Freewill vs Determinism

Let's break this down. . .

Nobody cares about how you debunk something not worth actually knowing if both empirically and factually inaccurate. This follows: How might one constitute determinism if without the interchange between existence preceding essence without manifesting cause. Cause is the central idea behind determinism, once removed, falls into the trap that cause falsifies freewill altogether. Therefore, his argument falls apart. (You cannot negate one thing in freewill without the other when the antecedent aka 'cause' is being falsified in favor of determinism.) It is a mutually exclusive argument.

Thinking about what is god: would you say God pressed his face upon the window of your mind and gave you rational placement above everything else. Nonsense. Freewill is not free from cause and effect. The relationship between cause and effect is the outcome of freewill.

- Marco

pick up sticks

 January 27th 2009

Jinx - think faster. It's on a day like today I feel bewildered belief, stricken with grief at the thought of some from of common denominator that won't even itself out. Not that this is a matter of numbers, because I really hate math, mainly because you forget the rules when rules should apply - yet other times they don't. I guess my complexity cannot correspond with how much change has (I pray) made a difference in my life thus far. At this moment, I betray my sense of self-serving wisdom for a more radical approach. My problem is simple: you can't chase a dream without trusting yourself first.

Supposing wisdom is the key in all of this, my twinkle in eye, it cannot be self-serving due to as I pointed out earlier a common denominator. Sometimes, the numbers within adding fractions must equal to a common denomination, though at times, yes - even in doing the fraction correctly - the same numbers will not follow. It is a matrix principle. Yet, my brain has always 'multiplied' numbers in ways, that must obey the rules as they are to be followed. Even though one is following the rules (as rules go) my 'flawed' automatic mechanism is not to rationalize that I might already have the correct answer. I've always confused math, or my method in trivializing it as I do right here, been a matter of endless tabulation. It's like my mind is saying, "I must keep tabulating. If those are the correct numbers, I must keep tabulating. Therefore, those numbers can't be right." When logic does not dictate the norm, as is in this case mine.

I suppose the moral of my story goes with so much grace, it lacks. Something, it lacks tells me I'm okay to be as unknown as a common variable would have it.

It's on days like today, I rather be dreaming good dreams.

 “What is necessary, after all, is only this: solitude, vast inner solitude. To walk inside yourself and meet no one for hours — that is what you must be able to attain.”

–Rainer Maria Rilke

What is guilt? | J. Krishnamurti

 To be a poor man is hard, but to be a poor race in a land of dollars is the very bottom of hardships.

— W.E.B. Du Bois, The Souls of Black Folk (1903)

 January 27th 2025

Thoughts on the night...

1- you can't possibly know how to manipulate something at an early age. To understand what gives you a voice. How to imagine within your limits. That's what keeps me young... and full of energy. In touch with my own reality.

2- my first rule in life with soliciting revolutionary ideas over this medium: I have learned to listen. I am a stoic philosopher. Not cold around my ears which metaphorically speaking, means, I do automatically recognize the ghost in the machine called life. I am a Shakespearean dichotomy by trade. We should all brand ourselves as tragic heroes once every so often.

3- call me whatever you want. I don't care. It won't bother me. I rarely get offended.

4- anyone that says: let's deport immigants ...I will kick their ass. That's it. I take it personally.

5- calling immigrants criminals is such a cop-out. Think about it this way. What makes anyone think I wouldn't kick a criminals ass. BRING THEM ALL!!

6- let me dumb this down for MAGA. Only a pos like Trump, doesn't see the danger he puts other people in... makes him a psycopath. No need to drop our weapons, as defenseless. Trump inspires me to know how reverse psychology requires what we should do. Trump thinks his threats weaken us while he is holding a baby's rattle. Fear not. Never surrender. Love always rules the day. Love can be a part of all this if you want it enough. Love prevails. In my mind anyway.

7- from what I've learned being a Jets fan. Let's address the subject of intervention. What's right about having the NHL back since 2011. Living in a grassroos market. There is nothing like it. There is no other, kind of passionate fanbase in the NHL. I don't take a day off as a fan. I will support my team. I love the Jets win or lose. I will always be a Winnipeg prairie son...

