I have never seen myself as indifferent in my behavior.
The truth of the matter seems less daring to me.
When I see how it is my therapist treats me, my whole world has unravelled since that time we had first met.
These remarks are all evidence of my own relapse in judgment, that in terms of my change throughout these years is for no lack of effort.
My weight has changed along with my body shape and how I feel about myself now is result of hammering out all that needed attention.
The trouble with assessing this parody of myself (or my greater good) is not in being overtly critical of myself which can only lead to self blame and it is not how I want this narrative itself develop.
However, my world falls apart. There are those that think I should seek professional help is somehow more forceful then my ability to change so they (conveniently) take me for granted.
I am not a bad human being; and an even better person.
I am not a criminal even though there are complete assholes out there that do.
I am just me.
That is enough.
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