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Sunday, June 29, 2025
Deprivating no due circumstance
Praying myself an ego.
It is my heartfelt pleasure, that you need not seek with gratitude. In that I owe you my thanks.
Justice? You know what I think is justice. . . it's the world we forget,
then, realize how unpoetic the universe becomes without us knowing.
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Waiting in the line of fire
I am convinced that one day, people will know me - but not because I want to be known re; (you know the type, popularity contest, ego driven personalities). What this implies will be how it is to want something they can't have.
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So here I am.
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I was 18. My friend Michael Wynn was at Scandals.
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It was the first time I walked into a night club scene. Alanis Morisette, the Canadian Sensation at the time her album 'Jagged Little Pill' was blaring over the sound system. The environment was indefinite of me. There I was.
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It was the pause that I took when entering the establishment.
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Somehow I knew I would recall that exact movement in the form of my mind.
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I was with my friend Edgar Correia at the time. (I will get back to this later. . . )
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Years would pass.
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I am 36 this month.
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I remember that time like it was yesterday, where I felt empowered then as I do now.
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You would not think the above, from the first sentence to the description of a night scene encapsulates me. It is funny how honesty works, when you want it to come across as something incredible as it was - but the truth. It was exhilarating to me. I am still that same person - which is my point.
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There are very few people that remind me of those life-long experiences.
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It came without expectation: that the people I formed bonds with somehow failed me. When I use to hang out with my boys, and pretend the world was ours. Now those same guys are not around anymore.
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Except Micheal Wynn.
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I saw him days ago at the Bomber game with his family, where the party was, and it should be. What is different about Mike, is that he never forgot what those times mean, where if I found him in any kind of harm I would be the first to help.
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Edgar (a guy I mentioned earlier) was one of those guys. Then there is Scott Webster, Valter Rodrigues, Nelson Santos, Danny Bento - things I clearly never imagined. Other guys crossed themselves off the list, or never really were on it.
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The same feelings I have then, are what my moral of this entails. I am one of those guys where feelings mattered (even if they forget.) That is the definition of loyalty.
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There are people I know from back then, that would readily double cross the betterment of my cause in this narrative. I still would feel the same way - no matter that sense of betrayal as being taken for granted.
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When I mention nameless people, they are unknown variables - the kinds that stereotyped their way through life's ambitious tales. These are all men I refer to, the women I know all broke my heart so they too are nameless.
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The real kind of institution I described herein. That mind of better men. The kind that knew me but forgot about it. I do not see those in the past that would not care to celebrate.
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I just knew that someday I would go back there, like I am here now, and reveal the truth.
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I see it. They can barely.
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I have been searching for answers this weekend and this is the first entry I could find that made sense to me.
The past year to year-and-a-half have been less than memorable though it does not amount any one thing in particular other than knowing the difficulties I have managed.
I saw this group of Portuguese guys at the World Famous Palomino Club last night.
I guess I am ending all this by saying I am in search of something far greater. . .
June 29, 2013
MA
"There are simple things I want portrayed, that the main idea in this entry re; how little thinking it takes to truly co-exist in this world. Where friends that never took property of their relationships with me is fallible."
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Marco Almeida
"The real kind of institution I described herein. That mind of better men. The kind that knew me but forgot about it. I do not see those in the past that would not care to celebrate." (Marco Almeida 2013) -
This entry is strictly about how 1- feelings are a signature of a persons wherewithal 2- that this psychological footprint is embedded in time from people that either misuse, misapply, mistrust, or manipulate your core inhibitions. 3- That this sensitivity is as precious as the memory your friends have of you, but they suffer amnesia to it.
The result is what this entry is about, people cop out on your solitary imagination, where you thought that loyalty held a place in time and space, to inform you have an unbreakable type of bond to.
This is what the entry is about.
This is a hard thing to examine myself with. There are simple things I want portrayed, that the main idea in this entry re; how little thinking it takes to truly co-exist in this world. Where friends that never took property of their relationships with me is fallible. How sad it is they sell out to free enterprise.
