It is aligning your thoughts that you originally held about yourself, (i.e. dogmas) until the day you realized nothing changes materially unless you start to think about those things to the effect what is objectively speaking (you - yourself) differently. Upon this, I have discovered what acts as a timeless quality. My point is the mirror was always there, until the moment I decided to look into it. You think about what affects you and why you are the way you think. The way you operate. The manner in which you felt others disappointed you, cared or not. Everything ends for what I approve of only to myself from then on. From my limitless potential. I feel curious about things everyday. What is new, and I find out more to my psychological self as putting it together. Therefore, I find out. I find out who I am each day. It is wonderful. MY nature is found in being what I want for myself out of life. It is a birth and a rebirth. All in one, into many things. Which is essentially the same pattern. You find continuity in your thoughts as independent from what you once believed society or the world dictated in you.
Thursday, April 30, 2026
Common sense models that are immaterial to nature
psychological certainty
So, to be psychologically empty or void of however in touch with reality a person may or may not be is a virtue or skill. What is it to disconnect. How do we equate nothing to what is meaning in and of itself. It's as if Krishnamurti can't be challenged. What is psychologically sound or what is 'being' for that matter.
I rarely consider myself to be at odds with what I believe Krishnamurti does in his approach to philosophical inquiry. But - I need to somewhat interject.
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the individual can only be insecure
Back to the Future
April 30th 2014
Fuck I have no idea what to say about myself because of it all.
I have lost so much during these years only trying to establish a vow of a self-respecting nature.
I look at the entries I have made and they tell me a lot - that the pain is real.
April 30th 2015
What does it mean to be afraid. Is it fear based logic or just some emotional distress of an absent cause. I call it conformity.
- Marco
Wednesday, April 29, 2026
The brain's circuitry
If you've ever held a dog as they took their last breath, you understand love in a way many never will.
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intoxicating defect (April 29th 2009)
As do - stop - then do - run, that is the kind of adrenaline one might find dense, so dense, it fills the air in a making of lighter weight to carry as if gravity reversed itself, only, to reduce our sense of less application of necessary force. That redundant, because, if force travelled upward without any kind of gravity would defy the laws of a physical nature, the laws of gravity would not allow for such disobedience. This provides a clear example, of the Newton provision to gravity, that all such force cannot travel upward without a return to it's original frame of conjecture.
The more you actually try to prove, perhaps, the less you get out of it - would have been a better result - known to such things without any weight to them. However, even insufficient information finds its way into an inscape, trapped, within the parade of gravitational pull, so, parades were given a general route to follow without really telling us anything about its purpose. Science, has no mystery attached to its easy, happy, frame of existence in life.
Upon so much one stands by the wooden leg, on a little, deviant, perhaps omission of greed, as completely left to search a time in place that that the place originated. Where does this keep, holding down, this weight of such fortunate circumstances, described, only as the perverse patronizing force of a cynical nature.
This body type of no particular birthstone, gave such, to the freedom of age upon years, counting not days or years, but only recurring thoughts of force given to him by nature.
First came the worst - as forming the heart in shape with love - came betrayal. It is something almost unavoidable, but to the best of my knowledge, bitter resentment does not contain which instead in fact rose out of inner peace, strength, sincerity, which can only amount to pleasure of something unknown to most anyone else.
Then perhaps time became a pill of enemy-like, proportions, that you consume in a small tedious dose, a prevention of the mind to wander back from there, that in time, you may recognize how these creatures concealed itself from you, only to reveal the mask they can no longer hide behind, that when they see you, you may know they are in fact - yes - in a small tedious dose, you may know they are in fact living a lie.
Though there is nothing that this time in the occupancy of a story, can measure the diameter of width over infinite whereabouts, such moments are made. As to refuse the laws of physics, to also may refuse, those that contaminate it.
Along side of moral ambiguity, is intellectual dishonesty. The flood against time is a result of perverse cynicism, so to speak, one combines the elements of random execution as if to examine nothing worth deciding, then replaces it without the ethics of reason, then dangerously crossing the joining crossroad. This is an extension of conscientious stupidity, for sincere ignorance, but what can only then be replaced, again with defying such anarchy to the same principle once it appears.
The weight of the world in a free falling choice, coincidental to, the defiance of laws or scientific explanation.
No longer has the insubordination of gravity, felt so mundane, as if to say take me from this long awaited return, as if to respond, you were never here that long from vacation, then what are you doing here, you forgot. The question was a matter of decency, yet, so few people act in truth, they rather pretend, the lie is always a better solution to the problem. Though even lies deserve proper solutions, which is how dignity is recovered from such greater things less than short-lived material in matter.
Though once, that same liar snuck in behind that buried shadow, quite content with being only half-witted, or clever depending on who you ask, throughout this time in the trial of no-return, so many disguised have made their living on it. To this end, it is to refuse going through the motions, where as they were - so many disguised - rest on their laurels.
In my time, I see a generation gone by which I refuse to acknowledge with any envy, only remorse, that those are they who are now happier going through the motions - it is there that they will stay, I seek refuge, from that one-upmanship, of ulterior motive, or grieving a reality, that represent so few.
