course of my life.

Now prove it. Prove that I am simultaneously not in between a future and present day. It's improbable. Time travel cannot exist otherwise I'd be completely changed as result.

Unlocking secret to mastery

 Being empowered by such a technique of deprogramming the mind takes skill. It becomes a material personal awareness that takes on a psychology of its own. Follow that with unlocking the secret to a greater way of thinking. Your ability in knowing nothing come from eliminating thought from body and mind. It will be as personal to you in growth and accomplishment.

On epistemology

 A social scientific overview of the thinking process which is a law for all observable phenomenon. Therefore, thinking about what to process is obsolete. Asking 'What is' is personal to you and your aim to define that us epistemological in value.

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 As to wonder how the seeds of time magically somehow appeared in the palm of your hand, that you never let go of.

How the seedically -

Somehow -

Appeared in the palm of your hand, that you

Observable phenomenon & corruption

 Feminists are never wrong about anything they're just fucking hypocrites. I on the other hand still look cool without wearing sunglasses.

Karma is and will always be my personal guide to being happy. I relate everything to philosophical investigation *gender specific stereotypes.

Dark Psychology informs gender roles forging false stereotypes into language associated with such deviance, which goes socially ignored on an antisocial level. That is the secret to living between extremities and not getting what you want out of life. It is entirely observable.

Old school confessions of revenge (2nd part)

 The sounds of a bird.

The scent of nostalgia.

The ascension of critique.

The summit of empowerment.

The spiderweb of emotions.

The revenge of instruction.

The weapon of choice.

The awareness of disarmament.

The songs of music.

The future of measurements.

The psychic of psychics...

And the physical prediction of all things being equal.

The taming of a wild animal.

The complacency of control.

The victim of compliance.

The source of complaint.

The element of cause.

The nature of inhibition.

The form of argument.

The shape of logic.

The cancelation of numbers. (Omission)

The introduction of learning.

The beauty of models.

The mechanics of body.

The body of wisdom.

The wisdom of life.

The arduous recall of memory.

The longing of experience.

The fear of God.

The issue of prayer.

The threat of guilt.

The salvation of famine.

The slavery of thought.

The pain of intolerance.

The reaction of instinct.

The innocence of children.

The love of learning.

The mastery of reaction.

The help of feeling.

The feeling of nothing.

The psychology of honor.

The transparency of judgement.

The mystery of seduction.

The deduction of meditation.

The query of contradictions.

The conditions of laws.

The timing of movements.

The starvation of will.

The pulse of hunger.

The heat of danger.

The survival of humanity.

The eyes of prey.

The lifestyle of failure.

The mirror of magic.

The magic of mind.

The death of hunger.

The mouths of desperation.

The ideas of artistic expression.

The error of language.

The enemy of good.

The evil of imagination.

The imagination of dishonesty.

The code of morality.

The error of truth values.

The correction of lies.

The connection of random variables.

The hope of unconditional freedom.

The channeling of conscious.

The energy of words.

The words of knowing.

The consequence of reality.

The reality of discipline.

The romance of rain.

The reasoning of creation.

The inquisition of fallacies.

The diversity of science.

The nature of physics.

The perdition of secrets.

The image of peace.

The vision of poetry.

The voice of angels.

The work of purgatory.

The sentence of hard labor.

The fascism of dictators.

The theocratic method of true democracy.

The abolition of denomination. (Divison)

The imprint of equality.

The problems solving of religious artifice.

The elimination of political discourse.

The awareness of duality.

The dichotomy of religions.

The proof of fallacy.

The divergence of history. (Contextual)

The relevancy of confession.

The solution of dialect.

The guilt of design.

The crisis of understanding.

The self conscious of depression 

Old School confessions of revenge

 I don't care to disappear...

I make an effort to observe things,

Taking into account I'm not, without

purpose without identity.

At conflict with the divinity of what knowledge is.

Is knowledgability evaluative empirically ONLY or is knowledge strictly a conscious craft upon the same basis our thoughts are made of unconscious... an a prioiri imprint to interpretively accept or deny.

So what then dictates reality.

If not reality then the question of god,

Can (god) only exist independent of phenomenon.

This equates to freedom and a normal perception of it in the world.

My sweet sweet devotion.

Liar Liar

 Criminality makes you mentally compulsive in the liars club.

Whereas standards are acclimated to dictate the norm.

The compulsive liar.

A case of prostituting your disposition to the world.

That hint of class for the privilege of being with you.

You can't plagiarize my style... you can't cheat my prestige... take away my fame.

Until I take you to my Gothic underground.

I am characterized by the famine you seek in me.

Because maybe just maybe liars are problematic poets just as sensitive with thoughts as with words.

Plotting Ambiguity

 Plotting ambiguity...

What not if everything you did were imaginary.

What would that look like.

Would it be as though Alice in Wonderland

Mastering the art of outer worldly all things being irrational.

Put myth in information.

Perhaps it either will show you are simply trying to make the purpose of your recourse seriously or not give it meaning - meaning inspiration.

Feeling the brail written beneath your finger tips.

The dubious distinction between what you feel vs

The danger in knowing if you have a soul or not.

Anti social cues and the declaration of war

 Whe you stopped.

You quit talking to me.

So to me... I waited.

Patiently.

In the background you will feel

How lonely I am.

Directly into this distance behind me,

Is where you'll find me.

I found myself there.

A revelation unlike any other.

That, in my own mind...

Quit talking.

You may wonder why that is.

I am outside my thoughts.

My thoughts are not just words,

Which come out of my mouth.

Only for you to normalize them.

What I want is to feel excitement.

It's in your voice,

But in a cone shape vessel

That spirals down ward.

