How do I look

Do you pass virtue without seeking judgment.
The safest distance between us.
I guessed wrong so what happens to me now,
what's suppose to happen next.
I had almost saved her life...
Although now it's the silence that's different.
How honest the effort.
How comforting the approach.
How appealing that step forward.
Count me out.
Such novelty.
The noble lie.
Please - please -  please
Don't count me out.
It's all kept buried inside me.