important issues (April 19th 2009)

 Disoriented made for malfunction, disaster, mastery and destruction. This might be the cause for a superior kind of impervious abduction, to which the oldest language known to man, were deleted from then replaced. We do not need to hear of the language, or take from it's known origins, because it did not exist. What happens when language is replaced, then, with only a figment of imagination were simple perfectly knowing what ideological signals gave a language its meaning. That to destroy any language is improbably next to impossible it provokes. Eloquence takes issue to any language worth pursuing a language.

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^There are those that act anonymously, as authors, yet fewer are there that freely donate such personage, as in itself. Language can hold still its meaning, true or false, it rests on almost nothing to trace back upon.

I am speaking that that language cannot subvert out of knowledge.

April 19th 2010 (Glamour - a metaphor for group feeling)

 Glamour is the type of, if not a hi-jinx, limited to it's fear or insecurity. That terrible notion of group feeling - born out of necessity wearing a garbage bag.

Glamour, I never truly liked, or tried very hard given false impressions at the insatiability to resemble what it means to most. . . though in reality, 'glamour' is nothing but a cheapened sense of your vanity. It is the glamour that is on loan, as opposed to group feeling encountered.

And Ipod Nano. . . which tells me something. Why invest in an invention, when the whole point of Internet usage, is to download music for free. (Not because we want to pay for it.)

*gives mike a piggy back ride.

The world would be a far more diplomatic place if Obama gave out *free* piggy back's.

Take it from me Beckles!

i love when you call me Beckles. 

No beckles, it's you - it's because you make the world a better place. (Not an Obama thing.)

The expulsion of wisdom in acting

 Clearly, an actor's life is an acquired area where growth may not come as freely to everyone, because acting should be easy.

Acting is a choiceless path, where there's no expiration date to your dreams. 1- Acting is a medium. 2- It is also a privilege. (It should be as impactful to the critic's eye.)

Acting truth can only be equal as exhibiting real life. This type of actor exists outside the box, as matter of principle. This actor shapes awareness as psychological a state. This actor asks how another actor's work affects their own.

This straightedge philosophy is rooted in how serious artist's approach their wisdom from within.

Wisdom rarely makes a difference but only unless actor's who don't achieve purpose as to knowing who they are. (If you don’t follow this pattern in process.) The cause is lost onto most.

- Marco

time sharing population (April 18th 2009)

 It happened in a growth operation implemented by a governing agency as an individual, to which unbeknownst, there is a percentage of all people who statistically speaking, fall into a satisfactory category. Less than the margin of error, the growth of individuals cannot surpass the code of satisfactory in numbers. That reason for the abolition undoing law of averages, seems to take place, almost simultaneously to. Rational dichotomy is to subtract each living entity into only part satisfactory, the other half is virtually presumed undetectable or untraced, because only satisfactory can exist.

The true test of satisfactory tables, include the intent of inspiration, on a level of uninformed unified yet based, on instruction - perhaps linking it into an avant garde, though no such tropical destination would exit to an ocean resort. As a rule of thumb, satisfactory tabling has made it's reputation on enforcing complacency, but not without the intent of inspiration to guide it's better judgment, from which complacency plays a minor role in part to the equation.

That sense of death, which living a satisfactory life has worn, is that sense of a suicidal search for truth, as if the edge of exploring cancels out the exploitation of one's bonus. When you think about what is satisfactory - or in terms of such an analogy is - the call of a person's voice announcing bingo numbers to the person yelling out it has won to claim its prize, is a perfect example of a suicidal search for truth. That same person 'y' - who is satisfactory - has only the intent to inspire. As for the person 'x' who collects the bingo prize, there is no intent, no satisfactory table, no reason to inspire.

And bingo was his name.

A short story in pride and sensation

 The worst thing a person can do in life, if not ever, is intellectualize their existence on some superficial level of satisfaction in its entirety. I'm quickly measuring to point out - not just how superficially hot or cold they get. . . but they themselves will only ever have to reveal to their own admonition as a salesman.

I just don't write this stuff, I live it.

A given fact.

I do what I want.

Also, for all intensive purposes, I rather live/write what I'm capable of living in an 'existential vacuum' (your words not mine. . .), when compared to living in a world misconceptually drawn out from its own ignorance. Think about it.