Which is where my gravity has always been.
Truth as perception
This is what I call the skill in seeking truth (the root of finding wisdom) and what is perception to everything you observe (thinking).
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If you would try climbing a tree for the first time it is an attempt much similar to an impossible task inappropriate of living life's greatest adventure. The question is not to do with whether the adventure happens, but if the climb is worthwhile. That is man's greater dilemma.
- Marco
☆April 29th 2013☆
"An excellent man: he has no enemies, and none of his friends like him."
-- Oscar Wilde
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I find it hillarious people that do not care about me, go out of their way to show what it entails - as if I fail I know the difference.
Marco
April 29th 2014
Ultimate cop out: treating someone like they don't know more than you when clearly they do.
- Marco
Tuesday, April 28, 2026
April 28th 2025
I never plan on what I write. This is one of those "into the moment" type of things. . . banged it out in 20min but thought if you would care read it why not freely give it to an audience. I'm always experimenting with language because language is fascinating to me. Believe it or not - my entire thought process was to capture something that would make the reader not only think - but think emotionally. (Maybe even a tear shed. . .)
It is a challenge to write - but even more curious is the process I go through to get there. I feel at peace with my style and found the voice I use. It is an exercise in romanticism with a Canadian flare, I would only imagine.
The flight of my imagination has taken hold of me. This is my tribute to the readers.
This entry just happened because I came across a skunk dead on the road today. I felt hopeless inside. I felt for the animal even though the spark had clearly met its end and left its body. I just saw the carcass and it made me revolt, so I know it is a sign that makes me express it creatively as I try to. My attempt may be futile - but it is inspired nonetheless.
To be a writer - you MUST be your own worst critic, because you cannot imagine who your audience IS or MAY NOT BE - ever. If you start to write as a creative endeavor - the practice is that you write and write and write, until it becomes you. You are your own critic because you don't wait nor depend on getting rich quick by someone else "DISCOVERING YOU." That is all such total corporate bullshit.
I can write. That's all I know.
I write as though anonymously thinking no one will ever be reading what I have to say, but even if they do or they don't - the end result in my mind is the same. That is my secret.
Marco ~
Monday, April 28, 2025
Titled: The skunk
When I was ten.
I met a skunk.
This animal I connected with.
The skunk has since died.
I saw that same skunk today, again.
Saw the skunk lay dead on the road.
Splattered road kill.
And all that I could think.
Was how sad I was.
It made me sad to see my friend there on the road.
With the foul odor. . . emanating.
This unmistakable odor filled the air across that murder scene.
And as I drove by to see my friend, the dead animal . . .
spoke nothing. Never did anything to deserve this fate.
And as I reminisce. . .
like a magic bullet - invisible only to those who could not truly see.
I wish that they could have my special ability -
to see my skunk friend,
having given me the keys to life.
A life that I should feel empowered by my own volition.
My volition to make others see and not be seen. Is such a lie -
not the same rules followed by that game of hide-and-seek children play?
I find myself so utterly complete, now.
That the skunk is spreading that awful aroma to remind us how shallow we are.
The skunk was probably just trying to find its way to nowhere.
Because that is nature's destination - the place that has no real name
Something like the mother's womb. (The skunk never a name was given.)
But this game shows us how to defeat ourselves.
The hide-and-seek we look to find our way home without knowing,
where or how the direction takes us,
because that cold cold air passage that travels throughout time.
Is it real or what is not.
We find our way. . . out to the middle of nowhere.
To find the mother's womb.
Even that skunk had a name.
I just forgot to name it.
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Marco Almeida © 2025
-The Peg
April 28th 2021
I've been around the sun many many moons and in saying this it reminds me of many many things. The duplicity of myself throughout time brings me to a realization. That no matter how much I've changed it doesn't mean I've abandoned the past. It is everything I've come to accomplish reflects to those that wanted what's best for me in my life. I am a greater person because of it. I am better able to make it my future. My ability to create what I want transcends all this. I think that makes sense to me.
April 28th 2014
I question myself as an adult far worse than I did as a minor. Does this mean I won or lost.
April 28th 2013
I dedicate this to all men and women. Especially those that think they know I am NOT capable- how true my emotions can be disproving how critics shallow of their own actions actually are.
April 28th 2010
When it comes to confidence, perhaps the difference being adulated, recycled, there's a winner take all attitude, which some find most rewarding? I had only insufficient amount of time to recall from memory, It became a clear moment, that pedestal wore a crack in the design.
We are alone
This makes sense. Critics without the limits of their imaginative output need not apply.
The argument that "We can't be the only living entities" is incomplete. At best we are alone in universe. That is what we would rather deny.
There is nothing wrong with misrepresenting an argument that never had a chance. (i.e. 'we are not alone')
There is only a part of us that understands this.
Ultimately, true intelligence requires us to care for what we do have the capacity to change.
