Tuesday, January 13, 2026
Monday, January 12, 2026
Ultra thresholds: Ammunition & Obscurity /.\ Entrapment & Reformation
January 12th, 2014
Entrapment & Reformation: what the world wants you to believe if it were programmed into you.
In a world made of preference to mock desires charity is not only a necessity as it is requirement.
When a person recognizes your fear as weakness and only want to take advantage of that they are acting against your will.
The first and only way to exercise your will is onto something that tests you as more than you already know. I introduce my fear to them.
The worst way to recognize your enemy is to act as their combatant making example of their stupidity.
The best way to identify your enemy is in knowing they have no remorse in wanting something from you or show any guilt in you being used.
Fools confuse their hi jinx as benefiting themselves, when reality should dictate otherwise. Be your own person - always.
The truth is most kids that were my age are now peers that are total sell outs and adhere to terms of status. Huge fail.
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Ammunition & Obscurity
Re; 'deduction'
Do not confuse logic with rationalizing what makes sense. What is rational is not always logical.
Literal deduction = things that at first may appear illogical but you make it logical.
What I am arguing in favor of is perception. Variables that are unknown. Literal deduction.
If you are a deeply philosophical human being that is rejected as being illogical. Is your judgment rational is the question. Think about it as your personal threshold not for what is painful but what is tolerable. Why, because pain is not intolerant, inflicting it onto others is. So you have become programmed to have a high rate of tolerance for pain to the same degree that prohibition is the resolution of an enemies ulterior motives. This serves as a theoretical precipice for threshold in general.
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Your real value probably indicates a reactionary pulse that each time you fail to take action in how something feels: 'why' has the world abandoned you.
January 12th 2013
If god gave everything as its meant to be "perfect" how on earth do we know that. My beliefs are what encompass my very being. Therefore, everything (as I possess as its been given to me) - have been proven to me ARE my beliefs. Am I not a carrier of that type belief. > @bigcanadiano: @Bible_Time God gives me nothing I would not want back in return, does this make my imperfection any less acceptable to that end. - Marco
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God. -Eph 2:8
^Think about it, does your idea of god create an authority based on your own personal beliefs. Truly think about that.
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All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
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My sense of a perfect world, can only come through the existence I carry to it. Gods existence is tested in my faith of it. Therefore, god does not REQUIRE faith, that - that faith does not require gods existence. Faith is sacred FROM my dependence of it. >@bigcanadiano: @Bible_Time That being said: my sense of gods existence is only tested in my faith provided FROM it. God does not REQUIRE my faith. - Marco
How do you know - (a) that god knows your existence is (b) based on (c) your faith. How can you possibly know it.
Truth and caviar
The concept of hell is just a name given to the clever games people play while in the middle of figuring out their next move. - Marco
You are metaphysically incomplete if you make choices that can only be measured based on past experience. Reality is a meditative state to occur from which we establish our selves both analytically and apriori. It relates to style and is the cornerstone of all things beautiful, all done in language. Your relationships are what bind you. - Marco
1 Peter 2.16
If you understand this into your inner most being ...you've made it far in life. I can promise you. And you can go even further. - Marco
Sunday, January 11, 2026
Feel the Bern
Truth is this... twitter enabled Trump and verified his account no less. It follows how in Trumps alternate reality twitter served as a vehicle to tow the company line. When the seal popped and trump broke twitters code all else became compromised in real time. Twitter was suspending accounts for far less resprehensible measures allowing Trump to run free for twitters own enablement. It became circular and Trump clearly won (not the other way around) because Twitter let Trump get his way for Twitters own shot at entitlement. - Marco
This. This I am grateful for in my true understanding of it...
“I dreamed a lot when I was growing up. I told you about that. I was, as Tennessee said, a fabulist, but you have to get out of that amber dream of desire and really craft an artist out of the rudimentary tools you were born with. For the entire life of an actor, you are burnishing and sharpening and replacing tools that you need to have at their highest levels of performance—over and over again. It is never enough. You have so much to read, to listen to, to investigate, to endure. Your heart has to be broken and to mend. Your mind has to be challenged and stretched and adapted. Your body has to be strong and supple and tough. It is an almost impossible task: Actually, it is an impossible task, but in bravely attempting to fulfill it, you might achieve truth or greatness or inspiration.”—Kim Stanley/Interview with James Grissom/Photograph by Arnold Newman
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“Anger should not be confused with passion, and far too many people operate solely on anger, and this cannot produce art that is valuable. Our anger should arise over situations, conflicts, lacks, needs, and our application of these angers toward an act—of creation or caring or anything to which we can give ourselves—purifies the anger and turns it into something useful: A witness, a testimony.