 

8- philosophy is not a weapon. 

9- in assigning meaning to things - you don’t have to be a class conscious individual.

- Marco Almeida 2025

The Peg

This is how I roll...

The Matrix Traveler

 January 26th 3013

I am referring to the use of religion (belief) in the world as it turns to (dogma) fascism.

1- To actually take the use of god as fear based mentality, 2- convert that fear into punishment, 3- that - that fear in punishment and all its consequent implies IS how controlling we are (a) in our devices (b) of a psychological nature. These are the mechanics (c) of freedom. Although, NOT tunnel vision which traps us. So that if under these conditions our vices are ordinary in nature, are vices which oppose freedom loving creatures. Therefore, if our acts are not then met, if our acts are true, shall fail in its adoption of reality. You must find meaning in everything to do with, the kind of depth in mind, only operates, only to provide, how in your trained eye, the material objects of man himself which consciousness is purely involved. Ask yourself, how do you attract the very same person if it were you in life.

1- It is a travesty that people actually harbinger their fear based beliefs, to a degree of misguided anarchy. 2- Even if fascist thought could superimpose such ignorance, 3- would that then justify carrying a falsely implied slave mentality.

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The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible. - Arthur C. Clarke

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I really believe that people's idea of faith is what divides us, loyalty to religious beliefs, is the same as loyalty to fascist dogmas. How we perceive ourselves in light of that is the main point of impact.

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"So that if under these conditions our vices are ordinary in nature, are vices which oppose freedom loving creatures. Therefore, if our acts are not then met, if our acts are true, shall fail in its adoption of reality." (MA2013)

^What causes most of our anxiety in life, is the false idea we carry, about how abnormal the world (religious beliefs) relates back to our hidden inhibitions (dogmatic) of a personal nature.

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"1- It is a travesty that people actually harbinger their fear based beliefs, to a degree of misguided anarchy. 2- Even if fascist thought could superimpose such ignorance, 3- would that then justify carrying a falsely implied slave mentality." (MA2013)

^This in its own accordance is to show how faint transparency can be, that the way we make sense of things in life is the basis of our moral upbringing. Ask yourself, how are you completely free of thought. How do you achieve an ability to falsify dogmas which limit controlling our true promising potential.

Pulling what off

 January 26th 2011

I think sometime between my long battle with depression, I must have landed somewhere else, I don't know where this is or why I've failed.

There is a definite ring of fire, that lay beyond my soul, because I've seen what it means.

Now that I am free of such a burden on myself, that part of me that only cares about what comes to the surface commercially. I am independent from myself acting as - as a commodity issue to those false perceptions of reality.

It is because of my effort, this light turned inward than outward that poetry becomes prose, that prose becomes a timeless narrative configured into concepts - that those concepts became figments of your mind. That I established such patterns in thinking, I did not put there?

I hate myself.
I hated others for not seeing me.

I project these things into false self perceptions, that require nothing.

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When it comes to a form of my better sense of self, the same question escaped me every time. How is it I am unworthy, yet responsive, to my hidden happiness. Was it ever beyond my reaches, is it behind a door left to be opened, if not, then why am I so unhappy.

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I just want my hair to grow, until it needs no more. I want myself to better govern my personal needs, for satisfying my vaguer notion of reality run amok. I similarly choose to acknowledge such indifference of conscious allure.

My true wish for myself is to add, everything I made up to this point, my sense of duty. A duty to call a rose a rose, to make her insecurity a thing she invests in my genius masculinity, that my prize possession in life is to let it go to charity.

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When I am only human, when she turns and walks away without so much as a stumble or a fall, my mind is filled with it. When she smiles without actually realizing I am there for her needs, I fear her distress. It is my signal to call upon her name, but she is not a willing dance partner.

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Someone I need a prize for that.^

Enigmatic Thoughts from the. . .

