Reputation of anomalies

In this sea of self-doubt;
I sense new founded respect?
Probably,
only because of "the place"
that makes it embarrassing to watch!
Like swimming lessons I was taught,
through my own determination and perseverance.
Of a dispatched ambition, behaves.
From altered mind, heart
of body, birth of soul.
Afraid not to look back, -
my spirit in saving face
a hopelessed romantic solution.
- The sublime color of octopus,
busied in emotion, hurried in time.