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February 7th 2013

I have never felt so dejected as on this night, of which clued into my own life. It is this time I have since realized remains symbolic of me.

I do not know when it all started, what I can suggest is this: that through my self interest, provides me dissatisfaction.

It all happened in a circle, where I see the equivalent of Beavus and Butthead, what in the 90's were abnormal looking caricatures named as the characters. It is rather disheartening to be witness to such flagrant stupidity. That cure in my mind, to be adept in the art of reasoning which is chocolate or chocolate milk - because neither tastes the same as the other. After some deliberation, one of the cartoons insist that chocolate milk is the correct answer.
The problem is, what do we know is the taste of chocolate milk. All we know is the consistency of the flavor has its expiration date, to which it is no longer valid. So, the great trouble in solving this puzzle, never really had a fair examination.

This is where I encountered a person, that this person forbid the use of its name neither 'him' or 'her' - just a person of no equal or lesser importance.

The next person requires description as a monopoly figure; not the kind of thing you pay attention to everyday.

Through this emotional containment, there is a projection involving no real source of words, just a reality present, where the kind of things that you think about are never real.

This is where I discovered how bad I feel about myself. That through the course of this dilemma, the most unnatural of paranoia, its been said, I have brought something to life much louder than the eye can see. There is a place, where I sense prevalent or profound, its manner that no one else feels where a sacred seed has been planted.

This is to allow the forgiving nature of anything less than its kind. That is the only rule.

All this follows is one simple question: can you think of the one thing that possess courage over you. If you answer that correctly, you have made it a greater sacrifice of yourself.

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The moral of this is in my next source of words these ideas create, as they manifest over time.

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How much courage must you possess, to truly allow another person to hold you safely in their arms. Is there such a thought that crossed your mind, if even at random. Does that same person attract you whole hearted. If you open your eyes, you will see the amount of it in shatters. If you seek it in your heart, you will feel the empathy it takes, that resonates. If you radiate honesty.

Those are skills of the heart, against darker forces of nature.
I have lived to see the kind of things most do not attempt to. Can you search for the truth, in its most vulnerable state. How do you know it. Why did you.

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I really like this definition of a "Growth Fostering Relationship"- One in which empathy is experienced freely and without shame; a relationship in which two individuals are growing and developing together. It is also one in which there is mutuality. This does not mean a balance of power, but rather a commitment by both parties to be impacted by one another (Jordan, 1991)

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Marco Almeida

I have no idea what should that mean, as I feel, I am an open book when it comes to such ideology. The point that needs to be made (which is not addressed) is that people driven with such motives do not exist. If they do exist, they are hardly aware of it. It is a qualitative view of life in terms of being found if at all. There is a lot left to be desired in what truly acts as sacred. People fake this notion of reality. Therefore, they are good at faking it, conveniently put themselves into that situation pretend as if it happens.

To find a person with such powerful insight is a rarity to combine it with less than superficial values. What that tells you, is people abandon the thought of truly selfless cause, more often retreat from it.

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I have known this all along. There is no greater truth that people fail to live.

"Don't aim at success. The more you aim at it and make it a target, the more you are going to miss it. For success, like happiness, cannot be pursued; it must ensue, and it only does so as the unintended side effect of one's personal dedication to a cause greater than oneself or as the by-product of one's surrender to a person other than oneself. Happiness must happen, and the same holds for success: you have to let it happen by not caring about it. I want you to listen to what your conscience commands you to do and go on to carry it out to the best of your knowledge. Then you will live to see that in the long-run—in the long-run, I say!—success will follow you precisely because you had forgotten to think about it." ― [Viktor E. Frankl]

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1- Through this emotional containment, there is a (a) projection involving no real source of words, (b) just a reality present, (c) where the kind of things that you think about are never real.

2- The moral of this is in my next source of words these ideas create, as they manifest over time.

3- If you radiate honesty.

^All of this is existential. If you can radiate honesty, your nature of morality manifest over time. Then, revert yourself through a-b-c.

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I dedicate this entry to my sister, Marta Vodrey. And my family in Vancouver.