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“One of the great gifts of art is that it can purify anger. Art takes the anger and puts it to a good use. Until you are ready to release your anger, do not approach your art, or you will destroy it.“—Martha Graham/Interview with James Grissom
Saturday, January 10, 2026
early morning confession, late last night
I feel totally self deprived tonight. I care so much about what I do, in pursuing my acting talent. I know I am a better actor than what contemporary style of acting is out there. I am not going to accept this failure I have been going through. I am so sick of this bullshit acting I have been trying to exterminate from my body. No one can see the changes I need to go through in order to fulfill the type of destiny I know I am capable of.
This is why I have transformed myself over the years, by developing my thoughts through a chorus of ideas made, meant to build my sense of a private nature, that I share with the world through my personal spirituality.
The customs I have come to adopt, in relation to this craft is a learning process unlike any other I have yet to experience. To be able to work on my skill, in training my mind to perform a life altering form of experience is a benefit of mine.
This great ordeal, as I have been working day and night to try accomplish, is truly a force of nature I intend on keeping myself.
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To do a good job in nailing each scene I do, and not feel what I call "the need". Its only reward is that I offer humanity something they know has never been seen before. I become a source. This to me is my pursuit in becoming the actor I want to be.
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"The need" I define as an empty feeling, that I am open and available in my souls operation.
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When I went back into the acting, it gave me renewed hope in my ability. I want no credit for that. As a result of returning, I simply wanted to remind myself what a good human being does, because I think genuinely about another human being - I want what is good for that person. That is the true purpose of my journey. I am just so frustrated when I am in class, I see people that do not want to act. It is hard to get use to.
I am not sure if I agree with Krishnamurti, here, on the nature of reality vs our worldly appetites.
If we are in search of a revolution where the state is responsible for the people taking action; yet the state of those in power call protesting its own government as 'unlawful'. How can that be true? If the truth behind the people's actions are that of a government's oppression of those people. It is known as a double standard.
OW - in the spirit of revolutionary aims
"We are punished for our refusals. Every impulse that we strive to strangle broods in the mind, and poisons us. The body sins once, and has done with its sin, for action is a mode of purification. . . . Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to itself, with desire for what its monstrous laws have made monstrous and unlawful. It has been said that the great events of the world take place in the brain. It is in the brain, and the brain only, that the great sins of the world take place also."
--from THE PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY
January 10th 2025
How people have that inner ability, do devalue what things stand right in front of them, as something else, such as living a lie... is far too easy to predict. - Marco
As for every two-faced person you may ever come across; I will not fall victim to - only because of their ignorance over me. Not on my watch, they shall never truly contact with me.
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I. U ever get the nice girl in the room, testing out your training signals, as if, (she)too see if you "get it".
Now only if I were picky enough to identify with her, would I have been able i.e. "available" to give her the proper feedback. But my stupidity took over that moment, so instead, she sees only what I gave her as the people pleaser I am - that I am enabled by her. Like fuck, such a cool person to me, I come off as (a) fitting a square into a triangle. Mother fucking me.
God damn it, the corrupt generation has me in, presently brain washed from my surfer self. Asshole fucks.
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Marco Almeida
The irony is nothing short of coincidence, I'm being faced with this exact same thing today of all days.
Leviticus 25.17
Friday, January 10, 2025
The god fearing pursuit of reality (deluxe addition)
Simply, the human condition rests on guilt. Not wanting to feel guilt, therefore we all fear it so we purge the body from it. We find excuses moat familiar to us. Those same excuses are meant to avoid or pardon facing our own guilt. As result we lie to ourselves. This is human nature. It is incumbent upon ourselves. We learn. We train ourselves in error.
Guilty of superstition
Fate can't conceal the blood on our hands.
It is no accident.
When in control...
The terror lives in your eyes.... so is murder.
Superstition gets you nowhere with guilt.
Because guilt is not something you can take for granted.
Guilt implies the body purges the sinner from sin.
When we think of guilt it also implies its meaning; that because we cancel guilt over the shame we feel... only once it has been cancelled. We do not have to take ownership of our guilt.
Psychopathic behavior breaks psychological rules of convention which would result in not caring for a persons safety comfort or well being.
We don't want to feel the guilt nor made to.
BigC at 5:16 PM
Simple version of my thesis stated above is as follows:
No one ever wants or cares to admit they are in the wrong. So they make excuses. We all do. No matter if you consider yourself to be a sinner or not. We all make the same excuse in a lie. Whether or not you agree.
Friday, January 09, 2026
Super Mario lives. 🇨🇦 🇵🇹
This pic brings a tear to my eye and feeling a lump in my throat.
