Real Life

 January 24th 2011

Simply because you have an agnostic attitude against a male person(s), does that constitute that all males are bad people.  More than likely some of us (myself included) do condone a freedom of choice.  However, does that also equate to a lifestyle, of alienating a person based on sexual preference?

 

I am a straight male. 

 

I've noticed on more than one occasion, sexuality based lifestyle choices, carry out stamps of approval.  

 

I feel myself, not being a person privy to another persons sexual orientation i.e. gay lifestyle choices gives me a label of being straight.  Therefore, because I am a straight individual, I automatically stereotype against such variably driven sexuality.

 

I was oblivious to the fact, that there are some woman I am attracted to, completely undermine that I rather be dominant, when in fact - those same women happen to be lesbian.  That unless I was open to being a man of similar next to bi-sexual status, I am just another one of those straight males who only want to dominate the relationship scale.

 

The question for me is, do I really attribute myself to such a type of alienation on a day to day level of existence, nor would I want to.

 

Yet, if I feel that stereotypes placed onto me, (a) I have to asunder, then (b) not to reveal myself as a good standing male, (c) typically under no better circumstances, (d) does that make me a better person who deflects criticism against people's better judgment?  In this case the better judgment of same sex relationships, whether they become attracted to me e.g. follows the next 'conditional . . .that not unless I confirm I am an equal i.e. bi-sexual in orientation, so she can feel safe that all bets are off, she wants no part of me whatsoever even on a basic level of understanding.

 

This has been my unadulterated experience on such experiences I've encountered as they exist within establishing parameters of same sex-relationship models.

 

Same sex relationships, whether or not commitment want no relation subject to dependency of opposite sex members within the community they make a part of.  I find this not only misleading to true long-standing members of the gay community but disingenuous of those which act contrary to popular beliefs.

- Marco

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And if I were to start guessing incorrectly of my self-based opinion, who am I to deprive others of my natural misgiving. Food for thought.

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So I another form of art in sexuality, depriving is the new weapon of deceit. Fuck this world is ridiculous.

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My confabulation {a precipice of true acting ability}

 January 24th 2013

Tonight I really experienced how misunderstood I am as an actor, as this pertains, on my focus as a human being. Transmitting my energy is something of a monumental achievement, it is a source of training my instinct and trusting my intuition through a type of existential need. As this develops, my psychic flow is meant to produce a kind of organically bred inertia. What acting means to me - as it now applies here, takes an informed technique of the mind, it is in a mental embodiment of my will, the state of awareness that my ego is sensitive, fragile, vulnerable to outside forces, rather than containing my fear. Rather than wish for results to take place, I am learning to emote feelings, then forever transforming myself. I know how to transfer the sense of a magical irony taking place that my body performs as real life in a particular fictional sense. This is everything I am working toward. I have so much of these ideas as living proof in my ability, that to the untrained eye simply do not feel its mystery, they experience the birth and behavior which cannot be replaced.

- Marco

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re; the untrained eye

My point here is, how do you know the message you are delivering without revealing something of yourself no one else knows about.

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"I have so much of these ideas as living proof in my ability, that to the untrained eye simply do not feel its mystery, they experience the birth and behavior which cannot be replaced." (MA2013)

The mutability of being a super hero

 January 24th 2013

Last night I was having a conversation with person 'y' about person 'x' that I felt needed attention. The fact I felt bad for person 'x' had to do with person 'x' feelings of despair. I can barely watch person 'x' suffer the way she is, as I have the power to recognize what person 'x' means to me, but from person 'y' perspective was far more curious. Person 'y' said it is better that person 'x' allow her emotions to get the better of her now, because in the future, person 'x' will not have the benefit of the doubt to continue feeling the way person 'x' expresses it. It got me to thinking how we live in such a desensitized world, that from one human being to another, you can say "I do not want you to feel this way anymore, you are special. Please never change this part of who you are.". However, person 'y' I cannot approach in that belief, because it should be common thought - that person 'x' has feelings of her own that she has to deal with. It is very sad we live in a world there is such apathy, especially because you recognize in yourself how you can care for another person. In Western culture, it is unacceptable to show these feelings, when someone of my nature has the power to be aware of another persons sensitivity, and not negatively affect that cause. I can say it is such a bad thing, that we live in a world that is preoccupied with setting boundaries which only alienates the human condition.

I am such a person that does not invent these ideas to promote how usefully ignorant we have become. It is a condition of love that operates in sickness, the world has become immune to.