I would like to think that as well. Kind of the same way I agree with aaron, when he stated he gets work done with standards but not up to his employers credibility. He does work for the sake of doing it, but aaron does the work without the wanting to. That is the main focus a writer must be able to create anything! You have to want it. Not only that, you cannot shit on people that do care, it is a divided line that you must be aware of.

That is what I am afraid of, but I like to think, "There is nothing to fear but fear itself." That is the way I am trying to cope with either side of the coin I flip. Which ever the side comes down facing heads or tails, I just have to manage with my insecurity no matter what the outcome. If it is like you say going to get worse; the other aspect. . . is that another person in my life might not be the best thing for me. I have to go with my gut instinct, and what it tells me. I refuse to be one of those types of individuals that abort the relationship, simply because they get bored of being in one.

It is not that the relationship is a cancer waiting to spread into something worse. . . she is fee-fee-foo-foo and I have no patience.

Sure not. If I were to go after someone else and try to play my current gf would be a disaster for me or anyone else that would do such a thing. I think nobody in their right mind would be able to see when they are being played, would not want to be, and they make a quick exit. Can it be that I am going through the motions, instead I choose to be "hanging around" in this relationship? She is too needy for certain, but I have to handle this properly as well. Now you are on the same page, Mr. Paul.edit: I am not of the trailer park trash mentality, you know that kind. . . the way you automatically dump someone eimply because you are playing another person at the same time.

Believe you me I am no fool. I would not play anyone else in a relationship for a fool either, and leave them second guessing or my thinking I am a victim that I treat others as second fiddle. Reason being: I would not expect myself to be stupid enough that I would tolerate being played.

sigh - I guess I will have to stop creating thoughts I do not have the answers to, without fear of knowing it.

It could be me that is the one who is too needy, yet on the surface I think makes us that we are pretty much equal on that level.

I am not saying it on terms of wanting variety, the question is - is it worth it to me. I think it could go either way which is why my interest is turning into why should I pursue something else?


has it happened to you? The time you felt you had a needy person in a relationship and you wanted to pursue other people. I feel that my current relationship can be more than it is, that it really has some thinking potential to be something else in the future. Right now, my option is a matter of choice between moving onto somebody that I feel no better then what I do have now. However, if you see what that entails, does it mean I am having immoral thoughts because I have no real reason not to further develop this relationship. It seems like a catch-22 to me. I can move on and continue to explore myself through other potential relationships (e.g. what other people have to offer) though not that it is necessary or is that just plain dumb for me to hold back on what I have now? Something tells me I can move on, or do I not have believed in this relationship enough to continue? Those questions are the key focus of that my conscience is telling me.

enigmatic thinking

January 26th 2010

 I'm not much into gossip. Some thing's are just better left unsaid. . . in reality. There are other time's I hear, myself, not only confused with my particular personality - I find a very expedient way in dealing with these brief lapses. I've also established myself in life, to remove from the grey areas, (between extreme thought's. . .) as in opposition, to a length of determination which does not rob my sense of self.

It is an extremely hard thing - to do - what so much of myself fails to exhibit. At some point, my competitive self, has to express itself in other way's much in the way of simplicity. If simplicity (myself) get's in the way, then there's a problem I cannot examine any which way I see benefit.

So - it is much too much in my important, to least important, then (back again) to importance of a literal kind of being.

My personal satisfaction, which I get, from time to time - hasn't always given to the pleasure of self-therapy. You know, that therapy you experience when for a brief moment in time, that sense of dread collapses all over you, that you faced it in front of the world to see it. How often does that kind of, in therapy, take you?

Gossip is a form of that.

It's weirdest to the extreme, that gossip, when it appear's - appear's blindly. As if the personality of another seems to take precedent over time itself. (It is definitely in need of a more exotic pretense.)
So-be-it.

When I make it out, gossip-ing, that word permeates into a world on it's own, from it - I usually just ignore it.

