sense of purpose

Sometimes people are bitch-niggaz--and make you feel guilty about making
your own decisions.
Its like their playing on emotions instead of getting
down to business. You don't want to be in that class because
you don't want
to be like every other flake-ass actor.

Sometimes I don't
know why I feel mad about something....but its so often because I'm
playing
into other peoples plans instead of my own. I can totally see how you are
frustrated about the bullshit.
All I can say is that your name is first, and
I will try to make this film benefit you any way I can.
And not Onalee,Actra,
the Film Police,or anyone else can do shit about that.

And
dude...I'm so exited to show you what I have now...about 250 new little edits
and adjustments, fancy fade-in
effects on the names...and some newly handled
sound effects.

Mark

The vulagarity of disposition

In the reality of time in education on the Internet.
The greatest of all things are typical of language.
The Internet is a great tool of resource.
For learning.
And I have yet to make the decision
if vulgar use of language translates as well?
In univeristy the vulgar use of language is not accepted.
The reason for all things that sense vulgarity purposely reveals.
That reason is what desire happens most of all!
It is reason that is the cause of my senses.
I desire nothing that reveals my vulgarity.

The elitist model of converging self identity - vanity - and culture

I can only limit myself to extreme levels of thought.

thanks for dropping in. . . I love the indie vibe I get from this movie.

A couple of notes:
The progression of time you use the
purp's. That's a good strategy to follow. It suggests that the
priest is entering another world. To the audience the dimension of a blues
bar with the band playing is excellent progression of time or continuity of
action. The images I get are of an audience seeing a different side of
what the priest is like as a person. Which I get the idea of. What
else is good is the footage you have mixed with the music. Everything
should click through the editing, if only pieced together properly.
I think
leaving Onalee's clas is the best thing I have ever done. I do not intend
to miss it AT ALL.

I love the work you are producing.
I like the Intro A LOT.
Marco ~

I'm glad you see that as well. I'm thrilled about it. But I especially like the fact you know, how "defined" the character is in words. Its totally true. I can see the continuity of action like I hadn't understood it entirely from seeing the footage before. I mean I knew it was there, but every time I see it, the character has also changed! It's pretty awesome man.

~ Marco

I guess you already had the knowledge, about what I think of Onalee. The reason I left is because I felt her class was a fraud. I thank you again, for believing in my talent and wanting me to succeed. I honestly am gracious.

My expression of gratitude is more of appreciation that I've removed myself from her class.

I suppose the affiliations I can forget are no longer necessary. The film itself has actors from her class, like Terry, or Miss. Pudavick. I still regret Jeremy taking action as he did - with regard to working on this project using actra as a scapegoat. But in reality, Onalee is only banking on us not for our own success but because its money in her pocket! She essentially is running a support group without any real benefit to us as actors. I refused to pay her anything $$$. That is the truth.

I feel obliged to let you know where I stand for the sake and integrity of an myself as a person. The acting standpoint is of exhibiting truth and I feel none of the actors that participated have a sense of vision on this project. I want to ensure you of that, I make my every effort to avoid conflict without associating myself with the other Onalee-actors in the film. This means I do not wish to have my name be one of Onalee's students. She basically did nothing for me. And the rest of the actors in the film are not of my interest whatsoever.

I guess I needed to say this not only of myself, but for you to realize the delicate procedure you risk taking in plight of your movie. It is of my own will to determine why the project is important to me as an individual. You gave me this opportunity as a gift that I received and I'm simply reacting to it as such. However, my belief is straight-forward and enjoyed sharing my talent together with you admirably. Therefore, take this not as bittersweet but a token of value and respect that is completed in naming how I feel the things I do. Furthermore, its importance of a indie-movie makes me proud to be a part of.

In conclusion, what I want for you to understand is that freedom you need - I also wish to have rubber stamped on your film. It helps open my eyes to a whole new world of concept. Something, I feel Onalee took us for granted and does not justify my role played in your film. I identify with the film unique to the experience I presented - not because of Onalee - but for you as the filmmaker. I thought about telling you all of this, since you carry the artistic license and label it not mask it with honor. The other actors just do not understand that as a matter of fact. You deserve my loyal fellowship as the result. It should demonstrate me not as one that is one of those "Onalee-type's" which threatens how I view life in filming art. That is the true reason in my opinion I clearly direct my attention to separate exclusively from the group. It's meant to put you at an advantage and impacts the manner you would probably remember if not for my sense of purpose.

I enjoyed working for you. Its about being human as an actor to the experience.

