There is a certain aspect about myself that I most enjoy. It is that in my adult life, what I experience relates directly toward my better inhibition.
This is a simple thing to qualify.
No matter how unapologetic a persons behavior is, I do not fail to take it personally. In fact, I welcome it.
What I mean is, I will go out of my way to justify the actions of others without considering myself first.
That if those actions are being made to somehow undermine me in the world, I have no control over. This can only explain how I feel. I know in my heart that if a person or persons do not care to engage with me, cannot be my own fault. The understanding involves one thing and one thing only: if I am misunderstood as an actor, or a writer, or my human element, that it makes me feel inferior (not 'sorry' for myself). Therefore, the masks people put on in an effort to convey themselves reflects their inability, as result to act shallowly and pass it off as judgment.
I now realize I have no say in how people judge for the same reason they become of it.
If a person decidedly makes a point in enabling their insecurity as if it is your own, reflects poorly on them. So why would I care to enable anyone before I enable - my true sense of self.
It is amazing to me, how I have been able to see the difference between a persons understanding and how they misuse logic to treat others without any recourse in reproach, rationally executed thought, or meaningful self instruction. This kind of self-regard is a rarity if you look for it, it is even rarer in disguise.
If you close your eyes to it, I can tell you, what I find is not ugly.
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Marco Almeida
"It is amazing to me, how I have been able to see the difference between a persons understanding and how they misuse logic to treat others without any recourse in reproach, rationally executed thought, or meaningful self instruction. This kind of self-regard is a rarity if you look for it, it is even rarer in disguise." -
^ What inspired that is my pristine self image, as opposed to the competitive allure so many in the world are consumed in. I am talking about how living in a vacuum lends itself to judgment toward the lives of others. My example of such experience in the unconscious abusive relationship, of people without equal moral consideration.
If someone deliberately does not carry an obligation re; my self-interest - why on earth should I even care. Think about it, what does 'a' or 'b' expect from the other, can you decipher how impromptu they bestow you. Do you ever feel an instance, where a person that does not find interest in you conveys the message. How can you possibly know, that the person that is antagonizing you - can have such a false sense of authority.
12y
I propose what people are ingenuine entail, are those such as Justin Beiber represents in the world. Think about how Beiber's lack of tolerance, translates from his fanbase that adore him. Does that not enable a false sense of behavior to elevate him or her to such status they desire.
If someone or something such as the idea of government do not care for me, why would I feel guilty about that.
12y
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