And all the words...

All of that vocabulary...

M

E

L

T

S

AWAY.

Someplace else is where I can imagine you.

That place is my minds eye resetting

Each movement in the conversation you take.

I can feel your pulse is into the conversation

My only intent pours my heart out to you.

I love that feeling.

Each and every time I accidentally fall.

You will catch me there.

Living the words.

The basic elements of anomaly

 “The noble soul reveres itself” Friedrich Nietzsche

"Freedom is self-determination."

Baruch Spinoza

“I know of no better life purpose than to perish in attempting the great and the impossible.”

Friedrich Nietzsche

What acts as true definition of passion? It is simple: passion is a logical romance which is done in the most illogical of circumstances. - Marco Almeida

To be a philosopher... is to solve some of the problems of life, not only theoretically, but practically.

Henry David Thoreau

 Intelligence is not knowledge. -- Jiddu Krishnamurti. 

Right thinking comes with self-knowledge.

Without understanding yourself, you have no basis for thought; without self-knowledge what you think is not true... You are the centre of the whole and without understanding yourself you cannot understand reality. -- Jiddu krishnamurti

Why Aquinas why

 "No evil can be excused because it is done with a good intention." - Aquinas

Aquinas is total and utter bullshit only appeasing to himself. 

A misdemeanor is not an evil being done in some form of contemptual denial. As my personal belief is to dial forgiveness in that you see the error of your ways as a path to enlightenment. This fosters truth in all things being equal. Hitherto everyone has a skeleton in their closet.

Aquinas is a fraud of a politician and even worse philosopher of his time. 

You cannot covert faith in the same manner Aquinas claims is evil. If you are evil then all you can have are bad intentions. I am not evil. Therefore, I have no bad intentions. This of course is a fallacy and to Aquinas an embarrassingly faulty point of reason. No one in their right mind can have bad intentions. That is, of course, false.

Aquinas is not the root of philosophy. It is a lie.

Don't be fooled by Aquinas. Ever!!

An examination of the self

 

 

I find my personal depiction relating to the pics message is not unnecessarily true. If you look at it from a particular angle there are beliefs which are impervious as opposed to something else less practical. It all depends on the morality of one's perspective according to a belief. I can make example of the freedom convoy from which anti vaxxers organized. They felt purged which resulted in a false notion  of reality that Canadian democracy was being tested. The convoy formed a mob mentality. 

How this is relevant as in the picture depicting one person leading our countries best interests should be obvious. Trudeau stood his ground and held a defensive position. You can see this mob in the caricature represents a greater number of falsely purged upon terrorists portraying themselves as victims. The element of truth springs from a single idea. It's a mastering of the mind.

Valentines Day

 

Do not seek fame. Do not make plans. Do not be absorbed with activities. Do not think that you know. Beware of all that is and dwell in the infinite. Wander where there is no path. Be all that heaven gave you, but act as if you received nothing. Be empty, that is all.

- Master Zhuang

The above is an undying wish that in ones secret life you are not tied down by the vacuum of success. I would even describe this as an active definition of freedom in that you feel it as opposed to something more vacuous.

Atrophied are rules of the heart

 Are you erudite in your wisdom.

What causes wisdom is divergence.

Divergence from the elements of your mind in transformation. 
Powered by something like dead air in a desert night.
What is the brains circuitry that triggers emotions.
Where is the hide out that you live in when you feel you've been double crossed.
Are you leading yourself out of that cave in the custody of all images you've portrayed yourself as.
LIke a maze in mirrors counting down memories days upon days of its deafened fear based reality.
Covering your assets.
Cutting your losses.
Never clouding your better judgement deep inside the dreamland of your conscious.

Criminality makes you mostly compulsive in the liars club.
What standards are to dictate the norm.
A senseless case of prostituting your class to the world.

The reduction of Good Will

 Weightless are the eyes mirroring your true reflection. Only you cannot see it.  

That sense of an evolutionary property on the inside.  Only you cannot see it.

Something so far from being elementary (because we cheat to have found an easier way...) its only cause is self destructive. Only you cannot see it.

And measurement is the abduction of your logical state of mind.  A reduction of memory.

The awareness of thoughtless pastimes lost

 Image is the thought.

Expression is the emotion.

Response is the reaction.

The undercover life

 

I cry without such contempt, carrying my compass that would give me some purpose in Iife.

What does it mean to find meaning.... the truth in all things.  This wizardry of all words in any language and God's tongue.

That magical testing ground you are found on the path of a broken dreamland with a broken foot and black footprints 👣.

Where thoughts of mine are psychologically outdated.

Restoring your primitive rights only to extinguish the sparkling of stars tracing ancient worlds... forbidden thoughts less than desirable.

What if our primal instincts were subject to change. Reading useless material or listening to me talk all day as a hero of poetry.
A scent of the art in a perfume so fragrant it encapsulates the mind.

In this game of snakes and ladders....
Where I tell you if I care to know who you are and what you're about or if the rules should be followed, "I don't care."

Only because all certainty increase fear and holds onto the value of nothing. Taking away all false hope as lost.

The thinker

 

Fratboys and Sororities

 You can put a Hugo Boss suit on God but you can't take God out of the boy. Just a simple reminder of what it means to be true to yourself. No matter the alpha look God always knows.

Right of privilege

 I struggle with my weight and have been clinically depressed in my lifetime and for both of these things treated second class. I have found my personal journey throughout this time is not without recourse into action. We all have our own coping mechanisms and faith to win the battle.  I am obese. I rather be judged for it. Why? Because it shows how shallow people are on a sociological level pertaining to blaming the victim.

Now that Brendan Fraser has found peace with himself I am happy for him. 