The unspoken values of artifice in real time [& to avoid melodrama at all costs]
People pretend to be victimized or act offended when they are wrong. They may even act as an innocent bystandard based on their own inadequacies. In fact people make it such a habit: condition how well they can affront their political beliefs, use a much less candid form of thought, learning to manipulate their actions as justified. These observations are accentuated, when and only when you can transfer them as a manner of intent.
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You are capable of intefering with the same evil cause of others blatant misuse of logic. Coming back to political aspect of beliefs, Dogma is calculated in two ways: 1- the accuser use of their misinformed mind (i.e. dogma) to take a position which acts as unilateral. 2- In acting politically motivated, the accuser resorts to self defense as a means - thereby they are not formally engaged with their assailant. (e.g. politcally incorrect) Remember: relate these two points as I stated earlier "learning to manipulate their actions as justified." (Marco Almeida - Circa, 2013)
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The accused is supposed to believe no matter how politcally incorrect its accusers dogmatic thinking will prevail. The accuser plotting immunity, as if to implitcly deny the accused of their own basic sentiment.
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These tactics are used in the legal process of arraignment.^
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In its application, you can use this theory in order to debunk the misuse of entitlement.
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Here is some properties that pragmatically relate to my supposition re; dogmatic thinking
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You cannot act cool all of the time, and expect the world will not be able to see right through it.
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People will lie straight to your face, can be so skilled at it they disregard you not knowing any better.
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Not me: I hate it when people say sorry. Because that means they know what they did wrong but they still did it....
Me: What you want is their ability to surrender to the truth that what they did is wrong, where if they forgive themselves: re; forgiving themselves means they acknowledge your existence. (In most cases, they never really cared about you.)
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Not me: A person can only take so much.
Be careful you don't push a person over the edge of their limits and into the void of not giving a fuck.
Me: you are dead wrong. People are skilled especially on twitter to act offended as if victimized. Disagree 100%. The same type of awareness applies in the context I put it, now move it to real life scenarios. Same difference.
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Focus on being truthful and watch yourself (and your life) change infinitively.
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I love it how twitter executioners plot their indifference to you as if it means something and they get to eat cake over it.
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Kind of like validating your own shallowness. Fail. > Have you ever lost Respect you once held for a person in a matter of minutes.
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"Anarchy is politically methodical, those who argue otherwise have been drinking too much of that western liberalism Kool-Aid."
1- Anarchy is itself an ideology that needs to bridge the tangent of absolution in both circles re; liberal and western forces. 2- Anarchy itself is a political will and should act as an adversary to the constructs of ideologies used in governing. 3- Anarchy to work must be valued as an independent will, a kind of credibility linking diversity which is recognizable. 4- Anarchy is a tool that should be supported in unifying principles of western thought and its political freedom.
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I love being thought of as a traitor when the reality is they target a potential scapegoat for their own misgivings of things unrelated.
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Why is it that people trying to hang onto the most superficial reality they can think of, and pass off as your everyday normalized morality.
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Reality, metaphysical properties & its dynamic
There is a radical type of irony that takes in our most secret nature, it lives between two things.
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It is a matter to commonly relate abduction with hypotheticals. That those two things between both abduction and hypotheticals are pragmatically linked.
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The question now is, are you a corporate citizen or a global enitity. And if so, which one is your calling.
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This, you may find coming across existentialism factored into a psychological network of emotions. And that is what we call those emotions our 'feelings'.
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Nothing in life is normal.
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Only the way you think is normal. So, if you were to draw 'normal' what would it look like. Asked another way: what would normal sound like if you read it off a page. Asking another way still: how would normal be if you used language in written form.
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All these things appear to be questions of reality, however, they are not. Your Hegelian nature would not allow it. Therefore, what you aim for is always abstract. Your expression of those thoughts we call intellect.
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The wiring is that you refer to as memory.
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The chemistry also changes over time.
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It is the watch of your blind eye located in the sphere of your mind that all things are created.
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If you read any of this and did not feel enlightened - there is a problem.
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Everything stated in this narrative is a manual for it all.
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Return to the main premise of your present mental state.
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If you retained that abduction and hypotheticals are linked. Did you do that?
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Now read this over again. What happened.
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