People are unable to tempt the real sensitivity a person has, then and only then results in how programmed we get - at condoning a secret life of suffering the need to feel loved.

- Marco

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I hate having the knowledge to deal with my depression - because it takes so much energy.

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I wish that if I were struggling, people would feel the courage it takes to see my true colors. Why people fail to realize this about their real nature is a disease the world has become.

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When I refer to this as "my depression" it is a link to the world I find has taken a irresponsible approach to faith in others.

The hunger of pure famine

January 24th 2013 I think of all life as fictional, the sense you get from reading Alice in Wonderland only you are its narrator. Same metaphor applies to real life. When I interact with the world, am I a mere representation of it, what it tells me - is their is no part of a missionary, even though people unconsciously perceive the world they inhabit as missionary to others. That is a false idea. What brings your value to life, is not to be done in a missionary sense, but a sense of looking right at the person you love most. Can you trust that kind of power, in yourself, can you give it freely to something else. Do you have it in you without it even making sense, or have it respond. That is a true feeling of life, and nobody knows it from what I can see. I have to ask myself - what kind of world are we living in. I want to know that, I want to feel the idea in me growing outward, moves inward. People stop themselves from it, and we all suffer - not if you want it badly enough. This is how I recognize myself in the mirror of life, a comet.

- Marco

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I reluctantly share this. I say reluctantly because in a perfect world made of these beliefs, surmount to nothing. I especially condone not judging other people and not knowing the answers to things. The last point made is a hereditary repose, I would smile more often if people understood me better. Why should I accept anything less than that.

I really have a problem with #2, because it is virtually non existent.

re; 'hereditary repose'

What I mean by this is in how I feel secure in my position(hereditary), I can feel relieved about that (repose).

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I think of that as more learning to be psychic and emitting a response from it.

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January 24th 2020

 Are you an actor. As an actor you are always learning or you relearn how to retain information, at the same time you have developed an inert understanding or unlearned recurring habits so that you reinvent yourself in every possible manner your human element demands.

- Marco

Watching the beginning of thought | Krishnamurti

How does one look at memories? | Krishnamurti

My whole being is memory | J. Krishnamurti

Thinking is a reaction to memory | Krishnamurti

How do you receive something that's beyond the mind? | J. Krishnamurti

What is attention if it has nothing to do with thought? | J. Krishnamurti

Is it possible to achieve a constant attention? | J. Krishnamurti

Is awareness beyond time? | J. Krishnamurti

Winking at god without plotting to steal it...

My soul is not a commodity for trading.

My purpose is a truth worthy of understanding.

Philosophy is supported only in anomaly in direct contrast to the language used to convey that the things we investgate carry contradiction. Contesting these contradictions is our cause, to the added effect that in all rendering of what we connect as language, only primordial calculation. We invented wisdom to be born out of our sensation. And out of sensation our intuitive element revealed through language. What we privately view is our sedation of thoughts as a mental picture. What we gather in light of such psychological activities we call ' nature. This is to act phenomenologically.

- Marco 

 What is truth if only non negotiable? Put another way: what is cause vs what is truth acting as false cause. In case of the Trump administration's authoritarian style government is example. This variably verifies how intent works in legal terms and it begs philosophy which arrives at the heart of contradiction.

". . .preserve the rule against retroactive punishment." = makes no sense. It acts as vague. Clearly impartial to what is contingent or may be necessary. - Marco

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freeing Guantanamo

January 23rd 2009 

It came as no surprise to anyone Obama had measured the-first-day as president, to officially announce Guantanamo’s death. Really, it makes for a moral victory of very odd consequence, but it shows the kind of "death" that provides the sign of anti-bush rhetoric underneath. To asunder that the excommunicated prisoners of Guantanamo will have any resourceful means, in order to avenge the Bush administration's ad hoc prison camp are fairly misleading hitherto Obama's strategic counsel will refute. All in all, the many changes that will have to occur, Obama is operating with sound course of action.

musical contradiction

 January 23rd 2010

Disappearance of the tonight show - to it's credit - went out in fashion of a musical. I have to say I was fairly disappointed, that coco legitimized by not offsetting NBC, instead - made himself appear as though it was he who did the apologizing. In fact, it looked more like a stay of execution, rather than an execution itself. I didn't know why he directed such vague commentary, including how younger generation's should reform into less cynical society, where being kind, "only good things will happen." I suppose that's about right, without considering we live, work, in a cynical society altogether. No matter. It was a slow death, but it was different than what I expected, that's all. It wasn't the coco that had fun the past week insulting the network, but whatever. . . the hillite belonged to Neil Young, dressed in a value village shirt, month old jeans which haven't been washed, wearing what looked to be 10 year old foot apparel. How the man never grows old.