 February 13th 2013

I understand not everyone has to think the same as I do, what I cannot accept is that my epistemology is rejected on no uncertain terms. This is what separates me from people that generalize everything in life, when it is a critical amount of forethought that is required, displacing those values. - Marco

I love the way people dismiss me that at times, they judge you based not on what you feel, but how you think, then pretend not to exist so to act as if they have. - Marco

This describes the notion of life long hypocrites.^

Freedom in ethics according to Spinoza

 Most accurate definition for freedom I have come across. What is freedom, defined.

- Marco

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 “To be rooted is perhaps the most important and least recognized need of the human soul.”

–Simone Weil

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Being rooted is the first and the all of what is.  Philosphy itself stems for 'root' = cause.

- Marco

consummatum est

 Hamlet essay on revenge

"when he refuses to “seem,” when he turns language into irony and excess, he rejects the entire grammar of political authority in general"

I live my life this way what is illustrated in the quote above as shown.

From this it would appear that we all have some form of identity crisis. Life may keep hidden underneath the surreptitiously unknown purview for ourselves. That is to say: Hamlet is a genuine genius. He operates from the core of his passions. No one is the wiser. Otherwise, why would we care about the story if at all.

Ultimately, our own understanding of the common good (commonality) of an identity crisis, would not yield the same results. Because, let's face it, if Hamlet by today's regulated day and age of measured response, the narrative would be lost on Shakespeare's audience. The triviality or purpose would undermine logically taking medication, seeking psychiatric help, and the audience would only be wondering where is Hamlet? (Not coinciding with his lost cause.) Not that revenge is a 'lost cause'. Revenge itself is the aristocratic rule the play itself demonstrates as cause. The defiance being that (as I mentioned on the onset of this) that genius rises above the cause of law to protect.

In reality, the same Hamlet cannot be realized.

The context of an identity crisis, philosophically = cause for suicidal ideation. We can say Hamlet went mad, turned astray, and in today's day and age made headlines.

Food for thought.

- Marco

Hi - plato

February 6th 2011

Because your metaphysical implications denote mental embodiment of a future reclaiming to ourselves, there are a few things worth mentioning here.

First offering a story about how much we own you since then.

The time material implication arose out of nothing, came soon after Aristotle, before he made you even more famous using his model of reason.

Now that we are able, we can rethink much more clearly upon the factuality of which we know them.

Perhaps one day you will find the truth in all of this.

Pure reason can only tell one thing: that one thing from itself (irregularity) cannot apply your wisdom lack thereof.

Finally, and without noticing simply just how feable minded you are, all those things that surround you in place of freedom surrendering to your cave, you retreated. You called them figments of your imagination. Therefore, persecution was always has and always will be.

You forgot one thing, plato.

That the future holds your lies.

That lawyers are idiots too.

That judges confuse logic, by twisting her own mind.

And then we have it - anamoly of your toothless aims.

How about a syllogism that Aristotle wanted (probably) inspired in spite of himself.

You are an arse.
If you are an arse, therefore 'a'.
Therefore, you are an arse.

I made that up myself.

The minute it all came crashing down on you.

Everything eventually fell right back into place, again, then - came the obvious choice.

To feel how troubled, or insipid the nature of a duality.

We refer to it as fiction since your work.

Oh how the wicked will fall in line, how true - how very ruthless of you.

Now Plato - it is mine.

All mine.

hahahahaha

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To think that this guy actually wrote the story of Euthyphro as an underlying current, to resurrect Plato, in light of being a character more ruthless he could search for truth unwillingly? Euthyphro proves the fucking idiot Plato was, still is, way before he milked it to undermine the world which we now live in.

That bastard fuck.

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And really this is just to teach people, spineless are not thoughts, they are words which that fucker himself would readily dismiss, would readily impose, would readily inflate his ego with. Without whichever method you take.

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And for those of us that care about analogous (analogy) situation, when saying, Plato sought revenge against Socrates (revenge) is double jeopardy. To suggest the nature subject to law, should impose or implement, the very core of philosophy are false ideals (which no one realized until today placed Plato further ahead of his time - putting standard of information in place of truth.)