However, I refuse to believe that as he specifically chose in acknowledging his credence as an actor, benefited because of what he describes the director inspired him by "showing him where to go." It is completely as irrational as stating "go to the light" where going there will somehow save you in the form of a miracle.

To rewind what I have been through it is a given we all have different circumstances from which limit us or prosper from.

It is a psychological implication on two equal parts.  One part: is Fraser's movie role may in fact inspire those struggling either with their mental health also tied together results to a person's obesity. The second part: that of the limitations in which we make our journey imperatively speaking is judgement free. 

As a person who has suffered from both obesity and obesity from depresssion all I can say that it is impossible defensively to react positively.  That is to say I detect the courage it takes on an angel which borders of being a defective human being with flaws.  Brendan Fraser does not characterize there are things beyond that measure and to me is a disservice. 

I refuse to imitate the glorification of obesity on the same superficial level Brendan Fraser champions.

The truth is I have met toothless counts of individuals in the amateur scene of movie 🎬 dreamers.  Not one has ever achieved the kind of faith required to be a true hero without defects.

Months ago... I asked here on Facebook what is acting.

Not one person has come across with an answer. Fast forward...

The secret to acting is in your faith. Not faith in yourself or the kind of faith that you read from.  You learn to develop your conscious framework as an individual who may be caring, compassionate and brave enough to put yourself out there in the parameters of faith governing your actions. Your faith in action. Action to your awareness of how you treat others as in others. In truth you never stop your searching. 

Brendan Fraser has your attention but has he ever earned your faith by design. In that sense he has now been revered as a symbol of obesity and depression by design into a film 🎥 spectacle. Ask yourself is that true faith in something. It is a mere speck of dust In a much much smaller world of what really means Depression or Obsity in full body Armour.  

I have come across plenty of shit mongering misfits as per my interpretation. I am resigning to the fact that Brendan Fraser acted a good story because it's been manipulated. It doesn't mean everything in everything.

Depression is such a personal thing to overcome. Obesity you register as second class.

Cactus & Fossil

 True meaning in the invention of sin. Its truth. Its definition. Its cause. The inner working of faith.

2 Corinthians 5:21

“For God made Christ, who never sinned, to be the offering for our sin, so that we could be made right with God through Christ. . ”

Syncretism in the causal nature of inference

 

Without fear there is no bravery.
How does one express themselves like that
Not if in every moment. MA2023 

If you think out, feel out each repetitive thought-feeling and complete it as far as you can, you will find that it ceases to return. For, in understanding there is freedom. J. Krishnamurti


The categorical imperative: commitment to ambiguity of discharge (by: Marco Almeida)

There are rules set for causing categorical dysfunction when looking at future events in real time either which error can occur or what history calls subjective human nature.  That which laws of logic will together dictate reality and historically broaden the spectrum of speculation into one-dimensional formless bond. Such is why words cannot describe what is natural to the humam condition because of recurring mutations in social science as language reveals it to us.  That to us such traceable evidence of thought equals the same dimension from which it can never revert back to its original specifiable function.  This is indisputably how human nature toward all fallacy occur (if in error or not) in plot.  Ambiguity is this cause. From which all good things come.  History through the measure of this dimensional instruction that enters the course in reasoning shall then infer the inner functions of meaningful answers to questions being asked under the observers discretion.

There comes a time when the truth not only sets you free but it becomes you.

"… it is not possible ever to understand the totality of living, which includes all the fragments, from a fragmentary or peripheral outlook. You have to see the whole picture, … and in seeing the whole picture, you will then able to answer the particular, the personal issues, problems, and so on.”
J. Krishnamurti 

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True meaning in the invention of sin. Its truth. Its . Its cause. The inner working of faith.

2 Corinthians 5:21

“For God made Christ, who never sinned, to be the offering for our sin, so that we could be made right with God through Christ. . ”


I'm not that ugly though you may think I am.  In fact, I might be the real life version of Shrek. If you're into that sort of thing.

July 10th 2025

A deepened psychological state creates peace and peace creates thinking.  What dictates moral unrest is the deliberation of thoughtless action.  Some call it sadness while to others it informs your wisdom for an endurement in times of uncertainties.  A moral acclimation of the will is to eliminate the negative thoughts a priori to invent such sequence.  As you form your thoughts, your words. You investgate your thinking as the cause.  This is how your life is meant to be lived post ergo sum.

Marco Almeida ©️ 2025

Large are Victory of the heart; smaller are the mysteries than to equal

 1 Samuel 16:7

“But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”

Right thinking comes with self-knowledge. Without understanding yourself, you have no basis for thought. – Jiddu Krishnamurti

You are the center of the whole, and without understanding yourself you cannot understand reality.

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Let me be judged. I feel I'm the best example of an archetype with a heart big enough to fill. If I am judged for that it is because more often than not I'll be resented for it - without really being known for the person it makes me. MA2023

I am not sure as to why I feel this way other than answering it truthfully speaking. I've been categorizing my words appealing to what asks: does having a good heart not dictate being relevant in society. I am unclear as to what defines having a big heart. I just feel I have one. That also doesn't mean having a big heart is always meant to be catered to. On the contrary... I've always felt I possess a big heart as.a part of who I am. As I have grown or changed via evolution throughout my life... I feel it has been constant. What has equally been as constant is the relationships I've made over a span of time where I've either been taken for granted. If I fast forward into my history, today feels much much different. It feels like my equals that I depended on are no longer here nor there.

I also think if people started benefitting from assessing their personal space... a  place of mindful character inhibitions... rather than seek what makes them reputable on a superficial level.  That is where you feel bigger and not make-believable fairy tale fiction. Fairy tales in a manner that you or someone you may know are in a constant battle with the ego searching for what is untrue like a chicken with their head cut-off. They're the types that can never be satisfied. The alpha lifestyle that borders on an endless supply they have short fuse for everything.