Also, I am fairly subdued about communication technologies increasing exhibition of natural disaster, in a 'relief' effort, as if showing the world how suffering seems glamorized. The television medium somehow becomes a literal pause after mentioning the word's to describe people's devastation - really sends a message of some kind. It really bother's me.

The ultimate conception

 If you act as an enemy of truth, you are only stealing from yourself.

If you are not equal to truth, then truth is its own measurement made equal.

The observer informs of what is truthless, truth both being unaware and choicelessly aware contingent to the observed. (Truth becomes message.) If not conceived.

- Marco

 I don't think he is negating. I think he is debunking. Therefore, negating reality means that the soul exists, though not as a construct or means of what can be questioned. (If the soul exists.)

The point is conducive to how we act. In how we believe things to be true or not.

We can either believe in the soul or not. Same thing applies on an internal level only. The eternal is this form over intelligent conduct. It is born out psychologically. First inwardly. = Ultimately outward. Because, we do not live inside of a vacuum. We live to reveal ourselves.

Point: The soul is untouched. Not exchangeable commodity.

- Marco

Oh Be Joyful

Organic psychology

 There is a key misunderstanding between myself and the rest of this world, that Canadian women are the cradle that give my personal beauty some form of truthful meaning in life. She makes me identify with the male ego; unlike the kind of lifeless betterment that she otherwise dispossessed. She creates my reason for living.

- Marco

why is it that - males have yet to feel however inadequate they invest themselves; they'll always be the ones ignoring you, a sexual repression against the better wishes of inferiority.

Canadian women are unspoiled but clandestine examples of their natural way, going about life's ruins,(she has to win) every time she finds herself capable of (winning) ignited under only passionate circumstances. Her bridge in life must be through to her heart, in no troubled manner, in every musical note ever sung to her ears enter her mind without questioning motive, or her trust in confidence over me.

January 22nd 2011

 I absolutely renounce those who remind me; of a contempt for reverse psychology. They use it against my better wishes. They use me for their self-control. Yet I am a genius for it.

So many people try to fake you out of your betterment, fake love is not a good quality people.

I had no idea I had such talent to predict future outcomes.

January 22nd 2011

 Deep down, I cannot think - how I've failed to know so little of myself. Consequen-tially, I sit here above myself, ...Sitting on my laurels.

Until someday other, I quit smiling. I began to realize, the ill regard, or hate-filled contempt which grew over me, became an internalized will. A bloody force of nature, dual to myself worth being doomed from the start.

A type of self-condemnation.

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And it is here of speaking of myself "worth" I.e. Not self-worth

I began to slowly pry my tears out from their alter-ego.

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It is here she deprives the very core of my soul, my well being, it is her wish not my own. It is her mistreating my misunderstood sense.

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It is her vague sense of recall, that undermines herself of existence were she less deprived of her ego; her will to win has developed from her, her nature, her skill.

And boom goes the dynamite

- Marco

January 22nd 2013

 Hollow humbleness is meaningless, hunting for it is in the manner you do things - despite of what you have, then wanting to allow your ability to take over. Point being people that act to be humble have no idea about their truth behind it. > be humble and don't brag or be cocky about what you have or what you can do.

- Marco

Joel 2.28

 

this whole obama_itis thing

 January 21st 2009

what's happening is great to watch, and I am sure it answers the prayers to many in its context. However, watching closely to the obvious it appears there exist so many content on partaking how semi-related they are about a man that is in the oval office. Hopes, dreams, aspirations, those are all such relevant matters to get excited about. Surely the same person who was sworn in today has these interests in mind, but, not if you think for a minute, that those promises are washed behind closed doors. Aside from anticipation, I feel lost trying to gain any little gratitude I may have just to play down all the hype of misfortune.

Yes, rising up to the lesser of cynicism is a great means to an end. *rolls_eyes*

mock trial of obama's oath

 January 21st 2009

After Barack took his anemic attempt in not fulfilling the 'superman' oath as president, had to re-do it today as what's been called cautionary. I suppose being human, without being able to cover that up wasn't trusted enough to convey. Nerves, wanting to be perfect in such a heavenly manner won't make you the next president. Go figure.

 January 21st 2011

In order to achieve anything in this life; an internalized will (false can only be) is maladaptive in her behavior.