BTW Mr O'Keefe, the fallacy commited being '. .. don't live in an existential vacuum. . .' is the one being commited. Essentailly if we all did not in some way shape or form, live in a world of systemic virtue, than the opposite of what you stated is true. I rather increase that awareness of the same quality, which unless you work hard at seeing the significantly altered view, that most people fail to understand, have really no idea of it themselves.

All modern day philosophy is a varient of that, the new age philosophers of a literal kind of being, know that existential beings, are the true visionaries of such skill(s) which differ in resisting the norm(s) (which you, mike, associated with a 'vacuum'. . .) in order to live in a world not dictated by those conditions we are made to be unaware of.

So, you are correct, people who live in the vacuum (as I do not) fail miserably.

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Also, if you placed even of a fraction of what this entails at a small corner of the systemic value, people blind to it place, on one corner of the universe (not the center from which people mistakenly are drawn from vis-a-vis false imagination of the norms on a sociological/societal level) your awareness itself will increase dramatically over what truly might only not be happening via real time.

I've worked sufficiently hard at being a non-published work.

Think of what I accomplished against those same people in goanalog, who try so unsuccesfully at purging anythiing I say, but never will. (Owen is a fucking idiot.) The funny thing was they are so convinced of it to no better avail.

April 18th 2010 (A philosopher's dream awakened)

 If I could deliver the truth in most sentient beings, I would look to see as though, (presuming they have no idea from what the truth might flow) in another likelihood of pursuing greater images. This is why generational philosophers such as Wittgenstein, Spinoza, or Kierkegaard themselves paved the ...way from differentiating the norm of equilibrium to being held as equals.

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This is why I hate everything Plato stands for to this day, who merely constituted his own false cynicism as a relevant case toward the understanding of present day matriarchal hegemony on a political scale. . . this then influenced a cause against aristocracy or Socratic wisdom. Plato, from which disavowed the same teachings as disciple to Socrates. Aristotle, is more a model backward to Socrates.

- Marco

(No cure for twitter)

 Twitter faithful fail to apply twitter as a useful bridge of communication. They misapply their credence for something shallow.

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Twitter is ineffective in why it enables its users to manipulate each others branded interests of a negative quality.

- Marco

Truth vs guns

 Anyone that suggests they are at the mercy subject to gun ownership, should they also NOT BE INFORMED of their right NOT to use guns.🍁

Here is the crux of the argument between gun ownership and the right to bare arms: people that apply their right to gun ownership claim to have some form of proxy, that should they own fire arms, also allows them to use them. If the right to bare weaponry is independent of our civil rights, those rights, should they be revoked - does not allow people to use firearms as a means to protect those rights. It is simple logic. To promote the use of intelligent discourse is a far greater right then the right to bare arms.

- Marco 

April 18th 2013

 I have known this my whole life, yet been condemned because of it.

- Marco

> "It's true that nothing in this world makes us so necessary to others as the affection we have for them."

—Goethe, The Sorrows of Young Werther

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This explains my talent perfectly. > "He lives the poetry that he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realise."

--from The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

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“We tend to disempower ourselves. We tend to believe that we don’tmatter. And in the act of taking that idea to ourselves we give everything away to somebody else, to something else.”

– Terence McKenna

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Humility and gratitude... Humbled and over whelmed... I can only imagine how precious those things are unless they are shared. I carry these things with me everyday. The problem is that no one else looks for it.

- Marco

desperation as zero

 Here is the problem I have, I would probably describe myself way sexier than I actually am, and I would be happier not sadder with that result. Am I not doing it wrong, or am I not right. My point being no matter how I perceive myself to others, the basis of my insecurities are always present. I am actually describing how I think others see me. This is how our subconscious minds function, to make ourselves available to the truth. Lead a life of thoughts that reveal your inner beauty, your outer beauty is irrelevant. So the exercise can be given from a very different approach by just the way you think.

- Marco

Nietzsche was a nihilist point blank.

 "What then is truth? A mobile army of metaphors, metonyms, and anthropomorphisms -- in short, a sum of human relations, which have been enhanced, transposed, and embellished poetically and rhetorically, and which after long use seem firm, canonical, and obligatory to a people: truths are illusions about which one has forgotten that is what they are; metaphors which are worn out and without sensuous power; coins which have lost their pictures and now matter only as metal, no longer as coins. We still do not know where the urge for truth comes from; for as yet we have heard only of the obligation imposed by society that it should exist: to be truthful means using the customary metaphors - in moral terms, the obligation to lie according to fixed convention, to lie herd-like in a style obligatory for all..."

