If faith hope and love were to make all things a model of ourselves in the universe, all things rational would be either irrefutable and vaguely impossible. We don't deserve things that are plastic. We deserve things which already are.

-Marco

 Super conductor:

In all circumstances - there is a world that unfairly divides itself, ones virtue is the one thing that holds you back. 1- Find your virtue, you have nothing else to worry about. 2- Is that an event or a fact, 3- is thinking an event or a fact. 4- Can you factually think the truth, or do you (a) rely on the truth (b) defying what is evidence of actuality. 5- When you think (c) about what is actual, the whole world seems different.

Forget what is factual, because what is fact - does not mean its true.

- Marco

My choice of verdict

January 1st 2013 

I have never been one to inflate the nature of my self-concept, and I am a lot different today than I have ever been before, some people simply do not recognize it.  Now, I look in the mirror, I can say that I have always been the same person.  So too, as others have addressed their kind of judgments based on something, that to them no longer exists.  I feel a lot more sensitive to my self-interest, then I have ever before.  

 

 

The question is why, why - why have I been so unimpressed to those that know nothing of themselves.  

 

If I am capable of seeing, what is fascinating to me, the past happens because none of it was intentional.  How does one correct themselves from being incapable of something.

 

That all, to me, means a great deal.

 

For me to feel the gravity of this portrait I am in, as if being painted onto a canvas, my true colors never were concealed.  The colors used to establish my sense of self, I was perhaps made unaware of.  So, the day I began my own transformation is what I am in search of.  That most of all, my very real nature was ever meant to be captured.  This would not be an accurate portrait of myself if I were to look at it.

 

So my belief all along was not to establish my sense of self-concept, but to observe myself, in learning how I act in the world around me.  This is what gives me great pleasure.

 

Remember, I did not say how TO behave, or how I MUST act properly: what I said was how I have learned to act in the world around me in no specific detail. That is my true choice of verdict.  It is a question of character.

 

I rebound my intentions - carefully.  Some people are clever in not reacting to matters of the heart, so they become professionals at it.  I never use to second guess the nature I felt in me, I think I am much the same as everyone else.  The trouble is, that not everyone else practiced unconditional nature.  Not rebounding intentions turns out to be a skill, but an improper skill at best.  I am sure of it.

 

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Nothing quite better than waking up this New Years Day to my best friend in bed with me, (and by that I mean the dog), after a night spent eating Chinese Food, which all good signs of fortune telling come from, are no longer predictable as its year previous. At this point in time, here sitting in between years separated only by virtue of itself, is an unspoiled dinner in stale air dried frozen, (leftover chinese food from the year before) sitting on the edge of its time's now pale interests, that this year compared to last now just a shadow of its former self. What are the new disguises, which will less happier people choose, feel must they wear - seeing as how their unmet needs, are not so that this coming year then can save them from the last. Save them from another year of a false meditative quality, that they fake being held out to despair, false hope, and inequity.

 

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I dare say, that represents my dedication to a duty done in secret. I am not one that will fake my happiness, due to the shallow ignorance of others that care to join.

 

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In all circumstances - there is a world that unfairly divides itself, ones virtue is the one thing that holds you back. 1- Find your virtue, you have nothing else to worry about. 2- Is that an event or a fact, 3- is thinking an event or a fact. 4- Can you factually think the truth, or do you (a) rely on the truth (b) defying what is evidence of actuality. 5- When you think (c) about what is actual, the whole world seems different.

 

Forget what is factual, because what is fact - does not mean its true.

 It is more important I reinvent myself, than on reinventing others.

- Marco

there is a place between respect. There are some you need respect from. There are others you simply - do not. Such is life.

there is a place between respect. There are some you need respect from. There are others you simply - do not. Such is life.

there is a place between respect. There are some you need respect from. There are others you simply - do not. Such is life.

Lincoln

 I find this most intriguing. > "The Proclamation did not compensate the owners, did not itself outlaw slavery, and did not make the ex-slaves (called freedmen) citizens. It made the eradication of slavery an explicit war goal, in addition to the goal of reuniting the Union." http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emancipation_Proclamation

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‎"Therefore, it was the act of genocide (Lincoln's strategic boundaries had been set) within its legal parameters, its use of force to be justified, that in its form is prejudicial of the Emancipation Proclamation." (MA2013)

 

Lincoln knew that martial law would be granting the Confederate's their right to defend only themselves, thus, queuing his own governments demands - would make Lincoln guilty of genocide.