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(Cont. Notes on Pascal)

She requires no logic, no limited interpretation, no loss of freedom is earned, no sense in her can withstand such natural tendencies. She will forever be more powerful than your powerlessness. Nor in spite of - not in vain without such much so pure.

(Earls Polo Park - U2 on the radio "with or without you")

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God lives in the form of her body.

(To be you ) is not to bring about her sadness in every opportunity, in every opportunity.

To be you in herself, until the eye departs (her ego) from a false sense of internalized will - an omission of heavens gate.

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Each and every choice of model behavior is so often confused with; as 'leading by example'. If in reality those actions which guide your better judgment, went on forever, or internalized the same will as herself? The same result would break free from her lack of emotional intelligence.

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Even worse - she reveals herself if only upon the inconsistency conducive to other's (trusting/unconditionally) her emotional availability; if you falsify (internalize your own will against her better judgment.).

Then you've completely failed in her due recourse, this is in your better interest toward her end (desire) goal, every single time.

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Each and every choice of model behavior is so often confused with; as 'leading by example'. If in reality those actions which guide your better judgment, went on forever, or internalized the same will as herself? The same result would break free from her lack of emotional intelligence.

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 If crimes being committed on foreign soil, we watch without being compelled to act ourselves, that when innocent people are held as vagrants.

If you follow what happens on a global scale, the architecture of problem solving. As it is terrorized. As it is hijacked and blindfolded, you are being lead into an involuntary revolutionary cause only it is under attack. The model is outdated. These are sacrilegious individuals that cling to their power. They accumulate wealth and act as if you are inferior. They cry about socialism being evil and unprofitable.

Mirror the capitalist dogma. We'll all be fine. Getting something for nothing = absurd.

It is better to be a slave. (I am captivated to have purged upon myself as one.) Maybe beyond questioning what is faith, what is death, what is it to be or not to be.

This is what I am. This is what people see. They see me. (As irrelevant.) And it doesn't bother me. Why, because I take other things more seriously - it's about pretending what they don't acknowledge. That a rule is broken. All because you failed to take me seriously.

To perform as a slave is obvious. (Proof: Only to god in my private nature am I a slave.) That's all that matters. I will die knowing, knowing that the light I see is the same as someone else's. The mystery of doing philosophy each and everyday. Until death comes. That is my idea of living the good life. Aligning with the cosmos and counting stars as they are born in my private eye. Through language and the worst of my enemies unknown to me. This is why I express what I do. To make myself aware within my inner self. Using words. Words forming in my head become poetry. It takes a wounded soul to master.

Philosophy to me sounds lost to most of an audience not ready to hear it. Read it. (Not to Decipher from what is good.)

To be good in itself. (Is object.)

Philosophy, once made you illiterate to most others illiterate of it. The secret to life is that simple. You comprehend something immediately. It stays with you for life. So I feel I have produced the maximum amount for the maximum good. The secret is found in maximizing what is good. And the mixture of being somewhere else in life, that the idea emerges right in front of you. This is what I call literature. Yes, literature. But not, however, if you think the answer is the slave in me. Maybe some time before you thought you knew me. I presented myself as only a slave (you took my psychology for granted) because I fought to look normal. Because psychologically in this we all are doing the same thing, only in different ways.

- Marco

Cosmic placement

 

January 20th 2020

Any idea that exists as an inferiority complex is a bad one. That is a good rule of thumb to live by especially when dealing with class conscious individuals that base their identity and identify with reality unequally. •●°●●°● Marco

Words of shelter

 What is thinking?

Truth. Truth is not to be plagiarized. It is to be copied (spoken in form). It is the ultimate in flattery. MA2025

“Even if we could turn back, we'd probably never end up where we started.”

― Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

Intiition (subverting reality) vs Sensation (Fantasy)

 Monday, January 20, 2025

The psychological attunement (subverting reality)

Subverting reality doesn't come together by accident (language put into meaning = assigning meaning to language.)  Subverting reality should be something uncomfortable not awkward,  not absurd yet obscure, uncharacteristic of action.

You are not (theoretically) subverting your-own-reality. The subversion of reality takes the place of meaning.

Meaning into language.

To reach a truthful place of meaning, you are assigning words - acting as unconnected signifiers to convey your truth of the words. What is it you try doing... is using  unconnected signifiers in order to assign the words meaning

The result is an element of obscurity.  It is because of the words you've assigned meaning to account for persuasion.

