My faith restored an undying faith

 Acting is a constant test of faith. Day in and day out. Undying faith.  Self reform and self renewal. MA2025 

The truth of my personal perfectionist attitude is a pursuit in ideology, it questions why fantasy is the best medicine for me psychologically. Because perfection in (my ad hoc) fantasy puts truth in the work. MA2025 

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Why do I feel like my life is just beginning. And not in a bad way.  I feel good about myself. Things are changing for me.

"Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work” - Aristotle. 

I haven't felt this kind of passion in my life before. It is like translating my life's journey into a whole other language.  I am learning in a way I  never have before.  I am putting faith in myself in a manner I can trust who I am for the better of life I become.  It is truly truly a multidimensional shift taking place inside of me, somehow?  I dont know how else to describe it.

I check off all the boxes as stated above, fast forwarding into now... I want to learn about how music works.  I have always carried a passion for music.  I finally picked up a guitar.  I have had dreams in real-time, about playing guitar.  And now it hits.  

I am also in a philosophical modality, where I've visibly created patterns in my thinking and I will never quit at - only because I am best able to articulate my ideas and given my language involved... philosophy has taken me years of practice.  I consider myself always always an infant at this level.  Making sure you keep hungry and eyes in focus.

This all ties into my very public display of how I care about my main objective: art.

I do believe in what I have to offer.  It's time.  It's time I become more invloved (within reason) that I want to be an actor/politician in principle. About That I do have a strong premonition to asunder.  That all in due measure, I would hope, raises a bar from where I ultimately give myself an opporutnity.  It's about force.

More importantly, I feel at peace. I am slave to god. This, I am at peace.  It is in the church I feel most at home. It grants me kathartic impunity.  It helps me I reach out to god.  It fills me with pride to be there.  To recall what I am thankful for.  Where my fear of god is meant and this fear of god is met with a calling.  More profound than just these words profess.  To serve my parents and honor them has been a gift.  To run on empty and not the vacuum society creates.  

I am a privileged person.  

I lead a privileged life.

It's time to give back.

Marco Almeida 2025