But - something recently happened to me (. . .here I find myself contradicting the norm's between gossip), that of a repair service business, completely demeaned my lack of - shall we say unprepared - knowledge of the sort I myself was dealing with. The customer (myself) was dealt a low blow to his psyche, the man standing on the other side of the counter, appeared before me, as just a man (literally). That was until, I made some mistake of - not - knowing who I was dealing with. I still am left, wondering, thinking to myself if it happened exactly as I describe it. Instead, this story can only end, with me leaving the premesis, without not only my question, but the same repair/service clerk questioning me. It was bizarre. I couldn't figure out why this happened.

There was no need to recite this story, up, until it struck me - myself - as odd. What was I expecting, I did not know it at the time, just kick me out and let's be done with it - perhaps that was it. The same way you get sent out from your highschool class for disrupting, only because you really wanted to get kicked out anyway. I am that naive, to that single amount of - worth.

In fact, why that did happen - equates to probably nothing - yet surely it happened just as I described, without any retribution for my effort or lack thereof. Is this what the world has come to, so I Ask myself that question, and I find myself back to square one. How did this guy deal with me SO WELL.

Wow - humiliated, defeated, it all means being had.

Did I get the part I needed, no. Did the guy care about what I needed, no. Did I walk out, without knowing what had happened, no - it never did.

Usually, in times of disquiet, I leave my guard down. . . this is when for lack of better words - my defenses take over. I withstand the amount of information being taken in, wonder aloud, that is I wonder (without making any noise's) and bang - . (The sentence end's gramatically incomplete.)

No sound's, only it's original condition please. That's what the counter-clerk heard me saying to him, so he could tell, that I knew nothing of it. Advantage, repair guy. (Who proceeded to kick me out. . .)

Well - this time it didn't work, but next time - oh there will be a next time. Then, nothing.

It's weird how words travel, most day's, I forget the kind of man I've made myself out to be. Where cynical as the world cast's it's ugly shadow, I'm again reminisent of that old repair clerk, not willing to help myself out, fired me on the spot before I had the chance to hire him for something I needed.

Is that what gossip is?^ Telling the next customer - which I know - won't try taking advantage of a situation. How silly of me.

It all comes back to one thing only, that no matter how I failed, there's something else better to talk about. (Not based on lies.) Based squarely on my individual-ity. That is a place where so many misread, what it was they thought had happened after the fact, - only you were sure of it. Gossip is dead. To me - the one thing that gossip intended - was to put me down, humiliate me, then send me to the gallow's. Gossip never helped anyone overcome any obstacle's, I may have faced them already before.

Charity on the other hand, has had a place in history for quite some time, (yet gossip gave it a failing grade. . .), so much for charity. I know I can do it better.

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So - for those of u not faithfully unaware about what I mean by gossip. It's not what you may think, but, it's when mom tries hard to explain, in short "talk", how her son is out saving the world (. . .I'm just saying.) Or a friend of a freind who hit's a half-pipe about what was said, only to create drama later (as if it wasn't meant) I said it -but didn't mean it. Or that somebody, you know the type, drawing out what the world already knows about. That sort of thing.

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I am curious as to what explanation, Sandra, you would formulate given that you like that comment being made. You should make me aware of your position in the best way you can articulate it. Otherwise, it's just you making an assumption about what I meant. I could be wrong - if I am wrong, why don't you state your position. Otherwise, it's you're simply doing something in vanity.

As you know, I am not a stupid human being, so let's have at her here -I invite you to take a step further. My bet is that you won't.

I assume you would know me better than that - I feel suspicious that you are against what things I express in morality. I know you as a god fearing individual, although I think much indifferently towards people like that - I make myself obvious. (i.e. face value for me, also, means that other people rather cop out in spite of that.)

You know me well enough, to know that, I come from a place in my life that is made of tranquil honesty. Since our youth, I can honestly say - you might see me quite different than you were brought up.

All I can say is, no matter how much you despise myself philosophically speaking, I welcome everything you would have to say against me personally. I am not a dictator/fascist.

I mean - really.

How stupid do you take me for. . . I posted this well in advance to your sudden interest. I know you better than that.