In short, you reach words to combine as result of, of an, anomaly. An anomaly once the words are assigned meaning provided, provides meaning as an emotive relapse.  All in relation to it.

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January 20th, 2026

All acting (psychology) is - is in subverting reality (intuition) in exchange for fantasy. (Sensation)

How do I live in my body?

Threatening Welfare in its historical context (prehistory is changing.)

 January 19th 2011

If one were to internalize 'gods will' as if subjected to traces of false ideals; what then are the ideals which are truly false.

- Marco

So - then you have a false idea of gods will, a false sense of internalizing the world around you. What good comes of this, in such indiscriminate followers, those who know not right from wrong, nor the wrong from which those false ideals incurred upon them.

The absurdity among an internalized false sense, of god, of her pride over you, of her thoughts, become an instinct over your own probability.

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Therefore as corrupted a mentality, as her way of not seeing 'false'; what is true of god is not true of herself then so on. Unfortunately, we live in a world of trivial misconception, we internalize, false wealth over capital, false expenditure over wealth becoming internalized.

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This indefinitely answers the misguided are those of PW I.e. Pascal's wager, that god has falsified judgment of an agnostic capability on no real continuum. A reprieve of those thoughts, were they falsified to be condemned for those thoughts. Pascal was a champion of cause over effect, god not being of primary focus but to aide the intensity of a falsified world ruled by false internalized intention.

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David Robert Jones

Pascal was a brilliant mathematician, but his Wager, taken at a surface level (it was important in some more nuanced ways), was meaningless.

Basically the Wager itself is useless to any rational thinker but it helped influence for instance probability theory.

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Marco Almeida

Tell me if I were in need of some aided circumstance, purely on a parallel universe which I could prove to you exists. From that point of view, I would take preference over magic any day.

Ultimately, Pascal knew that she could not refuse she that cannot think. Reason being, if SHE believes in something more so than the rational thinker, it is from Pascal's point of reference, that she's made a decision for him (Pascal.) Pascal is saying: here is her example of god, and because I do not have gods will, I must be oblivious to it. So for some reason unknown to me, she must believe I have internalized her own will to satisfy that need.

So for every post modern belief, there must be a term for it, but what if there were a lack of conventional wisdom in the war time (before or during such moral upheaval.) What then accounts for it?

I would say Pascal had it right, that you all "may as well believe God exist." But then he would also say you forgot to rethink, you settled internalized dogma. He's basically saying the wager never ends; rational thinking takes dogmatic shifts.

Then you get the baby-rattlers spewing out "oh - you cop out on the god quotient to get a good deal" therefore, selling short of it. Pfft. Pascal is essentially saying not to do that himself, but gives us the theoretical viewpoint to make such accusation against the lack of better judgement. People who use the baby-rattle argument (^as I pointed out) are simply in over their heads with hot water. They have next to no idea, they've used a context Pascal himself intended on.

"I couldn't really understand that. But it sounded like the work of a genius." - David Robert Jones (circa 2011)

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David Robert Jones

I still don't understand how someone can decide whether or not to believe something based on some possible reward. The idea completely undermines the idea of belief naturally following from the presence of evidence. And I do believe the question of god is entirely subject to reason. But you believe Pascal wasn't saying that?

Marco Almeida

Yes - but also to be considered, is that equally, (yes - 'equally') the truth about 'reward' can only happen WITHOUT using it as a bargaining chip. I.e. Think about it as what we do to communicate through questions and answers REQUIRES CONDITIONAL recourse. Pascal is stating his case IN FAVOR of truth seeking rationalist behavior, tendancies etc. ALL @ the expense of those that internalize dogma of 'if god will do this for me, it will make it right. Therefore, I believe in god - so you may (should) as well.'

Pascal is the EXACT opposite of popularist believers who accuse Pascal's Wager of secularization.

And yes Dave - Pascal is in fact saying the existence of god in it's entirety is subject due to reason, that main premise applies the moment that voice of 'you may as well believe in god' comes up. It filters it out, which is what Pascal's narrative implies from the beginning. In order to promote free thinking, first - you must be aware of those which falsely internalize.

^Those are the people in PW who falsely internalize gods will, as result, (falsely) a) conditional provided ergo b) will never have an answer for you.

To my tio (uncle) Anibal Martins: you were right all along, when people of your own heritage belittled you, for no better reason than to purge what intention came from your heart. I am here to finally, condone your actions of no ulterior capacity, avenge your name - finish what you started with my purpose of sane refusal. Let it be my right, to their wrongs, the heart of a lion.