― Friedrich Nietzsche, On Truth and Lie in an Extra-Moral Sense

Perennation of the mind

 Truth matters. That is all. All you are - is - confused in finding. Because if you don't. If you don't, (find truth in anything) you are not left behind. You are simply static in the universe.

It is not the truth that sets you free.

It is thinking (you think) you know. But you really don't = 'know'.

This takes tremendous energy to inhabit. It is a silence. Think of it as 'silence'. The truth is acting on silence.

And this is why we act on things that we don't think of. Before what is thinking about the cause of x, y or z. Is the universe made of truth we think of without knowing it?

Silence dictates the norms and you must think of those norms are as reality.

If reality dictates what happens.

Then reality is not what is happening in real time. It is simply noise.

The way you act is what reveals truth (in silence.)

If you think about it. You are that truth. And this is how we should be.

This is not about common sense. This is about taking life out from what is (thinking) in your head examining what you test as the real world.

This is what Krishnamurti is saying.

Not to adjust. You do not adjust. The world will adjust without you knowing, it. This takes effortless skill. It is you in an awareness as action.

I have spent all my adult life chasing this in theory. It is critical. To work at this kind of psychological nature and spend it on offering my thoughts. Thoughts are truth. Therefore, the truth as your thoughts are a perennation of your the mind that are crucial to understand.

- Marco

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 What is our mind if in which case you were not planning to ruse an outcome in your own favor. Clear manipulation tactics are not uncommon unless you are completely naive.

Marco Almeida  2025
-The Peg

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 Impressive prose on the nature of true passion and fulfilling pure desire.

- Marco

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“Do you also believe that what gives our lives their meaning is the passion that suddenly invades us heart, soul, and body, and burns in us forever, no matter what else happens in our lives? And that if we have experienced this much, then perhaps we haven’t lived in vain? Is passion so deep and terrible and magnificent and inhuman? Is it indeed about desiring any one person, or is it about desiring desire itself? That is the question. Or perhaps, is it indeed about desiring a particular person, a single, mysterious other, once and for always, no matter whether that person is good or bad, and the intensity of our feelings bears no relation to that individual’s qualities or behavior?”

― Márai Sándor, Embers

April 17th 2009

 is smiling as to say nothing else matters - it's as though I've felt so famously this way for the first time.

- Marco

Lost and Found

 Why has no one ever looked at me and said I have a beautiful soul.

April 17th 2013

 In a country that prides itself around prosperity, how can you lead by example in an honest manner, if reputation has forged its atrocities.

- Marco

April 17th 2013

 To inform the masses as though we all are bandits, "survival of the fittest", what test is there to accommodate or impose on its victims.

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The truth is, if survival of the fittest is what divides the have's from the have-nots, what then measures those that are displaced as a result of this winner take all mentality.

- Marco

April 17th 2014

 When you get your flow going on twitter nothing can stop it - it becomes a ritual in being awesome.

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I admit I am a character that is far outside the box of most conventional attitudes this suits me just fine.

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Being used for sex needs an overhaul in the way it is desired. If you fail to consent is what makes for loveless marriage.

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When you get a cold hard stare from me - your morality takes a beating.

Marco

the revolution of anti-matter

 What is beauty?

The ability to love more than you recognize. (Something you recognize what is more than just as an object.) Think about it as undying love. Even more profound than child birth.

- Marco

What hurts?

If my greatest misfortune were of not feeling sunlight.

*I think my priorities are finally in order.

But when you saw me and pretending you did not notice.

I did.

I noticed you not noticing me.

But today, it means something greater than you expected of me.

I still said hello.

And from this place,

I feared you.

Even if my pride.

See you, around the sun.

- Marco

Only words

I am in this shadow of my former self.

(I can not escape this shape I'm in.)

I do not avoid, what happened.

Only because it avoids me.

And when it does (happen).

It is always fate that guides me to the next, shadowy figure.

I'm not crazy.

Because you think, I am.

I never let go of myself during times of greater crisis.

I've gone through time and time again.

But when I walk

I am sure to walk through that open gate,

that if heaven?

I am through.

I am, through.

Through it all, as always.