What I absolutely hate about people in my way of life moment to moment - is that my better interest (i.e. intellect) is insulted on a level; that suffers fools that are already fools themselves.

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^If you made yourself available to what any wrote^ you will take it as an honest challenge. Believe you me - any philosopher issues respect in terms of what opinions people have against his better judgment. Most wanna-be types simply mask themselves by censoring whatever comes their way.

January 26th 2015

 There is a certain neurotic element of the unconscious mind which every person has, where paradox lives and through experience irony creates, I call it existence.

So much so, it was as though you were invited to dance in that magical sense, like in pale moonlight. You could swear you have fought the good fight never feeling you would have lost.

I call it the skill to dictate your silent understanding of all things. Things you may have never been aware of but went ahead and did them anyway.

And sometimes we learn to love only never to be loved at all. That is the worst part I have ever known in this play called life.

- Marco

January 26th 2018

 I think the best quality I possess that I need to be in touch with and defend my awareness of it is my trustworthiness. You see what you get and even though I've been in contact with those that rather prove otherwise.

- Marco

January 26th 2024

 I pray this about about a world which converts its bullying religious practices without their clever disguises. I look at my faith as a trained art in using reverse psychology to get what I necessarily deserve, not so much why I want it.> @Bible_Time: If you have faith when you pray, you will be given whatever you ask for -Matthew 21:22

- Marco

Real Life

 January 24th 2011

Simply because you have an agnostic attitude against a male person(s), does that constitute that all males are bad people.  More than likely some of us (myself included) do condone a freedom of choice.  However, does that also equate to a lifestyle, of alienating a person based on sexual preference?

 

I am a straight male. 

 

I've noticed on more than one occasion, sexuality based lifestyle choices, carry out stamps of approval.  

 

I feel myself, not being a person privy to another persons sexual orientation i.e. gay lifestyle choices gives me a label of being straight.  Therefore, because I am a straight individual, I automatically stereotype against such variably driven sexuality.

 

I was oblivious to the fact, that there are some woman I am attracted to, completely undermine that I rather be dominant, when in fact - those same women happen to be lesbian.  That unless I was open to being a man of similar next to bi-sexual status, I am just another one of those straight males who only want to dominate the relationship scale.

 

The question for me is, do I really attribute myself to such a type of alienation on a day to day level of existence, nor would I want to.

 

Yet, if I feel that stereotypes placed onto me, (a) I have to asunder, then (b) not to reveal myself as a good standing male, (c) typically under no better circumstances, (d) does that make me a better person who deflects criticism against people's better judgment?  In this case the better judgment of same sex relationships, whether they become attracted to me e.g. follows the next 'conditional . . .that not unless I confirm I am an equal i.e. bi-sexual in orientation, so she can feel safe that all bets are off, she wants no part of me whatsoever even on a basic level of understanding.

 

This has been my unadulterated experience on such experiences I've encountered as they exist within establishing parameters of same sex-relationship models.

 

Same sex relationships, whether or not commitment want no relation subject to dependency of opposite sex members within the community they make a part of.  I find this not only misleading to true long-standing members of the gay community but disingenuous of those which act contrary to popular beliefs.

- Marco

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And if I were to start guessing incorrectly of my self-based opinion, who am I to deprive others of my natural misgiving. Food for thought.

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So I another form of art in sexuality, depriving is the new weapon of deceit. Fuck this world is ridiculous.

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My confabulation {a precipice of true acting ability}

 January 24th 2013

Tonight I really experienced how misunderstood I am as an actor, as this pertains, on my focus as a human being. Transmitting my energy is something of a monumental achievement, it is a source of training my instinct and trusting my intuition through a type of existential need. As this develops, my psychic flow is meant to produce a kind of organically bred inertia. What acting means to me - as it now applies here, takes an informed technique of the mind, it is in a mental embodiment of my will, the state of awareness that my ego is sensitive, fragile, vulnerable to outside forces, rather than containing my fear. Rather than wish for results to take place, I am learning to emote feelings, then forever transforming myself. I know how to transfer the sense of a magical irony taking place that my body performs as real life in a particular fictional sense. This is everything I am working toward. I have so much of these ideas as living proof in my ability, that to the untrained eye simply do not feel its mystery, they experience the birth and behavior which cannot be replaced.