Socrates had it right the whole time.

Yet - Plato had superimposed the nature of the will as Socrates suicidal state, when the true unspoiled nature of law, became completely blurred in the process of dichotomy from pure reason itself.

To suggest Plato ¤ had (for this example:) examined the law based on a philosophy of deceit or impartiality, is nothing less than an understatement. It is more about providing the same criminal to his double, with ingrate lawyers - legally procuring war, fascism, genocide, all for the wrongfully accused purpose of providing such criminal activity with state intervention.

The same can be said of a persons experience with taking hostage, what we are blind to, others (of course) taken for granted. The same can be said for Socrates - wrongfully taking the hemlock disposing the poison in himself as a suicidal truth claim. In effect, the same can be said, it took the law to rape you, with the intention of a lie (refute nobility of law) now replace it with noble freedom. The noble lie Plato had taught, defends a hostage taking, a rapist, and corruption against malpractice lawyers.

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And if Plato were himself not to confess, purge¤ or alter the purpose of his own intention, requires no intervention whatsoever. Only inquisition on the merit of strict obligation; to inquire a false intention of lawyers deception, control or manipulation of the laws.

A judge once thought she was so brilliant, she told me I should stop acting too cute for her to like me. Imagine that.

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That idiot actually wanted me to perceive knowledge (my) as a threat. Talk about moral cowardice, Pascal was absolutely right on the money (fucking unbelievable).

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Socrates knew the entire time, he died unwittingly through using pure logic, he knew, that fucker knew the Jekyll and Hyde routine would not allow Plato's escape plan.

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Double jeopardy in point form.^

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^The entire scripture above as annotated...

© Marco Almeida 2011

How do we make the mind see :: Krishnamurti

How does the mind see - Krishnamurti 

The mental abortion of psychic hero :: abandonment as if orphaned

 Wrote this just now thinking about (what I think,) being an artist means to me in the long run. This follows: as somewhat of my personal mission statement.

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Normalcy is about evading our true emotion for what we don't really feel, rather than go through a process of learning, something - instead... we internalize, edit the truth, then we act in accordance to rule based behavior. We are content in psychologically killing ourselves. Also, this is in reality is the price we pay in exchange for a fake experience. (We act on superstition out of a fear based response, that we are being judged.) Your inner life is suppressed forever. So the roles we mask ourselves as is the consequence of being a psychological slave, rather than a servant to: an endless beginning.

Marco Almeida 2025

- The Peg

tear-drops in careful application

 February 5th 2010

Cnd pm S.Harper:

"I think it also says something about the character. Hockey is a fast, aggressive, tough sport and that's an important part of the Canadian psychology and history. It's sometimes forgotten because Canadians are thought of as peace-loving and fair-minded and pleasant -- which I think we are -- but that's not inconsistent with tough and aggressive and ambitious, which is also part of the national character."

I have never been one to debase myself, around the notion, of a need to know basis.

I suppose that can be true of juxtaposition, when sitting right there hovering above, is a visceral view -
of an impersonable type.

It strike's me as totally odd, because such verbiage suggests, that I may or may not see thing's the same way. I think therefore I am - so to speak.

When I look at my Cnd. psyche, I have to admit, Harper actually inspired me for the first time on such a subjective visceral view of himself.

When I think of peace-loving, or fair-minded, pleasant, I presume it means I am subject to those thing's in return - even when they are not - is the question, is the same, is the answer - I search.

More often than not, I rarely do receive the same answer.

So, in Harper's world-view of Cnd's, pre-olympic satire, I choose not to answer to what is tough, what is aggression, what is ambition. As a matter of fact, it makes us who we are, it is part of our distinct character - a national identity - which also can be characterized as though us as nationalist's. (That is what I would presume.)

Again, we are faced with a mini-crisis, where aggression, toughness, ambition, equate to satisfying the status quo. Us as Cnd. must seek such status, us identify with, outmuscling our opponent's if interfered with (tough), or strength in reform as assertive (aggression), or capitalist virtue of decisive not so much constructive (ambition).