As I always will and had been.

Fortunate to be among shadows,

of something like - a shadow.

Though not my own.

So I am a bringer of light.

And this light has brought me to this place

in time.

Where I fight with these words.

These words that expess my shadow,

as not the shadow.

I find words.

That mean that the words themselves speak

- speak to angels.

And only angels.

And if I were as these words are made to suffer,

after all this time I've spent hearing them.

In my mind.

(This is light.)

I wish to be here, forever.

Forever, wanting more...

More words to revere and reveal the true nature of wisdom.

As words can only do.

- Marco

As rule as law ~ is you are not what you think

I see things.

I can see things most don't.

Because I do not try to rationalize,

what is my existence.

I simply, am.

What is I don't know...

- is the feedback given.

I get signs from many things,

and these many things,

are many - many other things.

I would either do or do not, think of -

of why those things affect me.

My personal responsibility,

is to tie the knot on a roap.

(That between these thoughts.)

I climb back to where I began,

from the rope - this same roap,

only I can imagine climbing.

- Marco

April 17th 2014

 I admit I am a character that is far outside the box of most conventional attitudes this suits me just fine.

- Marco

○°○°○Krishnamurti○°○°○

 

April 16th 2013

 Wilde is correct of every aspect in this immorally replaceable truth. How can you elect for change, in favor of political corruption and the bourgeois mentality of power elitists. > "Democracy means simply the bludgeoning of the people by the people for the people."

-- from THE SOUL OF MAN

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- Marco

April 16th 2010

 there is no fear in wisdom. . . most important is it's unfounded renewal, but regaining that lost sense i.e. loss in wisdom - you've discovered. How to encounter that void, maybe is habitual discovery (. . .of no particular kind.)

- Marco

April 15th 2017

 There is no such thing as a brilliant mind so that the wolf may hang its ego.

- Marco

With all my misgiving, misunderstandings, mistakings.... I can only vouch for my personal inspiration that left me and I hear knocking.

- Marco

I wish it were true of me that I can go back from afar and relive moments that I take for granted now as I did then.

- Marco

April 14th 2011

 

April 14th 2010

So I received an anonymous tip from someone today, they told me I am the type of person that rich people would love to hate. My first thought of that was, I must be someone not worth stealing from, but vicitimized anyway. (My next thought was one of peculiarity. . .) more so distinctly that I am stranger than ficition.

- Marco

 

April 14th 2013

 You are nothing in my books if you theoretically fail to meet interstellar psychic communication. Prove that you can eliminate risk - it is simply impossible.

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Just because you can minimize risk, you do not understand the intricacies of knowledge.

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Marco

If (first) not passion (before) dissappearing

 April 14th 2025

Tonight, I am stepping into my own confessional.  

The facts about who I am.

I am single.

I have never been happier.

Life is not unfair.  I lead a privileged life to no one else's detriment.  What is I mean by that is - to be fair - I am no different in my life than that of a look-a-like.   I don't lead a double life. I am a proud individual.  This alone confuses many people that fail to really know me.

The reason for saying this is simple.

I have been resented for being who I am in life.  Yes.  

However, the rules of life have never been more prominent to me, than to those who seek it for personal gain.  Think of it as our capitalist aims in life.  This juxtaposes how I feel about my growth.  Growth is something I have aimed for in terms of my authenticity. 

The lesson here is this:

I feel I am an artist.  A poet.  A philosopher.  A writer.  An actor (strictly in the Shakespearean sense of the word.)  This is what I have come to in life.

REWIND (2min ago):  As I mentioned herein, already having stated: I am resented. 

FAST FOWARD (to now): if I never accomplish anything other than becoming a failure as an artist. . . I will be more than happy in my grave of rest.  

MY POINT??:  MY point (the endgame) is this.  I have been written off by some.  None too many.  I know I have everything I want in life.  That is why I am resented.  For knowing this.  That's the difference between me and the trend setters. . . I'm on brand.  They are also.  But the trends are for losers that think they know me. (That's how this ends.)  

I am use to having love in my life for no better past.  MY present is a beautiful disaster.  The future - is a secret.  

But because you may still be reading this - it is not a letter to you.  IT is not a feel sorry for myself diary.

This is about typically ending the stereotype or what is prejudice against me.  I refuse to be your victim.  I play that role to no one's interest. 