Making oneself usefully relevant

 @bigcanadiano: #femalelies I am not really a slut, if you wait for it I will explain everything. > I love it how people in general fail to realize females have become equally as sexist than are their male counterparts, it has become prevalent in society, norms associated through such stereotypes - in which the lines have been blurred.  Feminist ideology as such, has become rather typical of its power struggle.

@bigcanadiano: The whole point behind finding out who is what from what is to distinguish yourself as something you know others cannot appreciate.

@bigcanadiano: Nihilists are fucking hilarious especially because most fail at it secondly because they are unaware. It is an unconscious perverse reality.

@bigcanadiano: You cannot abandon an entire spectrum of laws but you can always abate them.

@bigcanadiano: The principle of charity is a belonging to embark on an existential lifestyle. The nihilist precedes this notion and becomes territorial.

@bigcanadiano: And nihilists hate existentialists because existentialists wage a war of sacrifice. Nihilists practice escapism and participate in that.

@bigcanadiano: If you are a conservative ad hoc republican in this day and age you are brain washed and are the ultimate nihilists.

Year end review

To see this in what it means and fail to engage with its meaning may make you foolish or downright inexplicable.  It makes sense for all the right reasons. It speaks to the imagination of a child's interests but should spark you.  It speaks to me as inspiring. If you are an equal moral agent of gods will. Not outstanding to your own less than powerful judgment. This doesn't make you lay claim to my peddling religious beliefs as a high priest. On the contrary.... it works in the query of a philosopher's stone.

If you cannot accept.what you see for yourself despite what you may fail to see as true or false. Take a guess as to why. There are no tricks the mind can play on you when you grasp the letters in these words. MA2022

“Love and value others the same way you love and value yourself.” 

Romans 13:9 TPT

The above citation is a poor man's version of Kantian ethics and fair resolve. To treat each other as in man vs man as an equal. To treat others as an end and never merely as means. MA2022 

Full transcript

TPT

ROMANS 13

Our Relationship to Civil Authorities

1 Every person must submit to and support the authorities over him. For there can be no authority in the universe except by God’s appointment, which means that every authority that exists has been instituted by God. 

(There is an inversely wild element we tame in all of us that does not mean we are inherently evil in the eyes of god, it takes time to realize and may also take a dogmatic form. Be a critical thinker and change your outcomes and fear not. You force yourself. But we must be selfish. Have you happened to live life the hard way. Suffering is an integral relationship between the ego and an indication of how you believe is a divine power.) MA2022

2 So to resist authority is to resist the divine order of God, which results in severe consequences. 

(You are to infer the medium behind the message which in my mind asks: what is true divine order... and where or not we must speak in terms of a dialect inventive of a divine language that is restored.) MA2022

3 For civil authorities don’t intimidate those who are doing good, but those who are doing evil. So do what is right and you’ll never need to fear those in authority. They will commend you for your good citizenship.

(I often get thoughts sliced open like a bright orange copper and as time permits to question my own authority. I think authority should be based in humility. Authority breeds substance... it should not be impenetrable.) MA2022

4 Those in authority are God’s servants for the good of society. But if you break the law, you have reason to be alarmed, for they are God’s agents of punishment to bring criminals to justice. Why do you think they carry weapons? 

(There is not much to dissect here... other than that the ideation or glorification of guns as weapons is fatally flawed in a faternal manner of the US second ammendment.  Fanatics must be charged with purgery. Using guns is in excessive force is a crime in itself.) MA2022

5 You are compelled to obey them, not just to avoid punishment, but because you want to live with a clean conscience.

(To live in a clean conscience is the end goal. It should serve and be served. It speaks into the void of impartiality.) MA2022 

6 This is also the reason you pay your taxes, for governmental authorities are God’s officials who oversee these things. 

(This is an environment of sacrifice for the good of all men invested in their roles as a society will dictate. Our despondency will elicit or illustrate these things as it should be in good governing measured to all things being equally held. Liberals demonstrate good government funding to public infused social programs. Conservatives sell out to the privatization of such oligarchs as it is historically invalid. ) MA2022 

7 So it is your duty to pay all the taxes and fees that they require and to respect those who are worthy of respect, honoring them accordingly.

(Good governance on a whole is a matter that links libertarians and socialists alike.  Evil governance is the downfall of what seems to be popular or deafly mainstream across a global mosaic. Deadly empires such as the Romans historically heads of state ruled with that same state of mind. Only until an imperative Renaissance was conceived did abolishing Feudalism and Royalty which created the colonialization of the world we've recorded today.) MA2022 

 

8 Don’t owe anything to anyone, except your outstanding debt to continually love one another,  for the one who learns to love has fulfilled every requirement of the law. 

9 For the commandments, “Do not commit adultery, do not murder, do not steal, do not covet,”  and every other commandment can be summed up in these words:

“Love and value others the same way you love and value yourself.” 

(Brilliant.) MA2022

10 Love makes it impossible to harm another, so love fulfills all that the law requires.

Living in the Light

11 To live like this is all the more urgent, for time is running out and you know it is a strategic hour in human history. It is time for us to wake up! For our full salvation  is nearer now than when we first believed.

12 Night’s darkness is dissolving away as a new day of destiny dawns.  So we must once and for all strip away what is done in the shadows of darkness, removing it like filthy clothes.  And once and for all we clothe ourselves with the radiance of light as our weapon. 

13 We must live honorably,  surrounded by the light of this new day, not in the darkness of drunkenness  and debauchery,  not in promiscuity and sensuality,  not being argumentative or jealous of others.