 

"If Lincoln's true purpose was to abolish slavery, he would have acted through the use of force, which he does not specify is a cause of the Emancipation Proclamation." (MA2013)

 

^Lincoln himself (if not unaware) knows, that slaves should be part of its own rebellion against the Confederates. Therefore, the only way Lincoln would stabilize the Union, he as president, would be to grant an ad hoc freedom FROM SLAVERY. This follows that Lincoln in all due respect, knew he was not giving freedom to a group of minorities that were being oppressed. 

 

What if: the minority of slaves could somehow FIGHT AGAINST SLAVERY. In essence, slaves were not going to be given the right to protect themselves from being oppressed out of slavery. Lincoln simply prevented rebellion from happening. Making slavery illegal is not the same as acting based on revolution. The Confederates were not fighting to legalize slavery, they were fighting so they would not be persecuted as slave masters. Confederates were acting as outlaws, of which Lincoln was not about to enable, also reflects Lincoln's inaction on the basis of martial law.

 

If Lincoln would have given absolute freedom BASED on FREEING slaves, in the form of acting against his own government. The intent was to give the Confederates enough cause, they would not have war waged over its own freedom. The main purpose of the Confederate assault, was to condemn slaves, removing slaves from having any chance at having rights PROTECTED. (i.e. protected under law) 

 

The Emancipation Proclamation is Lincolns mercy rule, that gave the Confederates an apartheid. (i.e. its probable cause was removed from existence.) The legalization of slavery is now deemed as trivial in that lost sense of freedom.

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"The Fugitive Slave Act of 1850 required individuals to return runaway slaves to their owners. During the war, Union generals such as Benjamin Butler declared that slaves in occupied areas were contraband of war and accordingly refused to return them.[25] This decision was controversial because it implied recognition of the Confederacy as a separate nation under international law, a notion that Lincoln steadfastly denied. As a result, he did not promote the contraband designation. Some generals also declared the slaves under their jurisdiction to be free and were replaced when they refused to rescind such declarations."

 

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"If there be those who would not save the Union, unless they could at the same time save slavery, I do not agree with them. If there be those who would not save the Union unless they could at the same time destroy slavery, I do not agree with them. My paramount object in this struggle is to save the Union, and is not either to save or to destroy slavery. If I could save the Union without freeing any slave I would do it, and if I could save it by freeing all the slaves I would do it; and if I could save it by freeing some and leaving others alone I would also do that. What I do about slavery, and the colored race, I do because I believe it helps to save the Union; and what I forbear, I forbear because I do not believe it would help to save the Union. . . . I have here stated my purpose according to my view of official duty; and I intend no modification of my oft-expressed personal wish that all men everywhere could be free."

 

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^This is a brilliant view of a Red Herring. Lincoln does confirm himself as an abolitionist. Lincoln's use of persuasion, in making a point that he will not sacrifice the allegiance of his military. That directly contradicts everything the Proclamation of Emancipation would gather. He has to be careful, because he would be declaring war on his own country. The law that as it were, being passed into congress, made Lincoln legally take action against the Confederate's. Lincoln is essentially using a Red Herring to say he is not about to declare war on its own people. In doing so, Lincoln would be promoting martial law. This Red Herring is typical use of government made policies, to enable the Emancipation Proclamation. Therefore, it was the act of genocide (Lincoln's strategic boundaries had been set) within its legal parameters, its use of force to be justified, that in its form is prejudicial of the Emancipation Proclamation. The fact Lincoln made this a matter of race against race, quite simply, does not relinquish the objective Lincoln had. If Lincoln's true purpose was to abolish slavery, he would have acted through the use of force, which he does not specify is a cause of the Emancipation Proclamation. If he declares martial law, has Lincoln not given the right to declare war on its own people, giving full apartheid (i.e. The confederate movement) the advantage. 

 

We are living in a world of mock apartheid today. The Emancipation Proclamation does nothing to protect the rights of minorities, it clearly represents an apartheid which is legalized.

 

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Apartheid: A policy or system of segregation or discrimination on grounds of race.

 

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"This Red Herring is typical use of government made policies, to enable the Emancipation Proclamation. Therefore, it was the act of genocide (Lincoln's strategic boundaries had been set) within its legal parameters, its use of force to be justified, that in its form is prejudicial of the Emancipation Proclamation." (MA2012)

 

^What that means in its EXACTITUDE, is the Confederate's were implementing martial law on behalf of the US government. If Lincoln were to admit that the Confederate's were a legitimate government funded institution, it would remove all cause from his authority over it. Think about it, the Confederate's were no longer "rebels" but were to be known as cohorts, to install the Emancipation only LEGALIZED APARTHEID (think of Israel today) without 1- the use of law enforcement against 2- itself government, which 3- the government essentially was: 4- a warfare based genocide. This only proves that a means against a minority acts as an apartheid.

