I sat for lunch with Father Sam today, the prominent Italian priest from Winnipeg who is dedicated his life to the cloth and served as a legend in this community.
I had an invaluable conversation with him and I thought to share it. Hopefully you find it useful reading from it.
These are my thoughts: that relate to what we spoke. I admitted (to him) I was struggling with my own depression and guilt with confessing my sins. He came through for me and this is what I learned from this encounter and how I took from it. ~
The moral of the following is immanent with what I confessed to Father Sam. I know it is a private thing. But I am a traditionalist, and even though I am a traditional member for conforming to the RC faith - it is a faith undying to my death.
I told Father Sam is how I felt consumed by my guilt for my sins. That I believe we are born into sin. Therefore, it is my belief (irreligious to me or not) that even if you are not of religious belief, you automatically fall into the same category. (e.g. That no one can escape morality.)
In conclusion to our meeting, Father Sam asked me if I would accept what he listened (in our talk) was my act in confession. I obliged.
He summoned me to accept: that I can be forgiven for my sins. In return to what he said I offered, "You mean do I repent. Yes, I do." I felt he caught me. No, not lying to him. Like he caught me in light of something far more than I was prepared for. And that was the end of our conversation.
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April 1st, 2026
(Thesis)
I am RC. I know, because I am a sinner I can only come to accept it. Personally, I know that we are all born into sin. My point is if you feel guilt knowing you are a sinner in itself, makes us perfectly normal about the way we feel. If I process signs of my own sin internally, is it something I absorb without thinking. (It means you have an awareness about sin, because sin lives in us all.) Therefore, my repentance is the next question. Am I worthy of being saved?
What I overcome is the result of forgiveness. My guilt (this awareness of guilt) is the root of all my personal sin. The point of my awareness is not to do as I think I'm entitled, (i.e. lead a life of sin) but I am benefiting from receiving forgiveness no matter my sin. When questioning something I will do, (first) I allow for forgiveness then (second) I act. This is awareness between sin opposite my own repentance. Forgiveness for the sin and repentance for the act. I have to understand I am a sinner that deserves forgiveness for this awareness. I have come to terms with my own ignorance, ignorance that played a factor, and ignorance that participated in blocking me from paying it forward.
The purpose is not to be absolved in sin. It is the repentance I have to be forgiven for the guilt I have over things I can't control. Therefore, I atone to being saved. No matter what anyone says: your morality is your greatest asset. What I achieve in life is my surrendering to god. That is the where my strength lives. I abide. I obey.
Kyrie Eleison
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This personal thesis statement is what came after I met with Father Sam (his excellency). We both agreed it was divine intervention that we were meant to have met today. The last time I had seen Father Sam was at Enzo Daniel papa Sergio's funeral.
- Marco
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