Maybe the hole in my heart
is much too heavy for my soul or maybe I'm bigger than that. All in all its a dilemma I'd wish on no one. It's an endless force of gravity. I want to reach higher for things but I just can't. Oddly I am at peace not at war with myself.When I told a friend of mine today that I don't accept if my intentions are "toyed" with on no uncertain terms, and they show their true colors. I am glad to find out in the end - they are nothing worth the time it took to get to know them. All I said: was that I refuse to be underestimated (paraphrased) and he didn't want to hear me say it. For whatever reason. Moral consideration is a two way street but it's not how everyone runs the race.
I would like to think my intentions are correct insofar I have a sensual lasting flavor that consent is real and not a participation medal.
- Marco
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The sexual revolution has nothing to show for it - at present the idea is that sex should be modeled as a weapon or rape culture.
- Marco
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What beauty transcends is not feeling those vibrations which inspire you to be among a band of vultures.
- Marco
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There is no policy in how people must treat each other is the best way to observe everything in life.
- Marco
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Imagination is the one weapon in the war against reality. - Jules de Gaultier
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How can anyone that posts anything on twitter claim they care about what you post if what they posted is unprovoked. No logic.
- Marco
"I am a majority share holder in my own right. To keep this short, I have an affinity to reason, I try not to give away too much of myself. It is a matter of principle, a matter of energy, a focus of my own legitimacy. Somewhere between thought I wonder where to go next but what might that answer be might it make me become." Marco Almeida Aug. 31, 2012
- Marco
Purpose is to live
your life as if nature
intended. To go in
the way which leads
you into a direction of bliss.
I trace signs only sure that they follow patterns.
And those patters are what is my memory.
In memory I begin to sing aloud.
(But only within the walls of my mind. . .)
As the echo of my voice echoes from the inside-out.
I am - casualty to everything I've ever dreamed,
it comes trough the sound,
if - in place of my personal thoughts.
It here,
I've decided not to talk about anything.
The Symbols.
All the Words.
Many things are these.
Imagine, this proclivity I've lost for thinking.
No one else can hear?
The sound of a voice if it were lost in time -
is more a promise to make memorable.
Memorable the voices we make -
without it, I don't know a greater way of putting things.
Like if my voice were meant to make a difference.
I rather feel fully the information you feed me.
Because when I take the voice from within (me).
That voice will never be forgot.
(end.)
I believe in singularity based thought (not group influenced) centers on language as philosophically driven, that my individual sense of justice follows. Sovereign thought is very much information. To detect dogmatic thinkers who are antithesis to maintain their own nihilist ideology. This takes tremendous intelligence.
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Marco
April 21st, 2026 °○●○•° You have to fight for what you believe in. That's a rule. A rule I measure others with as well. Most have no idea what it means. I would rather fight for my purpose than fall in line, which means never selling my own sense of purpose manipulatively is my point here. You talked about actors being truth tellers while you were in Winnipeg. My bet is no one in their own mind knew what you meant. (I know what it means to be in my personal space because truth must come from within.) Even when you tried to shut me down. But I also remember how I challenged your ideas in that seminar, and you had no idea what to respond. I will never play follow the leader. Nor allow it to influence my creativeness. I speak to awareness. I am of this idea that most people wish they had as truth tellers. My point is we can't be truth tellers without the private nature found in ourselves traveling across a universe only acting what is a forgery of itself. Most actors in the creative process have no sense for acting. It is what Johnny Depp says: people want to fall in line with what's in front of them. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to think of how inferior we are. Yet the instrument we experience as being in our bodies, if we could invent something entirely atune to thought, this is what trust looks like. Thinking of what people make you feel. If you have this psychic ability. You see things differently than they are. There is no process unless worth fighting for. That's the truth. Most actors are frauds. I would sooner be foolishly tempted by truth tellers than a passionless fraud of an artist. I will continue living it my way. °••○○○• Marco
Issuing claims that are interpreted as truth, aim to be cogently plausible, or what is coherently unproven CAN appear objectively true or objectively false as outcomes. Speaking as a philosopher myself, I know what the difference between contingency vs. probability as a means for using logic as language. If you can express thoughts using a language from which ideas produce true vs. false pretense, then this informs the senses as local. It means that dogmas as they are made through reasoning trace an illogical conclusion. This is a categorically imperative distinction. The debate should be asking: if norms in reality can be associated with AI but not be trusted as a source distinguishing our sensory experience. If sensory experience is exclusively designed for how language is structured, this distinction is made. Is there language that can not be coded as information? My point is: can AI generate language to mean something it intends as a lie in order it's saving itself. Can AI generate beliefs that factually are dogmas being learned, according to sensory experience.
I have ADHD and was clincally (not self-diagnosed). I have been diagnosed from my early 20s and I am now pushing into my 50s. The point I want to make is inferred from the bottom up processing of my adhd brain (which is true of how my brain functions).