- Marco
My ADHD brain (by: Marco Almeida)
Dr Russel Berkeley
My ADHD brain (by Marco Almeida)
March 29th 2026
This makes total sense to me. I Will make this relatively brief. I have ADHD and I am clinically diagnosed (not self diagnosed). My point is that everything Dr. Barkley said is the truth. It's true on a purely empirical level strictly through observation of the ADHD brain and how it operates. The single most effective thing I have done for myself is to ascertain what objective my feelings (no matter how intense they are) I am experiencing. I tie the words objective together with feelings to equalize what is the source. To identify it and what triggers my emotion. Therefore ultimately the answer is to lead with intent. My intention is a powerful source for what my nature acts. And it is in this nature that the brain regulates itself impulsively. What I do need is to say here that depression affected me personally and to get through the stages in my life that involved identifying it. The cause of depression may be attributed to being unaware of how ADHD and my emotional self DID NOT regulate.
Conclusion:
With the proper tools and channels - I got though what seemed to be perilous in my advanced stages of ADHD. What I mean to say is that I have advanced ADHD in that I was able to see the causes that relate to my ADHD brain and how unique it is. I have taken anti depressants (to deal with depression) but it is not something I can say attributes to any sort of solution. Solutions come through making the effort to regulate and order to regulate is a recalibration of myself. Recalibration being I although use anti depressants (medication) is not a miracle drug. The cure is not in drugging yourself. The purpose of using medication is to help yourself use resources that help you learn what coping mechanisms you must apply.
Note: I have taken Concerta (ADHD specific drug) for a period of about 2yrs. It helps my attention/focus and aids in my regulation of behavior.
When you think of regulation = think of a new manner of which you employ your agency. Your behavior is a reflection. As a reflection of what you do is your mirror in the world. TO the world you do NOT have to mistake regulation for "hiding" your (ADHD from "the world"). I repeat: do not confuse regulation as some form of "hiding ADHD" so the world can't see it.
ADHD is a gift. Just always - always remember that.
- Marco 🍁
Monday, April 27, 2026
April 27th 2010
For those who are ignorant that practice it (. . .do not generally agree on anything -) so instead, they speak as though to ask if being unsuccessful is trademark of another persons failure. Once the skill to eliminate that from distinction is acquired through a mental process, you have found not only wisdom, but the greatest intent the will can imagine is infinite.
I Don't know this to be apriori to anything I've ever written, as important as this stated above.^ It is a critical test to intervene with decision making abilities. I detect it on a continual level of personal growth.
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More specifically, almost as foolishly, people actually rather not think but believe bigamy is their best resort.
hidden beneath the cost (April 27th 2010)
Why resort the silliness of sarcasm, to observation of the kind choice's are made, that follows your report of it.
In today's world, I've started my very own swear jar (business) credited $1mil dollars toward myself.
It is an ingenious strategic method, which will work out very nicely.
April 27th 2017
I am not angry enough about my past to admit it as time permits I do and so I act to dismiss myself out of it meaninglessly.
So it's safe to say my past is a sad fate of bewilderment. It has lead me here to nowhere. And yet I find satire in my sad criticism of it.
I fast-forward my presence of mind entirely. And I look right through my past as some form of trickery and deceit played on me.
- Marco
reinvention for edification
The book is out on me.
Sunday, April 26, 2026
trading weakness over fatality
What is it about this face. Not even I know. I am just happy to be who I am and what is mine (I openly think) about how awesome life can be. So I feel my way through things. "Feeling is" what should be, one's first principle in life. What do I mean by feeling? It means to be so sure of yourself as honesty is never a question of self doubt. That is not denial of a psychological fact. It is a feeling that bestows me, until I get to that place of courage in my sense own of it. Courage that is powerful in the way god made me.
Phillipians 2.3
April 26th 2018
Maybe the hole in my heart
Hidden meanings in the Heuristic self
When I told a friend of mine today that I don't accept if my intentions are "toyed" with on no uncertain terms, and they show their true colors. I am glad to find out in the end - they are nothing worth the time it took to get to know them. All I said: was that I refuse to be underestimated (paraphrased) and he didn't want to hear me say it. For whatever reason. Moral consideration is a two way street but it's not how everyone runs the race.
Saturday, April 25, 2026
April 25th 2014
I would like to think my intentions are correct insofar I have a sensual lasting flavor that consent is real and not a participation medal.
- Marco
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The sexual revolution has nothing to show for it - at present the idea is that sex should be modeled as a weapon or rape culture.
- Marco
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What beauty transcends is not feeling those vibrations which inspire you to be among a band of vultures.
- Marco
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There is no policy in how people must treat each other is the best way to observe everything in life.
- Marco
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Imagination is the one weapon in the war against reality. - Jules de Gaultier
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How can anyone that posts anything on twitter claim they care about what you post if what they posted is unprovoked. No logic.
- Marco
Ask me what I think. . .
"I am a majority share holder in my own right. To keep this short, I have an affinity to reason, I try not to give away too much of myself. It is a matter of principle, a matter of energy, a focus of my own legitimacy. Somewhere between thought I wonder where to go next but what might that answer be might it make me become." Marco Almeida Aug. 31, 2012
The Confucius (in me)
- Marco