14 Instead fully immerse yourselves into  the Lord Jesus, the Anointed One, and don’t waste even a moment’s thought on your former identity to awaken its selfish desires

To my greater self

 I sm so sick of me. But even if I am sick of me. The real me is aware. That means I am a cause of many things secretly.

Wisdom is

 "A consistent thinker is a thoughtless person, because he conforms to a pattern; he repeats phrases and thinks in a groove." Jiddu Krishnamurti 

Now you see me now you don't

I'm everything but clearly not celebrity. I have a royally religious sense of what it means to be nothing except famously unsensational. My carnal instincts move me never standing in the way of true sacrifice in an intense intense emotional battle between two senses. A man of god. I want to lead a life making it this my manner of such thoughtless bewilderment.

Rules unwritten in etymology

 

Who am I to know of what is it that God thinks about me.

Much the same question as cotton clouds in the sky.

Who am I to question what God feels about me.

Who am I if God grants me the strength of an angel; only stands in the shadow of a fire.

What is God's language in thought or in prayer better yet unknown as the divine dialect.

Timeless a language in that everything is known.

I ask: what if language were all in a face. Just a face. Not of facial expression from which we inform miming... but a language that is processed in the mind without combining words and assessing their meaning.

What is unequivocal to understand is how God's nameless identity came into being.

Does God have a mother. Was God a baby. Did God grow old only to create the heavens and the earth. Why are these things simple not invented rather than biblical or political in view.

Should every prayer be hidden in a deeply rooted 'amen' or sung alleluia alleluia alleluia inwardly as if a miracle.

Perhaps if we contributed to life living it in slow motion would eliminate our starvation for evolutionary principles.

Much ado conflict to a new world order or the corruption of a very real nebulae from which contradictions and controversy arouse the mind and activate the senses.

So on and so forth... what if this view of mine is sordid. What then.

But what makes beautiful the divine. That is a question worth asking. Though what if the secret is that we've been falsely lead to believe there is no secret to the holy grail. What then.

What surpasses the unknown. What is the unknown other than your ideation through which we observe to look and see things if not abstract.

If the language we were accustomed to were an image what would that image be. Forgetting that we possess language as a medium. What does that face conceal rather than language reveals.

From what fairytale do we achieve how to use a mask or wear a cowboy hat in our very intimate portrait of God.

That that faith is a confession put into a picture.

What risk runs the spirit but a threatening moral acclimation of the will. Good vs good... Quite a paradox. Both of those options negating evil unconditionally.

What if you awake from the fever of a dream where you escaped your funeral... in this dream you conquered your fear of death because you  dreamed you had died but in the dream you thought you were never going to wake up again. Maybe just maybe you commenced at being the person you never thought possible.

Just imagine that kind of succulence.  A beehive of emotion in your central nervous system... like honey in your mind... slowly dripping.

I do believe in angels. The kind of thing transcending an energy and an unmistakable vibrational element. We have chased around the idea of angels through a historical documentary. The order of angels on earth. I cannot fathom this third dimension we live and breath without the existence of angels. It would only be dead air. Compassion is what separates angels from mortals.

Mind blowing philosopher

 Is slavery primary or secondary. Is it primary in the sense you possess a hard work ethic or secondary in that you own it as a potential archetype. This type of mentality inferred to as slavery. It is slavery looked upon therefore borderline second class.  Can you attribute this as a primary or secondary cause. Is it a natural product or is it human.

Is this a product of logical deviation or a purely addictive inhibition which reminds us of how divided we are psychologically to deal with things. For example, is it at all possible we address this analogy between deviations as a cause which enables the human condition or are we synonymously dismissed by it as circular. Trapped forever in a hamster wheel. This follows inhibitively that to a fault our innate human mind is to continuously employ a slave mentality. It also plays out a common characteristic of the feudal civilization we live and work in that's been passed down throughout a historical vacuum. Slavery is a common denominator which we humans will never escape.

Something to chew on...

The secrecy of passion...

 

The purpose of a person's free will is made of their prejudices. It also subject to discrimination results as failure to project your true intentions as result. The conflicting internal state opposite of reality. Outside forces external of all sensibility never to reveal itself.

The penury of meditation

 When God said let there be light...

What was that moment like.
Was it some rite of passage like
The commandments engraved on Moses tablet.

That God never gave a passing thought
Into how history were recorded nor did God care.

What are you touching.
What are you feeling.
What are you observing.

To the observer
You are nothing.

You are not to observe but to abort it.

Now everything becomes clearer.

What we think of as timeless is not timeless.

We think we want it.

But it is not timelessness we want.

What we want is endlessness.

And nothing else.

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The secrecy of avarice

What is living life with a purpose to establish dominance. To establish dominance is to live life with a purpose. So that the pursuit of happiness can be a fair proposition.

The contradiction of color

 Can God be your equal or is that a larger than life proposition. Can you truly believe that God is your equal. If it is a true possibility. Is God an entity so powerful conceptually speaking, god as a forceful entity makes the question fairly impenetrable and entirely impossible to comprehend because such a power only god can possess or be all knowing. Does this inquiry into the nature of God corrupt your own mind depending on what its answer is. 

If you completely wrap your head around this question the truth is not inconceivable. Nothing can make you god's equal. The only chance god is equal to humankind makes god your eternal salvation your only belief in god is that god is on those terms your savior. Your shadow. You are a shadow of god's will.

If god as your equal makes it possible to endure then the question is a basic one. Whatever your choice. Whatever your faith is or not. If god is your equal you give birth to the idea god is real. That is the risk you take. This is part of the wager you make. You don't gamble with a question of this nature. You either think it is god as your equal which allows you to keep your sense of autonomy in the place god meant you keep it. It sounds flawed because it is. We are equally flawed in gods name. 

