This guy I know stepped out of his limousine ride, he’s a gangster in love. He usually goes to a watering hole, the local pub. I’m a bartender there. The pornographer I also serve is sitting in the same place she always does. When the gangster in love arrived, he sat down next to her. After some conversation, the gangster in love left, and the pornographer told me what he said. He was in an accident. When the gangster in love was younger, he looked death in the face and he survived. He asked me what is pornography like. I didn’t know how to respond, and then he left. The problem is I want someone like you. You don’t have a clue of who I am do you. But I wouldn’t just sleep with you. It’s ridiculous to get high on someone, when they’re only interested in having sex with you. The porn industry isn’t like that.

Do people believe that the spirit of god is responsible for their sins? In my world… there’s a false perception of the belief in God. I subject my own judgment of how people generally receive my information as a sign that tells.

Both of my parents show me why the meaning of god exists in the universe.

People that have a different view of myself, use to know me as extremely outgoing.

Today, I walked out of my therapy with Dr. Gordon with a question I couldn’t answer. Dr. Gordon made me realize that my history of sexual abuse, and being in a tragic car accident where I was injured.

The fact that I’ve been able to block the effects of these incidents out of my mind takes a lot of my energy.

Counterfeiting Safety

Take it easy, but take it… let it go.
Throw it away.

The misspelling of words,
What if god had not spelled a word incorrectly?
Say he made a spelling error…
And in the mistake, hadn’t made the earth perfectly.
Without making a spelling mistake, would a mistake in spelling had made the earth?

Wouldn’t a misspelled word change everything that god himself intended?
Could god misspend our very cradle of truth and justice?
Should the miscarriage of our misdealt hand, the hands of god even screwed up?
How perfect are we in his image… our own image that god created was because of poor spelling! That the cause of our misery!!

The Signature of Ownership

Am I becoming more in touch with my feminine side? As a result, the goals I’ve had in life… are clearer then before.

I have an acting device made.

I’m far less complicated and better aware. I’m more sensitive to my surroundings. I feel in touch with my true inner and outer being.

The fears I used to have haven’t disappeared. They are a part of who I truly am.

My emotions are filled with the light of god, and my shadows are a weight of gold that shines, glistens as a diamond that blisters brilliantly in the sun.

I collect my memories as a symbol of my youth and vitality. There are both ‘good’ memories as there are ‘bad’.

My recollections are to provide something in return for a deeper understanding, a meaningful experience, or spiritual existence.

I work for myself in the cause. Everyone is a case of whispering secret thoughts. As bold as my beauty holds!!

The defense mechanism is brought under the wing and I spread my wings to fly!

We all have our moment in the sun. I was raped as a child. I'm not afraid to admit that as I've been afraid to in the past. I rather share it. Does that make me a mental case? Perhaps, I feel time will take care of the wounds I already healed.

Always cheer for the underdog.



Your favorite team might lose.



I’m in no great need of supply.



I’m not being demanded.



I have no commands.



Inside the voice listen silent.



An older man I see… now is everything I always wanted to be!

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful worldas it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

Trust in the LORD with all your heartand lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways acknowledge him,and he will direct your paths.

Proverbs 3, 5-6

Lord, bless me with a woman whom I save myself for.

Someone whom is special in her words, smile, and in heart.

To my family I pray for our departure into heaven, that we spend our eternity together.

My aunt and grandmother, I pray for longevity and the richness of health.

Amen.

Today is mother's day.

If I don't believe that what I know exists... I put my faith in the hands of god.

Last night, I went to a club. Today I awoke from my sleep, and I saw my beautiful mom.

Gestalt and Epistemology

I’ll admit…
I’m learning something ‘new’ as I had called in to work sick for the first time.
For the first time in my life I felt liberated.