The sorry act of pleasure

I have reasons for the person I have become today. I have changed radically so. Through all this I have grown immune to the false interpretations out there around me. I am brilliant, sexy, charming. I don't need the validation or chauvinistic discourse to people.

My life has been altered. As result my friends that use to know me, never knew the real me. I use to harness that model and hate myself for the wrong reasons. Now I realize how much I I've changed means I'm better aware of myself. Without regard for status being upheld.

I use to believe that change meant friends really never made the effort required. Now I realize it's my bad. I risked making changes even if friends decided not to recognize it. I am different now. The changes I have made no longer express who I once was.


It's made me clairvoyant. Sophisticated even. I don't own a thing in life. You do not need those things. I act as charitable. To a fault. Now the challenge is uncertain to me. I have no idea that this self discovery would enable me as it has. Now I feel a sense of added renewal.

If this side of me is not recognized I no longer deserve discredit. Unless my aims are met.

December 2018