 

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^Slave masters were compensated on grounds of losing their assets, (i.e. Misappropriation) essentially they were being "refunded" for the slave trade.

 RT: "Wallowing on the past is a huge mistake." > Not true. Looking at the past without intended sarcasm involved is a huge mistake.

 This is what I call a cold sense of optimism, to what all true meditative quality stands. > "There is a fatality about all good resolutions. They are invariably made too soon."

-- Oscar Wilde

^There is nothing worse than false optimism, and nothing better than the skill at recognizing it.

 January 1st 2013

Nothing quite better than waking up this New Years Day to my best friend in bed with me, (and by that I mean the dog), after a night spent eating Chinese Food, which all good signs of fortune telling come from, are no longer predictable as its year previous. At this point in time, here sitting in between years separated only by virtue of itself, is an unspoiled dinner in stale air dried frozen, (leftover chinese food from the year before) sitting on the edge of its time's now pale interests, that this year compared to last now just a shadow of its former self. What are the new disguises, which will less happier people choose, feel must they wear - seeing as how their unmet needs, are not so that this coming year then can save them from the last. Save them from another year of a false meditative quality, that they fake being held out to despair, false hope, and inequity.

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"What are the new disguises, which will less happier people choose, feel must they wear - seeing as how their unmet needs, are not so that this coming year then can save them from the last. Save them from another year of a false meditative quality, that they fake being held out to despair, false hope, and inequity." (MA2013)

^I dare say, that represents my dedication to a duty done in secret. I am not one that will fake my happiness, due to the shallow ignorance of others that care to join.

thanks facebook

 January 1st 2011

First entry.  I waste no time - then.

 

Knowing who your real friends are, to me, experience became such a blessing.  I've been able to meet people, that likewise, have given me such new found spirit to connect with.

 

I am starting to live my life in a way, conducive, to the human experience, within the same parameters of my true self.

 

That these are people I have their back to mine.

 

Literally speaking, I feel invigorated, devout to my style and personality of choice, which is not to speak of my own personal suffering up to the minute. . . any such longer.

 

I will admit, invariably on a level of discretion and accord, that those who have changed without seeing me.  Those are the types who I am no longer prisoner of, taken if taken for granted, I mistook their better judgement for false inhibitions used against my better half (of self).

 

To that regard, I ended my losing streak long ago, into an age of sobriety - without the fear of temperamental judgement past my due date. 

 

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Tonight I unexpectedly saw the same faces which turned to reveal themselves (more so) as noble enemies.  It's funny how my god works in wonder.

 

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I saw love of people that accepted me unconditionally, who I only just met not so long ago, and this angel cast light which glowed on my soul.

 

I think to it now, she really gave me a reason to care.  The first time that has ever happened to me, because a friend wanted me - me Marco to care about her.  I did with rainbows.

 

At the end of the night, I noticed some who mistook my 230lbs massive frame, to invite them as some kind of violent act were to take place.  Gang bangers I call them.

 

I walked right past them, I sat down, not on a moments notice. . . 

 

Marco: (saying. . .) I will call the cops the moment you try anything.

 

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At that point they let their guards down, they knew they made themselves all to obvious.  I would not oblige them.  I told them I wanted no part of the recourse.  Nor did I make my efforts to dismiss them impartial or just simply rhetorical.  

 

They didn't bother with any red flags, because I didn't send any there way.

 

You see my peeps, I simply carry a message, one that takes thinking, involves romance, and ends with 'KNOWING WHO YOUR REAL FRIENDS ARE.'

 

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I've never needed violence to provoke myself into a fight.   I've never considered fighting a mans way of passage.  (i.e. right of passage - )

 

I simply do no honor in taking away from someone, the much - much finer layers of my persona to bare witness.

 

That is why I loved playing football, because I didn't have to worry about being violent, I always - always put intelligence ahead of competitive stamina.

 

Do I look like a football player - yes I do.  Does it matter that my ego doesn't get in the way?  Tonight proved I wasn't about to let that happen.

 

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(end scene.)

 I believe in this. I don't need to feel that god makes us holy. I am holy by virtue of my imagination before what it festers about god. In my petfect state of mind, I feel present in what gods revelations are. Christ's crucifixion is all I need to give me strength. We must go back to the church to reclaim his name.... in modern day. We are human not animals that destroy the name of god. This is where we are.

I don’t lie. The truth informs us.

- Marco