Thanks Mark,

Marco

P.S. We are not Onalee's robots, and after I left I now realize before I was brainwashed what THE INTENT of an actor truly is. I forgave myself in time until it may have been too late for me to sense what she was doing actually put me at risk. The rest of the group might not be as lucky to realize this as I am today which is why I feel blessed. I'm thankful the more I come to realize how Onalee jeopardized my trust in her. I truly feel blessed because of the implication Onalee had in feeding our ego's. To reach an unattainable view of making dreams a reality, that the risk involving her students not differentiating between love of the art and myself as an artist.

Racketeering and Encroachment

There are several rockets that have been built.
Some were riskier then most others.
The titanic with wings of a feather.
Flying through the sky filled with machines.
Cutting through nature with a heart for imagining.
Through all this time,
I dream of it.
Monsters that don't exist.
But in time like structuring education,
I feel the need for approval.
Being approached by so very few -
of these things.
I seek refuge.
I am wiser.

just as I thought about - it

The reasoning behind my decision to disqualify my acting talent, before pursuing the field of the acting (film) industry? I think has a lot to do with my personal experience. The day I heard the words, you've "healed" a lot - Marco. This has something to do with my imminent delay of where I should have gone. After I decided to pull the plug on acting. It was the right time.

Today, Dr. Gordon advises me of being true to my emotions. I have yet to reconcile the differences I feel tied together with. The fact of the matter is. . . I told that I, "stick a fork" in acting.

It helps me to actually realize the potential of myself.

I suppose not that the idea is one of reality, but that I became something I truly needed to become. Meaning, this point in time. I haven't decided I'm a bad person because I quit doing something I grew fond of doing in the process of becoming an real actor.

However, something else in my thoughts surfaces.

I can trace why I believe the present is key to my future. What the future might bring originated some time ago. Today, the ideas I had to face in order to accurately define my image is much of what I need. Now I know the difference, of a person who can attribute and connect with myself love.

Mystery in the fire

There's a fire in the mystery. . .
that I'm dancing.
A dancing machine!
Or community of intellectuals?
Of the sorts this I wake,
as an old - old age.
That I no longer serve purpose.

frog

Never to make myself a target
because a true opinion is of a man
will not refuse
to answer.

The surface of regularity

You tell everyone they're great and attractive and smart and unique.

She only does that to because she likes to show herself as sincere towards others. Maybe we can learn from that.

Let's think about yourself for a second. And forget about everyone else. That's all I get from you there.

Hula-hoops causing

arrows are not triangles ;

they are squares

relegated to human forms.

Happiness is a pursuit of wisdom and intellectual morality

You are saying whenever you get hurt. You feel need for remorse. But human nature dictates, that if you react willingly to someone in need, you are doing a duty that is no more or less heroic then anyone else would do. But you imply the opposite

QUOTE
Maybe she doesn't like to see people hurt, and lies to keep people
happy

You deserve no sympathy. I interpret what you say as someone who doesn't want what's best for others. Only for yourself. And because that's common wide held belief in practice, you also believe you are in a group without morals if you ascribe to that group. But not everyone wants to be hurt, including yourself. Therefore, you play victim. If you don't get that, then you are a liar. I accuse you of heresy in that regard. YOU SAID SO YOURSELF. Aaron, I honestly do not like you. Or ceez. Or beaver. Or owen. That is not hurting you, but if I feel hurt then I do deserve empathy due to my actions. If I stand up to people like you, that is out of necessity and honor for what is good - but which is not demonstrated by the likes of people that you put at risk. Much like a sadist rather inflict pain instead of producing pleasure. You are a mask among everyone here and I see right through you. Someone who expresses pain, is like you said:

QUOTE
Maybe she doesn't like to see people hurt, and lies to keep people
happy.

YOU PUT WORDS IN BECKY'S MOUTH. IT IS YOU THAT - rather not experience getting hurt and you also rather deny someone of happiness if it means you get more of it than someone else should.