These are thing's which all remind me of a chicken coup, trapped, obsessed before it's time. I certainly hold nothing against pm Harper, why should I.

When - I've seen people singing with Ronald Regan, or Yo-YoMa, I think to myself - this won't be the last we see people singing to the same tune, of artillery being made, so to provide arsenal in the hand's of it's insurgent's, classify a war. It's not odd to think about that for me either. I mean - we've done it as the 51st state for a very long time, so why not celebrate it altogether.

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I consider this to be a moral hypothesis of my own variety. That is to say it acts as a hybrid mentality or lack therof hijinx. Greed + silence do not mix very well together.

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SOMEONE GIVE ME A BADGE NOW - OR I AM ALL WARNING YOU - I WILL CONTACT STEPHEN HARPER!oL

The existential romantic (a letter to 'R.')

 February 5th 2013

Dear R.,

 

I respected you always - because you are a model personality.  I have always felt grateful toward knowing you, which I cannot say about just anyone.  I will always have your back.  Through all this time, I have grown to see a lot that helps explain how unimportant certain things are as people think of themselves.  I never quite knew you would be someone I would admire this way.  Most people would dismiss what you read-here as 'kind' in words, when in reality they are unaware their insecurities prevent them from seeing how pure adrenaline is true to ones decrease in irrationality.  (Ask yourself what is rational, then ask how it challenges the conventional needs to increase their motives.) = That is a skewed version of what reality truly represents only we are semiconscious of it. In other words, what this informs me of - of people that I once knew no longer exist to me - as what I believe my right of passage examines.  They have forgotten who they are because they have sold out.  That is the world we are living in today.

 

The generation we have grown in are completely unaware of it.

 

Best regards,

 

The Big Canadiano

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“Whenever a man does a thoroughly stupid thing, it is always from the noblest motives.”

-- Oscar Wilde

"The reason we all like to think so well of others is that we are all afraid for ourselves. The basis of optimism is sheer terror."

-- Oscar Wilde

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"The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to itself."

-- from The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

"Goals are not only absolutely necessary to motivate us. They are essential to really keep us alive." - Robert Schuller

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Sometimes, almost foolishly, what lives in the universe somehow tricks the mind as though the world is set against you, that is when you realize the ability you have to semi-power it. (Semi-power= energy.)

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“I believe that you're great, that there's something magnificent about you. Regardless of what has happened to you in your life, regardless of how young or how old you think you might be, the moment you begin to think properly, there's something that is within you, there's power within you, that's greater than the world. It will begin to emerge. It will take over your life. It will feed you. It will clothe you. It will guide you, protect you, direct you, sustain your very existence, if you let it. Now, that is what I know for sure.”

- Michael Bernard Beckwith

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"We have to go for what we think we're fully capable of, not limit ourselves by what we've been in the past." - Vivek Paul

"He who is not everyday conquering some fear has not learned the secret of life." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

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R.'s identity is that my idea of Republic, Romance, Rationality (a renewed version of how to reform beliefs.)

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"That is a skewed version of what reality truly represents only we are semiconscious of it. In other words, what this informs me of - of people that I once knew no longer exist to me - as what I believe my right of passage examines." (MA2013)

^That is a true definition of knowledge via Socrates.

Surreptitious fruit

“We feel and know that we are eternal.”

Baruch Spinoza

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^All that means to me is when I feel something literally. It is the fact I know intuitively, that this intuitive level of investigation, only measures exactly what is that feeling is trying to tell me. I just need a feeling to know how I am being judged. It's how I have lived my entire life. I formulate everything there is around it.

Do not read that thinking my interpretation metaphorically illustrates a self centered person living a life that has impenetrable boundaries.

The safest way to think, isn't about going to the most dangerous elements of your mind, then thinking is poisonous - a place.

(No one breathes underwater.)

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"The world is the totality of facts, not of things" (Proposition 1.1) in his Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus.