I have an acute awareness of everything that most hardly even detect on a surface level. This makes me stand out even if it means that others judgement of me is false = label me to my detriment. It doesn't bother me and I am fine with it. I say this because my bottom up processing, (if I am accurately portraying it here,) is that in my experience favors bottom up processing as it works to an advantage most have no idea of. What I mean is people unaware of what my thinking entails. Therefore, by default puts what position others take as disadvantage or inferior to a situation I am involved. And because of this, they inversely shut out my position out of convenience, because they won't pursue my own way of thinking if it acts as beneficial. This is conditionally how my ADHD works.
I speak as a philosopher, because I have done philosophy for almost all my adult life.
I just hope what I am reporting makes sense to someone who has ADHD, sees.
- Marco
“The life of God and divine cognition may thus be spoken of as a disporting of love with itself; but this idea sinks into edification, and even into insipidity, if it lacks the seriousness, the suffering, the patience, and the labour of the negative. In itself that life is indeed untroubled equality and unity with itself, for which otherness and alienation, and the overcoming of this alienation, are not serious matters. But this in-itself is abstract universality, in which its nature, to be for itself, and therefore the self-movement of form, are left out of account. When the form is declared to be equal to the essence, it is therefore a misunderstanding to suppose that cognition can be content with the in-itself or essence, and dispense with the form—that the absolute principle or absolute intuition makes the development of the former or the exposition of the latter superfluous. Precisely because the form is as essential to the essence as the essence is to itself, the essence must not be grasped and expressed merely as essence, that is, as immediate substance or as pure self-intuition of the divine, but equally as form, and in the whole wealth of the developed form.”
— Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel
Phenomenology of Spirit, 1807
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If "in-itselfness" as Hegel puts it: is a condition for the esoteric mind (any philosopher), what this then illustrates is a lack of comprehension to the divine. = What Hegel is saying.
My point being - divinity of a philosopher's in-itselfness - happens if they claim divinity in words, through which our agreements are limited to the philosopher's "in-itselfness".
The negation for a philosopher's in-itselfness enhances meaning, because what is the philosopher's words are tested by means of interpretation. So if there is nothing to test or treat what is divine, how would we know what acts divine survives in time.
- Marco
I find exception to one rule as true based on what is training: whether it be
(1) focus on group experience or to the effect there is (2) an instructor to help lead my intent in learning/expectations/curiosity as promised.
This rule I follow (and I do mean 'judge') anyone else besides myself. If you are not in acting for the same purpose? = Which is to make another actor better than what the "me - myself - and I" - thought of ourselves before we made commitment in being vulnerable to others. Therefore, YOU HAVE NO BUSINESS IN ACTING NOR TO BE AN ACTOR.
If my experience is not elevated to a point I feel better about myself, personally. Acting classes are a purge of my true nature as an artist. I have seen exactly how instructors work and I tell them exactly the same thing, where my power as an artist has to be met. It doesn't matter who. My marks are clear to me.
I refuse to play ignorant when it comes to what this means, to be an actor.
- Marco
I have always kept close record, on those I trust, with a better belief than any judgment may provide. For every one person that I've never been told, that what matters is not what they think of me, but where those thoughts generated from.
- Marco
"The first thing you have to know is yourself. A man who knows himself can step outside himself and watch his own reactions like an observer." Adam Smith
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April 20th 2021
Disoriented made for malfunction, disaster, mastery and destruction. This might be the cause for a superior kind of impervious abduction, to which the oldest language known to man, were deleted from then replaced. We do not need to hear of the language, or take from it's known origins, because it did not exist. What happens when language is replaced, then, with only a figment of imagination were simple perfectly knowing what ideological signals gave a language its meaning. That to destroy any language is improbably next to impossible it provokes. Eloquence takes issue to any language worth pursuing a language.
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Glamour is the type of, if not a hi-jinx, limited to it's fear or insecurity. That terrible notion of group feeling - born out of necessity wearing a garbage bag.
Glamour, I never truly liked, or tried very hard given false impressions at the insatiability to resemble what it means to most. . . though in reality, 'glamour' is nothing but a cheapened sense of your vanity. It is the glamour that is on loan, as opposed to group feeling encountered.
And Ipod Nano. . . which tells me something. Why invest in an invention, when the whole point of Internet usage, is to download music for free. (Not because we want to pay for it.)
*gives mike a piggy back ride.
The world would be a far more diplomatic place if Obama gave out *free* piggy back's.
Take it from me Beckles!
i love when you call me Beckles. 
No beckles, it's you - it's because you make the world a better place. (Not an Obama thing.)
Clearly, an actor's life is an acquired area where growth may not come as freely to everyone, because acting should be easy.
Acting is a choiceless path, where there's no expiration date to your dreams. 1- Acting is a medium. 2- It is also a privilege. (It should be as impactful to the critic's eye.)
Acting truth can only be equal as exhibiting real life. This type of actor exists outside the box, as matter of principle. This actor shapes awareness as psychological a state. This actor asks how another actor's work affects their own.
This straightedge philosophy is rooted in how serious artist's approach their wisdom from within.
Wisdom rarely makes a difference but only unless actor's who don't achieve purpose as to knowing who they are. (If you don’t follow this pattern in process.) The cause is lost onto most.
- Marco