Vertical Horizons

Staying in the game. . .
I follow
shame - will - desire.
For tomato soup.
I exude with leaps and bounds.
A boost of confidence.

the pragmatism

This is the story of obsession.
A conscious experience.
One of guilt.
Association.
But not anyone. . .
fault.
Do not fault!
This analysis of an intellectual -
learning.
Perhaps the ability to date.
Regularly.
Feel positive about me.
Not long term relationships based on sex.
But learning about the other gender.
I've buried thoughts in words.
Now I see the truth.
You are not fat.
You relax here.
You are the blame of others misidentification.
You are the surface of responsibility to other -
comprehensive habits.
That deny you the comprehension.
I've strung together the form of identity crisis;
and lifted the mistake of rationalizing reason itself.
No longer a burden.
Here, I am.
The emotion of lust over matter.
The thought the desire of it is this I can feel.
I felt cared about for an instance of wanting:
to reveal my life.
But the advice you give me is nothing but your own
- doing.
Let me advise this'
government is not to respond as a community.
My own sense of community is not a government.
It is a necessity.
I the pragmatic an individual shooting targets from out of bounds.

Money Making Psyche of a Psychosis

I've recieved the news,
today.
The mediocrity of life.
Conscious thoughts
of feelings -
in my every effort.
What is free I will
become.
There is no trial -
that has stood over me.
To pass judgment.
But I will not settle
for less.
Than dreams.

The content consent of insecure psychological nature

The intent for the distribution of wealth is equal.
Anonymous:
We appreciate fielding you here on our soil.
However, we only say. . .
Work hard and you will be rewarded.
We say this not to spite you but to safeguard
our existence.
Believe this.
We would self destruct if we told you otherwise.
Our interests are to protect our resources
and saying, "Working hard will earn you rewards."
is our way of maintaining power without feeling guilty
about anything.
Thank you.

For the love of Sportsmanship

The more things change,
the more they stay the same.
I've audited.
I've learned.
I've rehearsed.
I've auditioned.
Not to hate myself.
But know myself.

Deficient Punk Anthems

How can you tell I'm not?
If I was.
Pragmatic!
What do you desire most without;
could I care to promise you.
I might be interested in my cause:
if you cared.

The pedestal vestibule

You do not have to like everyone you meet.
It is the fate of all people share as a model.
My aunt has died of cancer,
she is dead in body;
but alive in spirit.
I live on to succeed her.
My nature limits material possessions,
but nothing you own is my property.

Communism I am against.
But people who rather:
participate in the rat race
of competition, "Might we
say to you I am worthy -
more worthy than yourself -
to earn and to keep what
I have earned." - Mr. Immigrant.

Once the system turned into
a capitalist binary,
the machinery was only
meant to induce the power
struggle.

"Dear Mr. Immigrant,
In response to your letter
we understand how you view
history. We write to you
incapable of trusting us.
For this
our apologies. We are
sincerely sorry."

- And for that ends the
story.
- The immigrant was only told
what was meant.
- That he became the victim,
"Work hard, you'll get what
you most desire."
- The positions of power
and prestige were limited
through capital.
- Those with power controlled
all the wealth.
- The power struggle shaped
why property continues to grow
exponentially.
- That slave mentality of
government controlling all property
through tax, or communist ideology.

Becoming a victim

I have patience.
But I also have little.
Next to nothing.
Patience is a virtue.
On the subject of those
becoming victim.
To what I find is true or not?
The question!
That the answer is. . .
it is this:
what on earth do I narrate;
if I lost patience to do so.
Then patience is my only virtue.

Victim of assesment

"Abre a quem não bater à tua porta"

Se alguém bater um dia à tua porta

Se alguém bater um dia à tua porta,
Dizendo que é um emissário meu,
Não acredites, nem que seja eu;
Que o meu vaidoso orgulho não comporta
Bater sequer à porta irreal do céu.

Mas se, naturalmente, e sem ouvir
Alguém bater, fores a porta abrir
E encontrares alguém como que à espera
De ousar bater, medita um pouco. Esse era
Meu emissário e eu e o que comporta
O meu orgulho do que desespera.
Abre a quem não bater à tua porta

Fernando Pessoa

Cheap moccasin models

Allow me to fulfill what are you unhappy about?
Self fulfilling prophecies are like rubbing a lantern. . .
not a box of chocolates!
You never know what your going to get;
unless you rub the lantern.
The lantern produces colors in many forms.
Different images may appear.
Stringing together sounds and pictures.
Like on a movie screen.
That fear draws you near the suspense.
Animation of bunny slopes and popcorn in your lap.
When suddenly appears a thought.
Something only you could have imagined.
Becoming educated in matters such as this.

Excluded from happiness

Have you ever been excluded from it?
The kind of happiness you punish.
Where intent is only minimalist in patronizing!
Punk historians are full of propaganda,
these historians of hegemony.
That nearly wiped out the human race.
But;
listen to the sounds of how patronizing
it is.
To punish: the happiness I follow.
I lead myself here to believe.