I have largely learned that as a Canadian living in this country is attending to its own code of honor. (Whatever that is - is a mystery to the average citizen.) I come on facebook and challenge the idiom and linguistic element of people's subservience.
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I refuse to pretend to be something I am not. Those are the monsters I refer to, the one's that always looked to me by saying 'look there is that same guy trying really hard to be liked. . . that's cute. . . let's play along. . . he makes it easy.' The thing I made easy to most people, is so hard for them to do of themselves. When it came to being a free soul, those that knew me could hardly imitate it. Today, when they see the real version of me - they do not want to see the culprit is looking at them through the dark veiled mirror.
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I saw people at the #NHLJets game last night that I always knew had nothing to offer in terms of my past, and when I see them now they think they are better than me.
I am not going to be the guy that pleases other people anymore, I am not going to hold myself under such duress for people that think in terms of their own expectations - not now that I know better what honor means to me as a person.
I refuse to go through a threshold where all I see are people I always put above me, and now if they see me cannot handle the truth themselves.
I no longer care about what these monsters think.
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