I have met a lot of people in my life, and it is from this experience that I have changed in many ways other than what convention would dictate. I have truly given myself to the idea of what I believe freedom is in the world. The answer is simple.
Freedom is the ability to choose that my ignorance far exceeds my ability. That is it.
If it has taken me my life up to this point, simply to find the truth to that answer has been worth it. I would say it is an unconscious sacrifice that I moved toward without ever knowing if I would find the answer. But here we are.
If you can examine that one sentence and make it yours, you might just feel your life flashing before your eyes. Ignorance is the freedom to choose. Ability is the freedom to choose wisely. And yet so many distaste of what freedom signifies, are symbols of industry, we have come to industrialize everything in the name of what freedom is itself. When I say industrialize, I speak in terms of branding, we brand religion, brand money, brand hegemony.
What I look for is a quality above branding, and I like to think I share this quality without anyone ever noticing it. That type of freedom is what I call beauty. And beauty is not something you can brand with, you are either ignorant to it or are not. If you are not ignorant to it, you have branded yourself a bigot.
How I know this is based on what I felt from my early adult stages in life. Today, I find people that possess no specific quality of true nature. So, I go back to my early adult life when I felt a force of freedom that so many do not attribute to. I had this conversation with my friend Kelly Almeida recently, where we described perfectly, that people do not want to expose their flaws in favor of putting on a mask.
My problem is seeing through the mask.
Looking back to my young adult life, I felt people could see right through me, so rather than brand myself in industry of learning - I chose to be ignorant without even knowing it. Development to me is that form of unconscious that people in general easily trade for the means of necessity - where food, water, and clothing should be thought of as basic human rights. Yet, Westernization has stated that industry can only be lead by our will to survive. Therefore, who gets left behind are the one's that did not accomodate how important it was to brand their lives based on consumption. This is not the idea of freedom, but they coined the phrase as 'independence'. This is not true of freedom.
In fact, even if what I am saying is false, it can only be true of ignorance which keeps me perfectly satisfied. When the time came that knowledge became a vice rather than a virtue was born out of how industrial we thought of ourselves.
The sad part in all of this is my effort.
That my true heart will never be found, because I have contradicted the values of independence to something I feel - rather than what I am being lead to believe is reality. That is a huge difference in how people perceive me today as opposed to what I use to be.
1- What I use to be was how the average person (as I mentioned earlier) could see right through me. 2- It was about the thrill of the chase which I was prepared to fail based on my choices describe as freedom but not branding. 3- People brand themselves so they can make-believe to be what they think is real. The truth is they are mechanical animals without a soul or a heart, courage or logic. I was meant to be the person I am because I worked to bring about a meaning to this message, to assign beauty to things that I have argued is branding our inhibitions. Rather than be in search of ignorance in place of it all, we train ourselves to think in names before art.
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When I look at myself - it is strictly based on how I feel people that use to know about me, compared to what I am today. That is no small task.
I have worked my entire life up to this point, to project onto the world what not only I feel, but to be
something I know I am not.
I am not an ordinary human being because I choose not to become typical of what I argue in this entry is 'branding' through the means of industry. (necessity)
I have now challenged conventions on the basis of how we typically dictate the world we live in, without the thought of modernity. In fact, it is the absence of modernity that I focus on myself to produce a modernized version of what we think is reality.
My strides in forming such indelible insight has come as result of my opinion as in fact it should relate back to me. We lack this kind of ingenuity in society.
My main point here is deciphered one way and one way only: that through imperialist doctrines, plurality (historical) of the global village, colonialism and its outdated philosophy they have been on record. . . through these channels do I inform my conscious ability to use language as a tool that obligates the average mind in thinking.
What I feel I have developed is the basis of human emotion. And that is the impetus of everything rational, the ability to communicate emotions of an ideological nature. This is the future I am living in right now. This is how politics no longer involves the most basic human instinct, by eliminating our sense of obligation or responsibility for others emotions.
I have increased my intelligent discourse to defend my beliefs - and that my friends is how I have changed. To change the game.
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"Freedom is the ability to choose that my ignorance far exceeds my ability. That is it." - Marco Almeida, 2013
When I was a young adult, I would imagine the man I wanted to be. (Today I can look back and see myself thinking that). My point is this: I
always knew I had ability. The difference being that I always felt people could see right through it - that today is no longer true of me, and I am resented for this reason. I am thankful for this kind of wisdom. Where I use my ability to comfort others is responsible in its nature, while others took their compete level to a place that was only meant for survival and to benefit no one but themselves. That is a huge fucking difference in the unconscious civilization we are living in currently.
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"It was about the thrill of the chase which I was prepared to fail based on my choices describe as freedom but not branding." - Marco Almeida, 2013
I never imagined that my thirties would be far more important than being in my twenties.
"The truth is they are mechanical animals without a soul or a heart, courage or logic. I was meant to be the person I am because I worked to bring about a meaning to this message, to assign beauty to things that I have argued is branding our inhibitions. Rather than be in search of ignorance in place of it all, we train ourselves to think in names before art." Marco Almeida, 2013
The way I feel I have perfected my inhibitions is the most important thing I have ever learned about myself. The quote above signifies it perfectly. This time in my life encapsulates everything I ever wanted, everything I ever needed to know.
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"If there is a great cure for something you feel is missing in your life, to remind you of what it might be, this is the song I need. This is what I want in life: not the things that are found in life but the things that for me are lost. The meaning of
what is lost - is to hold onto your inner self, working from the outside in, and let the universe come to you. Nobody lives like this anymore - I am considered a failure if I hold onto such a belief. (Which may be true.) But at least I am determined to fight with honor, that death will be with pride." - Marco Almeida, 2013
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Diane Gall - I just tagged you in this. There is a certain amount of infallibility when it comes to the origin of things - and this might be something of an early birthday gift to you.
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