"Marco Almeida is perfectly aware of how mentally deranged he is."

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June 17, 2014

"To model myself as Canadian in passing my genetic disposition to the world is a favor I do myself. 

I will not be subject to vermin, cocksure imbeciles. I will be the model to true Canadian royalty, which demons dispossesses. I have made it this far; I am not a reject to. 

Love each other equally, that is my message to myself. 

If you have the guts to even try to listen to your inner voice, and transmit it to the world around you, because you fought for it - then I applaud. If not, if not then I will not be made to suffer. 

We live in a world where you model selling out conviction for a prize mentality, yet you cause it as capital gains. Think about it people. Change it. Empower, implore, belonging, benefit all these things. I have come such a long way, and have trained my eye to seed the contempt of others, into fruit trees. Some go bad, others go good. There is no in between." Marco Almeida

Today I was having a conversation with someone. 

It made me relapse to the same moment in recent memory of people I know but no longer since associate myself with. The reasoning this entry quoted above^ is the result of not only being judged but having to subject my wits end to the same individuals that speak about me as mentally unstable.

Of course I am only human so it hurts to hear that about me being said by others and as word gets around.

I am not going to blame myself for my own mistreatment. I revisit this entry to those that use prejudice against my better judgment.

The irony is in the title: I am perfectly aware of how mentally deranged I am. 

I just wrote this and went with what I could find. Not my best piece of writing but there are some moments worth introspection.

I was really angered by how much of the shit end of the stick I was getting from assholes.

MA