Is being equal in gods mind or in yours. Is the question enough. If god dictates equality does it exist as merciless or merciful. If you place your faith in place of a question as god being equal to you, it no longer means something. It means you have a belief in no higher power. God vs. Man is not a valid response. The question is can you place yourself as equal to god as god in question. Therefore, god is not an illusion. God has limitless power over you but can you accept god as an equal that everything you conceive in life turns over to god. 

Are we simply living a reincarnation of god simultaneously over and over again. Until the question of god disappears. As though god pulled a vanishing act. What would you be left with. What would no god leave you without. That is a pure question worth examining. The ultimate paradox.

The killer instinct of an invisible mind

 I can feel my voice as it echoes 

Somewhere... someplace else far
Far away.
It is where memories are made.
I ask myself where am I.
And might I find who I truly am
Through memories of those I feel connected to.
So much like...
Does one think to feel...
Or feel to think.
Because feeling always precedes
thinking. And the action of thinking
precedes feeling.
What if the state of nothing...
preceded chaos.
If so... then what if were it only a filter
of life that contained nothing previous
to it.
It makes life sound so much simpler.
To color outside your world.

Kafka

Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion.  Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.

Realigning the Cosmos

 My grandmother...

Taught me what the truest form of love is.
Simply by being me invested in her.
And through this she prayed day and night.
The most devoted catholic parishioner
I will ever know.
I have dedicated my life to knowing
That there is no reason needed.
No reason needed -
To make sense in knowing why she
Possessed the qualities of such peasantry.
She was a gift.
And in all the intentions I may have ever had in my life....
It is meant to be good as hers.

Sometimes I forget.

Forgetting is what we all do.

When trying to impress upon our stirring inhibitions.

If I were to make believe in myself it would consist of these things:

That I am a good person.
That ignoring me makes you less than a friend that does.
That I need to start loving life that I lead.

Would you attempt to kill a fly if it meant it were your only company.
Swatting at it.
Another swat.... and missed.
Again you swat.

That is what life looks like when you forget. You aim to hit the fly and miss it.
You swing to kill it.
But you never really know how.
A fly doesn't consist of a heart.
It only has energy.
The energy to escape.
To make you miss the target.
And that is the secret to all great tragedies.
To serve your truth.
That the truth is your companion
To attain God's wisdom.
And to obtain the skull to honor it.

I always thought of this in terms of my hair.
That I felt an irrational need to grow it out...
And having grown it - the need was not irrational.
The urge is real.
And any real sense of unearthing your true
self worth is an eternal sense of favoring
everything you are.

There is no why.
There is no how.

Only beauty in the myth you created.
The myth that is you.

No matter which way you carve it out, you cannot afford the same air you breath
without first betraying your own truth.

Much like missing teeth.
You believe in tooth fairies coming
for the teeth you hid beneath your pillow.
Was it all for the fun of it.
Or was it not because a myth lives up to lie about some fairy doing its job.

Everything computes anew.
It just never quite stops.
Nor does the madness quiet.

Between your prayers and compiling a collection of rocks. There are plenty to choose from.

Only myths become something worth your eternal self.

The myth that you became something as supernatural as in comic book heroes.

Just use your inner voice.
To sing why or to choose how.
The causes may seem endless.
But they are not!

If you are not out there in the real world...
Why not tell them it is god that sent you?

They would look at you like you're mad.

And would that not be an accomplishment worth sharing.

Although you can't but want too. 

The Winnipeg Jets 2021

We are embarking on a special special year heading into the Jets this coming season. Why. Not because we haven't seen them in person the past 2 years. Not because Scheifele is public enemy in Montreal and we will defend his honor.

It's because the Jets have found it's place on a mantel. The ground work that has been made along side the length of time it has taken... fast forward to present... the past ten years. Now our Jets are heading at length to reach new successes they haven't seen before.

Eventually the ultimate goal is the holy grail which will be reality. But we will be witness into celebrating an era where the Jets are the benchmark for competitive hockey. It is a ground breaking program that's about to bust out. The Jets have the pieces.

They have the development program. They have the depth in drafting. It is all about to come full circle. The first ten years were blind to what is about to make happen. That is Jets hockey. I've followed this team through its model and I know wtf I'm talking about.

Historically our best season was when we finished 2nd overall in the standings should have finished 1st eventually beating the President trophy winners in playoffs and making it to the final four. What I'm implying is different. We are going go to raise hell.

And from this period onward it's about who can keep up. Cheveldayoff and company have created a competitive dynamic which will emulate everything we accomplished in the WHA era when the Jets established themselves. This coming season is about the Jets taking numbers 👀.

Not about trying to prove anything. The devil is in the details. Vancouver Deadmonton Calgary have nothing on us in the West. The rest of Eastern Canadian teams can clean up after their own vomit. It's on folks.

I've been waiting ten years to write ✍ this...

The renunciation of silence

 This beautiful silence -

The code breaks.
I fill it.
Fill it with my touch...
A touch of the universe,
From which my hands are tied.
I excuse every feeling I've ever had.
With the experience of true love.
My love of language.
My freedom of thought.
My dedication through Christ.
I am fast enough for the finish line.
But slow enough for the time I took
to get there.
That elusive 'finish'
When will it ever end.
So much the time it takes to become something.
Something -
of an artform.
The noise.
That noise it dwindles.
From your first sense of touch.
To the madness of my personal bewilderment.
Like ABBA to my ears.
Where my birth address is still unknown.
But that from my mother's womb.
In a eternity of stars for which she gave me with.
My real maker's.
In gods holy grail.
My mother and father's unity.
I am here for that very reason.

