Good Friday

 I feel that channeling my aggression or at the very most releasing my aggression is the root cause of being shallow. Yes, shallow. I do not find comfort when facing my enemies with an attempt at provocation. Using my masculinity in terms of my faith. That takes a courage to invert the depth of my shallowness and intercept it from governing my own world. I feel the need to judge and be judged is a shallow world view. It stems from aggression. The need or want for power which leaves you powerless against the enemy you espouse.

Aggression can be confused with violence. In thinking of violence turned inward, you no longer come from a place of what aggression you have. Instead, we look for peace in ourselves to own aggression rather than deviate from norms associated with detonating that aggression from fear to violence.

It can be argued violence is proven in a historical sense as a necessary evil.

I am arguing to be sure of oneself isn't about containing anger or aggression that once it's contained or turned inwardly that it eventually manifests and leads to violence. On the contrary. The acknowledgement of aggression leads you to the answers you probably would never bother to uncover if you did not meet your violent nature on.

Head to head, violence and aggression is a work of language in my own acceptance of it. It is not about rejection. Glorifying violence has been accounted for. What I am talking about is a shift in a spiritual revival.

I look at myself and how violence is my aggression turned inward. I am a sensitive individual and the fact of the matter is we are only human. We are built to take things personally but not meant to live in the vacuum it is.

My purpose for describing my feelings is self expression I find language releases my true inhibitions.

It's the very same reason I've used Facebook... to elicit my life experience.

To transfer the demons in my mind into a rational account of it so I can see those demons translate into ideas.

The main difference in the past 15years I've spent on Facebook has been an experiment in social science. I've written my ideas on Facebook in order to test those same ideas and see the result in real time. I've been painfully rejected on so many levels but my failures do not define me. Hurt from the violence coming from others mouths or actions has proven what I have done.

God is my savior. God being my personal hero. It's been worth finding and connecting with my core. Everything I have done is an extension of my past aggression toward the material world. I am a failure in the eyes of god.

We are all failures in the eyes of god only do few set out to find it.

The greatest hero of them all for all history is Jesus. I have not only learned this about myself I have taken the observers of my evolution to task on this.

This is all a cause of instruction.