People constantly want to judge me for where I am at this point in my life, when so many of those easily pretend to know better than they aware. People I have now become aware of have no idea how they contribute to fallibility. I am suppose to believe people in their prejudicial nature without even entertaining a thought worth fighting for. I have become my own definition of what wisdom CREATES as opposed to its reward. People look at me and think I am crazy, for wanting to be a writer, for my philosophies, for being an actor - when I am allowed to be anything I am capable of! Instead, people customize their incredulities and pass it off as allowance. We live in such a superficial hypocritical world where these notions are commodity, and are accepted but never challeneged at some deeper level. That is what I have worked toward being recognized for in my ability. What I sacrificed 10 years of my life to be an actor, to work on myself as a talent for expressing myself in unheard of ways.
The more I am becoming self aware, the more I realize I made the right decisions in abating myself from my unsuspecting naïve youth, such as friends that never really were, became professionals dedicated to status quo.
I am glad I chose not to sell out my convictions for just another pretty face.
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