The psychology of nothing

 There is nothing special

About all the names
Because only I can feel them.
Something about all the names.
Like everything you have ever heard
Is like a stream of consciousness.
Flooding high inside of you.
From each corner of my heart.
Once all your insecurities are devoured
At an early stage.
So you can't help but wonder
What all the names have done.
Where have they gone too.
How do you retain from it.
Who makes you feel free.
And why does it take longer getting to that special destination....
might feelings be characteristized as survival.
As if survival were done but only
to feel.
Feeling is survival...
Much like Aristophanes.

In the Hostility of commandments lost

 I'm sitting here.

Hidden inside the pit of my stomach.
There is a foreign substance that feels.
It feels.
Like there is a magic to me.
All my own.
Where the roots of my life are born.
And burst through the cracks
Of a hundred if not hundreds of years.
I love that feeling I get.
Without days of self betrayal.
Or manic depressive episodes...
me on the inside.
I internalize everything I experience.
To what end should I surmise.
A much greater expectation of saving it all.
My private eyes.
If you are to fall in love...
Let it be with the sound of hope in my voice.
And this powerful romance...
romance of words.

The ask

Is the search for truth an ultimate motivating factor per se in the pure motivation to satisfy craving of a cerebral nature. Is truth only about coming from a place of acting. Something desirable and uninhibited.

I don't know what it is about me. I just feel it. I see myself as a good person yet somehow I forget. It is nothing to do with my character but probably because of an unconscious factor that I need to overcome. That this kind of self awereness I have. The one thing that dictates my sense of self. It is a matter of self love I lack. Where I value what I have and how I appreciate things in life are secondary to what I do that reinforces my internal sense of self. In my mind. Positive reinforcement is hard. Defenses come up. Together, positive reinforcement with defense mechanisms are hard wired in the brain. Positive reinforcement is something I attribute to outside forces. I think. It means we all need validation. Defense mechanisms on the other hand are addictive to killing pain. This is my personal space where in place of my insecurity my pain threshold is higher or lower which allows me to tolerate what happens based on the experience. 

So as I blend all this common sense together. In evaluating life. Is it plausible I feel empty. 

The answer is no.

In taking self inventory on this mental exercise? The conclusion I draw is no. This is not a rhetorical answer because the question I plotted in evaluating the manner I think about these things. 

I am a good person with self doubts. We all have this circuitry possessed within us. (Why I posed this.) Is because I feel how anonymous I am in real life not knowing what I bring to the table. And that's where I feel a lack of self knowledge. So, I believe in a grade 1 predicament we are all in once you face the reality of such a revelation.

Self knowledge is Socratic philosophy and the most important deliberation of your entire life. When it ends and where it begins.

Freudian perspective

(Let's relate this to a painting... we will get back to this conclusively.) If you believe in Freud you will care to infer from it. I think the quote adopts a cetain projection of what we are inhibitively speaking. You might struggle with interpretation of it but my belief is that Freud says: the subconscious transfers our own minds as an observer looks at a beautiful painting, abstract or creative... it is a piece of art that you are subjective too. That same piece of art doesn't know it is being appreciated nor appraised through your minds eye. It is a cerebral experience through yourself as an observer. You have feelings proportional to what that experience dictates.

What I am saying is our subjective reality attaches meaning to all things relative to our experience at the same moment your subconscious is processing data.

That defines expeirence in the real world.

Your observations and your inhibitions relate to something beyond control. 

However, whether of another person or not you speak to that object in your  subconscious. And this also translates back to you independent of virtue. You connect with that picture I said earlier as is a painting.

Our dispositions are all various positions from which we meet as a product of yourself. Our own image can never de displaced.

memory in action

I feel I am a hungry actor. I don't need to be dangerous. I am interesting enough.

Acting as in memory is having a conversation but with yourself. Only it is a silent observation in your own mind. Until you retrieve the information to project its processing. Its effectiveness is a remedial representation of facts occurring though subject's in real time.

Truth & Abandonment

 When I die; does anyone else die with me.

Living and breathing ...
Where it feels like home.
If my vision ever fails me,
It will be in equanimity.
I won't go to Vancouver or be told to.
Neither will I venture to Toronto because I should.
I'm in Winnipeg.
Because it's where I belong.
Not the land of milk and honey.
But the ruins of a private concern.
This is every corner of my polygon.
My mind in every impregnated thought.
A sensitive type of indemnity.

Life and its timely definition

 “Life is to be lived, not controlled; and humanity is won by continuing to play in face of certain defeat.” - Ellison

Starvation in god

 Even if it is God and only God do believe in fantasy. 

Marco Almeida ©2021

The breath of brevity

 The stinging in my eyes are that which travel through a smoke filled air as contagious a bead of sweat which slide about into your orbitals. 

You squint as you fail to see what lay ahead.
So you rely upon your psychic sensibility,
taking you where you've never truly before been.
It so happens there is no way out.
Yet this does fail to alarm you.
You are unafraid of it...
Of what can be.
So you seat yourself next to the nostalgia.

The dilettante

Being patient comes at the opposite of out waiting your own power. 

So why ask not why.

Your very existence.
It comes in assuming the position of guilt.
Whereas guilt is a man-made curse.
So selfless the act.
That your very courage depends on it.
Whereas the ability to be seen as a supernatural is the same ability to being as raw as you are.
For as deep as the eye can see...
In this inimitable force.
Your role in the circus of nature's most natural course.