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If we were to lie given a promise of something greater. Would you live your life (knowing) that without the lie - would lead you to death. How do you know. You can't possibly know the difference. There are people of all kinds. We live in world that vengeance is normalized since the inception of Adam and Eve in Eden. However, since the cradle of psychology as a science has helped shape our world. The view of this private dilemma, between living a lie and shaping our virtue. The true nature of one's secret life comes at a cost.

My point is we all have skeleton's in our closet. But when you are charged with the criminal offensive as what is a lie to cover your lack of potential. Then the crime fits a punishment. This is of course a cause of fiction. We live our lies as if we live inside a fictitious mind to enable ourselves on a societal level.

Live the fiction. That's how you know when feeling is a mirage or is more of a biblical narrative. Surreal in your thoughts. (e.g. surreptitiously)

All I know is I've created a certain level of consciousness that the narrative is not as boring to process. Especially when thinking of things. (i.e. philosophically)

This acts as a word for word in accountability. I think this is what philosophical law (the genius) Wittgenstein offered.

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Abstraction if not philosophy is also truth because we are fearing to be judged. Language is a medium to the furthest point of death. My meditation vs the mediation of others = what is a metaphysical event interfering with personal sensations or what I think of as the predictability to understand a thing.

If you were to lie to yourself about everything I just wrote, is it possible you never thought about it. (Causal interpretation)

The cause of nature is to force the ambiguity in life as though you think on an empirical level to justify your thoughts. (Metacognition)

So what comes first?

Empiricism vs virtue?

1 - Abstraction is ambiguous by its very nature. (Empiricism)

2 - To examine life should be the same thing while thinking. A critical examination to what is being said either internally or external to. (Virtue)

Unless you are willing to live your life as ambiguous to it, where there is no cause that death supplies your innate ability to register thought. What's the point? The point is in sensing how to trust your thoughts, not to the same psychic understanding of another's.

- Marco

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Oscar Wilde -

“Those who are faithful know only the trivial side of love: it is the faithless who know love’s tragedies.”

what is factual a thing

 I wrote this as a coming of age back in 2024.

Probably the best treatise of what is acting I have ever formulated into comprehension (language art).

If you know anything (or not) relative to acting.

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- Marco

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Acting is channeling a medium without your inner cynic observing what exists between what is both being impulsive being neurotic and eliminating the need to both being seen being validated.

Your only refusal should be not to squander a role by negating yourself in the process.

At the core of an actors acting ability is it the courage to maintain a dialogue between being decisive at making choices or can making choices result in being decisive. How does the brain interpret what is happening vs what needs to happen. The ultimate question is what will the character want that drives the intent behind ones inhibition to do so.

MA

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The hardest part of existence is pulling apart puzzle pieces that are already in place to make you think were properly put together. - Marco

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Facts are nothing but stats made to steal, words are unmistakable in that their worthless. Somewhere between the two is your escape. MA2024

Getting Wired

 February 4th 2014

“…love and gluttony justify everything.”-- Oscar Wilde

It has been 10 years since facebook has changed my life. Using this medium as a publishing tool has been the best thing that ever happened to me.

When I look at myself and ask what it all means is simple. That people unaware of themselves would hardly equate a real question worth knowing what it is I have to offer. (I will get to this aspect shortly further on.) In these words and in my use of language - I see a great deal of abundance. What characterizes my writing is how less instinctive readers are. They answer questions they rather not be asked if push came to shove.

I have encountered some of the most frivolous, bigoted, uneducated natives in Facebook community which has translated into real life.

The sad part is as this nude sense of myself caters to an unsuspecting audience. The truth is as I mentioned a few sentences prior re; how investigators of my cause choose to see me fail rather than be enablers. What that means is no matter how I have ideas worthy of consideration to its executioners.

The bottom line is I am proud. Even if the knife in my back appears to be lodged in it, nothing can take away what I have accomplished on facebook. Nothing.

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The fact of the matter is people that know I have answers in a theoretical sense, this acts threatening to others that rather see me fail at their mercy or better judgment.