"I put all my genius into my life; I put only my talent into my works." - Oscar Wilde
I wonder to myself if I will find the shadow of my discontent in an SOS parodied in the mind.
It is a good perspective to live by knowing if you meet someone that equals you to it. I suppose the difference lay in knowing the competitor you are asunder too. My point is am I the one competing against myself, the second part to this answer should always be a resounding no.
It also hurts if someone you thought would rise to the occasion fails to be complicit. So therein lay the secret.
Note: "complicit" is the correct adjective I want to use there. It has a purpose because you are wanting something from someone and risking that you don't get it in return. If that person does not understand your strategy and botches it then you are always left wondering why or how come.
Another thing to seriously consider is are you an absolutist or a moralist. That line is critical to distinguish.
A moralist can also be an absolutist when wanting something but does not get it. Therefore it involves an ethical amount of reasoning. It is a testing ground for your well being and resolve.
I am at present going through similar situation where I have high level of sensitivity and awareness. I wonder now if it is my fault. Am I blaming myself for it or did I hurt myself in the process not rising to her expectation.
I feel like I am the victim. The question is am I justified in doing so,
I almost fail at wondering what happened to unconditional comfort over my own personal dissatisfaction at living.
Neither should either of those things (unconditional comfort vs. personal dissatisfaction) be the norm typical of caused misfortune or in that case our role playing as victims associated to love and pain.
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