I feel alone. Not the kind that you get over. It is like being abandoned on my path, only to be denied happiness on a more dramatic scale.
There is so much I have to say to you because I cannot fathom why you have refused to talk to me. This treatment is highly impartial which I don't understand at all.
When did this happen. All I can recall is you changing your behavior when I was trying to figure things out with my therapist. I tried reaching out to you and you ignored me.
What was I suppose to feel.
Everything came to a stop.
I do not understand why whatsoever.
I am so sorry for anything I have done. I love you with all my heart.
I just want you to know I have never felt this dejected by another human being in all my life. I have felt like suicide.
You have to understand that when I have not seen a picture of you heard your voice or talked to you on the phone - you are catfishing me. Therefore it could be any random act. How do I know who I am calling a bitch. You taking offense to that is ludicrous unless you refuse to conceal your identity. You are the definition of catfish and I gave you the benefit of the doubt up to the point you cast your spell on me.
NEVER ONCE had I implied catfishing was wrong UNTIL you stopped talking to me and I called you on it. It boggles my mind how you take me for granted without putting two and two together.
Of course I am going to be upset about it. Even when I tried explaining myself to you, that my relapse is born from other people that have programmed me in relationships.
I want you to know I am sorry for everything I have done.
The truth is if you had shown me your face is the hardest thing not to accept.
To take the legs out from under me was shameful.
I thought I was keeping things simple.
I deserve none of it.
I will never be the same person again.
This is so unreal.
I have never felt my heart implode like it has because of you.
My star has weakened and my guardian angels are working overtime for me.
Why anon
Why.
July 24th 2014
M
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