My dad is courageous and did so much for me in caring for his family.
His smile touches my heart like nothing else will.
I am not going to lie about what he means to me. How proud he makes me.
Living in a world from which I've learned from him, he taught me what human conduct is. He exemplifies excellence. What things are and the way things should be... if you work really hard.
He is a leader and does not exhibit this very natural quality.
He is a man of god. He honors...
No matter the obstacles.
No matter the prejudice made againat him..
He stands alone. ❤️
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Thursday, January 08, 2026
Something you lack in talent
January 8th 2011
I make up for a litany of non-recyclable items, such as the minister of the interior, because as long as I can con you into believing I am the innocent one - it's all good, right.
For this most part of my adult life, I've never been so ashamed to be a man i.e. of visionary quality.
Not only are people blind as bats, they've somehow turned a love of wisdom; we now live in an age of esoteric chance.
Gone are those days we thought of beforehand, waiting for it to happen. Instead, the bottomless envy of disparity among living sentients, produced a more clever way of thought, of informing the mind as if a robot of choice agreements, without the retribution or reciprocation into - into a polarity that must be present if anything is to happen.
So here we are stuck in the mud today, together, tomorrow, now and forever. Amen?
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Unfortunately, such bullshitting took place long before the mind can eliminate that unconscious use for polarity in disguising our inner most thoughts.
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For every naturalist sieve... there are, there are, i. un
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Marco Almeida was born and was also raised a Catholic. One day, he realized... Such "self-awareness" discounted a vast field of glowing restraint. Once more. Twice. They don't even know it.
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"Gone are those days we thought of beforehand, waiting for it to happen. Instead, the bottomless envy of disparity among living sentients, produced a more clever way of thought, of informing the mind as if a robot of choice agreements, without the retribution or reciprocation into - into a polarity that must be present if anything is to happen."
Put a copy of this on your bedpost, keeping it as reminder, that you only wish you had wrote it yourself.^
involuntary sounds of discretion
January 8th 2010
This was why. The very reason you suggesting a protest against my better judgment. It wasn't that I didn't care or misunderstand, therefore, you had no right. It became clearer, less clearer, then clear to me again - repeating the same thing's I saw over and over and over in my mind so to speak. How it didn't occur to me, as I shut my eyes, is that by virtue of me alone - never mattered. Like I failed to exist, though something had to have happened in order for me to figure things out in a manner of doing.
I never ceased to realize that, until I became provided with the smallest degree of satisfaction I could think of. And there you have it, voila, the reality of barely keeping up. I manage to stay in the rat race, for no longer than my age, it will not suggest - however. However, the critical point of detail came through to me sooner than I anticipated, it came to me by surprise in fact. I was always someone, that was happy, more than happy, to oblige. From here, you never truly saw me standing there did you, did you ever once. So you got up and left, not even a word goodbye, but knowingly - deliberately making it's grand exit, fast, easy, gone. How sad I was, it became a damaging part of my wounded psychic ability. On my part, it told me not to stay away, but I couldn't help it. I guess this makes me as selfish as you. Not so proud of myself doing that.
This monologue appears not to address, what you really have done, which is my time spent wondering about. Why is it - that I didn't come to you before so I could tell you this face to face. You were always too good for me. It wasn't that I wasn't good enough, - but - that I became. Not good enough. It's so weird, because I could have sworn that something was wrong, only too young and naive to make prior assumptions at the risk of myself losing it. Although I feel right about what I'm saying, the truth still hasn't changed, I am disappointed in myself for not seeing it earlier. You actually caused so much of my buried depression, not to uncover itself. It is inexcusable of me to say it any other way. (Not that I am high on dramaturge.) I was just there - if not for you - in spite of my choice in being there. It's a psyche of the kind you grew immune to me. Under which those same circumstances remained the same, I acquired a noble gesture, which you mistook for it.
I felt the day's going by without a whisper, faint, yet bold. To realize how big I am for saying, you only wanted to know, how much YOU needed me. It never occurred to you any other way. My needs or anyone else's remain trivial unless otherwise. It always came back to me, when forgetting what I abandoned seemed so implausible, yet right at the same time. I have never said, I need, before. I never thought someone would consider me saying that about me. You needed me more than I needed you, sat with me just fine, until I figured I was never aware.
planet earth has no past due date; nor are we its expiration. - Marco
I just figured out why people are full of themselves - so much so that they've no personal renunciation of it.
The first signal that someone tries to cut you off at the knees, they fill out a prescription in their minds. The second time it happens, comes whether or not you're inconveniencing their repressed energy. For shame you knit wits.
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