Here is the confession: I confess, that I live a privileged life.  I really have nothing other than that to confess.  I believe we are in constant renunciation.  Although this renunciation is NOT a purge.  The purge against me has been on for too too long.  I am who you want me to be.  Confessionals can be tricky things.  You can never  tell what the truth is.  But - this.  This is me.  Undoubtedly.  (But do you know what a contradiction is.)

Pentecost

 This is for my grandmother Marta, who was the most devoted relgious god loving woman I have ever known. If I have ever learned what it means to be what is gods name... it is her.

To my fearless and borderline ferocious uncle Anibal Martins who undoubtedly helped instil my faith in god.

My grandfather's David Almeida and Adriano Bastos who mutually respected each other with wisdom and their hearts. I share this bond in what is being a man I am.

My dear Benilde, who loved me unconditionally and I think of often... you should still be here with us my amor.

My godmother Natercia Bastos. I will do your service. You above everyone in my god forsaken life. You believed I was special and you totally totally thought I was one of a kind. I will honor this. My work is not done.

To my parents. Who I would die for.

My sister Marta, her spouse and my nephews. I will protect.

My family in Van town.

All Portuguese aunts, uncles Justino - Antonio - Fernando - Alberico - my cousins Pedro - Tonito. Muitas saudes queridos.

This time of year means the world to me.

- Marco

Fade to black

 I can't compete. I don't think this of me. It is what I think.

What is me, the real me.

Is that I don't care if the world sees me.

What I care about is knowing.

Knowing the difference for what is not a justification for caring.

I care. A lot.

And if I say anything is it because I care mostly more than some people do.

I say, 'yes'.

Yes, I can say I care more than you.

And it is because of this spirit, this free spirit of mine.

This nature of (what is).

What is, Marco.

(end)

Part II

The injustices, the prejudices about who I am compared to what is. I fear none of it. I fear - only god.

Let god. God decide who between your bitter rival and yourself is the better choice.

I fear nothing.

Not now. Not ever.

Part III

That is the greatest thing about, me.

That it is precisely because I care, that the caring never goes away.

And yet, (you know the type) the kind of people that care the most.

Get taken advantage of.

That is not, however, a weakness.

You see the confusion? (my confusion is.)

The source of being liked for who I am and what is.

That's where the final answer is.

The answer to god's purpose in this is.

I know for a fact that god made me to care about things I can't control.

And this is how I will die.

Part IV (epilogue)

And in this Shakespearean dichotomy (if you are still reading. . .)

is to be the example you crave.

Do not confuse being as an example.

Commit yourself to you. To you and you only, Marco.

Marco, my child.

This is why god sees you, because you care more than most.

(Most that do, do not know the difference.) And this is, more powerful than your relationship to god.

To care about those things that most of those - those that do not. Everyone knows this about you. Think about it.

That time you believed and than had it taken away from you. For a second - for if even a second in time, that you had god renounce you for it The moment you believed in something less than god. Where does this leave you.

It elevates my thoughts about other people and what they are missing because it is me who lost their sense of becoming. And then you realize that the sense of being, is found.

Found in your most intimate secret. A secret you never had until now.

And that is god in me.

(Because I care.)

But, because I have failed god and I probably will so many time more.

I always go back to god.

(And that is how I care.)

Because most people don't know why.

Faith is my greatest of assets.

And this is why I am blind.

Until the day I see.

- Marco

Irony in a sovereign asceticism

 “For one does not become a man through science, art or religion—to say nothing of philosophy—but through a self-conscious rejection of happiness, through a fundamental inability to be happy.”

-Emil Cioran

If I am an extortionist (the opposite of an ascetic for purpose in making my point) and I am acting as what is a dictator without which boundaries are not intended nor made. That makes for 'recreation' in the event they mass commit to murdering people in war. I question Nietzsche cause in everything he ever expected us to understand through reading his philosophy. There is a larger scope to make sense of here. To be a leader of the MAGA movement today, brands you a hero. The cause nor purpose of my reason for saying it is not insufferable of me to say so. Therefore, I am like 'most intelligent men, like the strongest, find their happiness where others would find only disaster:" Further to Nietzsche disparaging position in this, as example of a professional extortionist "to play with burdens that would crush all others." This appears fallacious as if to say the war effort is justified in Iran right now. Evangelicals' are the real terrorists.

- Marco