The power of why

 I see a viable alternative or unknown type of variable being a common denominator. I am speaking to the nature of morality decoded. Morality is undoubtedly our ultimate characteristic infallibly human. Its alternative is linking the nature of morality without which immorality deviates from the human condition of which we are prisoner. So if we are incumbent on this aspect of life, which in order to survive means we are in search of what is moral vs what isn't there has to be a modality involved to displace in ourselves what would be immoral. 

To present how the nature of morality is decoded (as mentioned earlier) morality happens to be central into how we identify ourselves as a person with various degrees of intrinsic 1- value  2- experience 3- worth etc. 

Against all odds the most common denominator weren't the norm in association to morality if and only if behavior can be modified. I am stating there is a clear association into morality should evidence suggest behavior can be modified. I am suggesting all our behavior is geared toward acting as agents of change.

Modified behavior depending on factors of altruism as the main predicate in favor of morality, should in turn postulate that modified behavior relative to the human condition relates back. Reciprocity vs human evolutionary thinking.

The mirror mirror on the wall as we've represented it herein resulting in reverse psychology. Hold up a mirror to equalize behavior.

If you are in search of morality in every sense of the word it is the height of human observation and right on cue with the terms and conditions of satirical philosophy. For example.... examining western world psychology we have an experimental phase of thought whereas political campaigns sush as the USA use a canned heat approach to slight rivals of opposition politcal parties. 

Hitherto we also can manipulate everything in light of what state we are in based on the mother of all thought, questioning what is creation (theologically). Which is the same field of knowledge or what we seek as knowledge.  All of it is therefore ontological.

Rebellious equilibrium

 

At the core of an actors acting ability is it the courage to maintain a dialogue between being decisive at making choices or can making choices result in being decisive. How does the brain interpret what is happening vs what needs to happen. The ultimate question is what will the character want that drives the intent behind ones inhibition to do so.

The inner dimesnions of an actor

Coping mechanisms vs real action

Your aim as an actor should not be seen as an actor whose ability would be to show off effective coping mechanisms. That is not what people want to see. Let the character play you.

What are you thinking while you're acting is forming an ontological point of view. We use it in practice as we participate as sentient beings in everyday life. The usefulness and structure of language combines this ontology and we call it acting.

Truth Traveller

 

Acting is channeling a medium without the observation of your inner cynic... what exists between the relationship of both (being impulsive being neurotic) and eliminating the need to both (being seen being validated.) In return your reactions mean nothing to the abstract audience but everything from your outer critic emerge as a revelation to the moment.

My test of faith departed

We care about religion. The same way we espouse contradictory aims in real life. Therefore, this speaks to enlightenment. Philosophical interpretation bestows upon us all ritualistic type of bond. We all search for truth tying together a deontological perspective. Both duty and obligation become the same core our beliefs stem from - from its inception to the day... we are learning to walk. In other words we grow into a belief each programmed differently. The end game we all want the search for truth to guide us in that quest. We begin and end but it's an unknown variable. Constant is it's all a blur.

Kiss to kiss

 I've been around the sun many many moons and in saying this it reminds me of many many things. The duplicity of myself throughout time brings me to a realization. That no matter how much I've changed it doesn't mean I've abandoned the past. It is everything I've come to accomplish reflects to those that wanted what's best for me in my life. I am a greater person because of it. I am better able to make it my future. My ability to create what I want transcends all this. I think that makes sense to me.

The Renaissance man

 I'll give you one corner, if you can't come up with the other three don't talk to me anymore. - Confucius

The legendary Prairie God Dale Hawerchuk

 

The obituary

 What is more important in promoting truth.

Consider the following:

Is the search for questions if related to knowledge and transferable more or less important than the search for answers if related to the unknown and infinite.

Indecipherable.

Now consider the remodled thesis:

Is the search for questions as it relates to knowledge transferable hence more or less important than the search for answers relating to the unknown infinite universe.

The search for answers vs questions aligns us with narrative to a story however variable... how do we know anything? How is it can we not know!

My belief in perception as a viewer observes its blank slate of stone brings about an indecipherable sense. Where you meet something through the mind with what is indecipherable as you process what paradox brought you there. Then the language on a tablet emerges into its oneness just as nature intended.

What is acting...

 I want to keep this as simple and to the point.

What is acting...

I am asking this based on a personal journey of mine.

It is ultimately the question I face myself with that speaks to no true definitive answer.

It is to no fault of my own. I embarked on the birth of this question the same time I thought about pursuing acting as a medium. A trade. A profession.

But never once have I found the enlightenment of what is acting.

Acting to me has been a belief. A renewal. An expression of faith in what I believe can be real.

It is a search for truth in my desire to create art but more so to answer question in my idea of them.

I have come a long way in terms of proving that answer is relevant provided the question 'what is acting' isn't unanswerable. I don't want a discussion of sort that compares to a dog chasing its own tail or a chicken running with its head cut of or a pin the tail on the donkey.

This question if at all answerable deserves one.

I have traveled this far...

Do not expend unnecessary energy unwisely inconspicuous to your true true character. 

My neuroses in nature

 Let nature do its work...

Let nature take its course.

How to take care of nature is a reflection of you onto itself.

the art of living

 If living were an art.

I would master being a warrior.
A warrior of the mind.
Before a warrior of the soul.
There in that blind spot
Where everything else happens.
Where only you can't see it.
Uncovering the guilt...
In being possessed by something greater
Than my fear of god.
A feeling of peace over anxiety arises.
That already I know...
Before I meet my maker
I will not think twice.
Counting each time I blink
As if fate by design,
My inner divine dynamic is alive.
Alive as a sleeping giant of greater sense and sensiblity...
My mothers warm touch.
Where each day the sun beams
different light.
The sun appears to me differently
And heals me.
There is mystery in the fire.