- Marco

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re; the untrained eye

My point here is, how do you know the message you are delivering without revealing something of yourself no one else knows about.

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"I have so much of these ideas as living proof in my ability, that to the untrained eye simply do not feel its mystery, they experience the birth and behavior which cannot be replaced." (MA2013)

The mutability of being a super hero

 January 24th 2013

Last night I was having a conversation with person 'y' about person 'x' that I felt needed attention. The fact I felt bad for person 'x' had to do with person 'x' feelings of despair. I can barely watch person 'x' suffer the way she is, as I have the power to recognize what person 'x' means to me, but from person 'y' perspective was far more curious. Person 'y' said it is better that person 'x' allow her emotions to get the better of her now, because in the future, person 'x' will not have the benefit of the doubt to continue feeling the way person 'x' expresses it. It got me to thinking how we live in such a desensitized world, that from one human being to another, you can say "I do not want you to feel this way anymore, you are special. Please never change this part of who you are.". However, person 'y' I cannot approach in that belief, because it should be common thought - that person 'x' has feelings of her own that she has to deal with. It is very sad we live in a world there is such apathy, especially because you recognize in yourself how you can care for another person. In Western culture, it is unacceptable to show these feelings, when someone of my nature has the power to be aware of another persons sensitivity, and not negatively affect that cause. I can say it is such a bad thing, that we live in a world that is preoccupied with setting boundaries which only alienates the human condition.

I am such a person that does not invent these ideas to promote how usefully ignorant we have become. It is a condition of love that operates in sickness, the world has become immune to.

People are unable to tempt the real sensitivity a person has, then and only then results in how programmed we get - at condoning a secret life of suffering the need to feel loved.

- Marco

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I hate having the knowledge to deal with my depression - because it takes so much energy.

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I wish that if I were struggling, people would feel the courage it takes to see my true colors. Why people fail to realize this about their real nature is a disease the world has become.

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When I refer to this as "my depression" it is a link to the world I find has taken a irresponsible approach to faith in others.

The hunger of pure famine

January 24th 2013 I think of all life as fictional, the sense you get from reading Alice in Wonderland only you are its narrator. Same metaphor applies to real life. When I interact with the world, am I a mere representation of it, what it tells me - is their is no part of a missionary, even though people unconsciously perceive the world they inhabit as missionary to others. That is a false idea. What brings your value to life, is not to be done in a missionary sense, but a sense of looking right at the person you love most. Can you trust that kind of power, in yourself, can you give it freely to something else. Do you have it in you without it even making sense, or have it respond. That is a true feeling of life, and nobody knows it from what I can see. I have to ask myself - what kind of world are we living in. I want to know that, I want to feel the idea in me growing outward, moves inward. People stop themselves from it, and we all suffer - not if you want it badly enough. This is how I recognize myself in the mirror of life, a comet.

- Marco

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I reluctantly share this. I say reluctantly because in a perfect world made of these beliefs, surmount to nothing. I especially condone not judging other people and not knowing the answers to things. The last point made is a hereditary repose, I would smile more often if people understood me better. Why should I accept anything less than that.

I really have a problem with #2, because it is virtually non existent.

re; 'hereditary repose'

What I mean by this is in how I feel secure in my position(hereditary), I can feel relieved about that (repose).

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I think of that as more learning to be psychic and emitting a response from it.

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January 24th 2020

 Are you an actor. As an actor you are always learning or you relearn how to retain information, at the same time you have developed an inert understanding or unlearned recurring habits so that you reinvent yourself in every possible manner your human element demands.

- Marco

Watching the beginning of thought | Krishnamurti

How does one look at memories? | Krishnamurti

My whole being is memory | J. Krishnamurti

Thinking is a reaction to memory | Krishnamurti

How do you receive something that's beyond the mind? | J. Krishnamurti