I've always believed in myself as a philosopher even if it means I haven't reached a status of a PhD. How can I. I can only attribute myself to what I have tried to accomplish in myself. That should be enough to exalt attention. I've scribed. And although much of it abstract not so much abnormal or perverse in recourse or the functionality of what can be seen as the norm. I feel I've subscribed to a certain degree of what is thinking with irregularity. The things I've come up with in terms of language.  This to me is invaluable.  It suits my personality and my style.

I think on these things... 

I think on these things because I am not better than a dish washer hoping he can make a difference in this life.

I feel I am a failed actor only because I haven't come into contact with role I connect with. It's probably even simpler than that. However, I won't hold.my breath in such a superficial world that is corporate film making.

By distancing myself from acting I have tried my best to that end.

As I reflect on what I've become, my eternal self, is to be a romantic and poetic in my personal space with philosophy in hand.  I may die never receiving any accolades or prestige but my grave stone.  And I'm perfectly okay with that. 

The disappointment I fear most.